*Zayn's POV*
The door shuts and I hear Laim banging on it before screaming. I slide down the wall and close my eyes. I'm still trying to process what just happened through my head. I thought Laim was better than that, but why did he cheat on me? With a girl he just met!? Or did he alrweady know her from somewhere? Maybe Liam isn't gay, but bisexual. Maybe she's an ex-girlfriend that he still has feelings for. But why me? Why do I have to be the one that gets hurt? First Ryan and now Liam? It seems like when I really love someone, they always tend to let me go.
I now feel tears running down my face as the elevator moves to the first floor. I hold myself and just rock back and forth. This has to be a dream, Liam wowuld never hurt me! He's trying to make me better! Please someone tell me this is just a dream. I want to wake up now, its not a funny dream! Someone, please...
"Sir? Are you alright?" I look up and see a man in red coat, looking at me with worried eyes. I open my mouth but then shut it. I don't trust my voice right now. I stand up and run out the hotel, not stopping for anyone. I don't know exactly where I am going, but I will soon. I just have to make some phone calls. I'm glad I decided to bring my bag with me, it has my laptop and camera in it. I don't think I could ever leave those behind.
I keep running and running, everything around me becoming a blur. I don't want to feel or see, I just want to run. Run away from this place, all my problems and even this Earth! I don't want to live this way anymore! I make a left turn and crash bodies into somebody. I fall on the ground and sit up right away, ignoring the pain because it brings pleasure to my body. I check on my camera and laptop, still in perfect condiction.
"Zayn? OMG are you okay?"
I look up and see Niall standing there, with a smile on his face as always. But his smile soon drops and he takes my hand. I quickly rip it away and backup slowly.
"What happened?" I shake my head and try to run, but he grabs me before I could. "No. You're going to talk to me. Lets go." He pulls me to his place and we sit in his Living Room, in scilence.
"Alright, what's wrong Zayn? And don't say nothing is wrong because I know you better than that. I watched your videos all the time and I know that look. Just tell me what's up." I nod and take a deep breath.
"Did Liam ever have a girlfriend, like ever?"
He shakes his head. "He's 100% gay Zayn. Why?"
"I caught him and some... some girl I met at Starbucks makingout on the couch. He said he wouldn't hurt me Niall!" I start crying again and Niall sits next to me, rubbing my back. I lean into him and cry harder.
"I'm sorry Zayn. I-i didn't think, I mean he... uggg look I know that he really loves you. He would give up his only world for you if he had to. Because you are his only world. Now if you say is true, then he's a dumbass. But I'm serious Zayn, he really does love you. I don't know why he did that or what was going through his mind. Just know that." I nod and try to look at him through my tears.
"I just don't want to get hurt again, Ni."
I see his eyes widen and his mouth form a 'o' shape. I sigh and run my face, standing back up. "I got to go. Uh, see ya later." I run out the front door and pull out my phone.
"Hello?"
"Doniya? Are you okay?" I hear her chuckle.
"I'm fine. What's up?"
"Where are you exactly right now?" I ask.
"Home in bed. I have to rest. Why?"
"I'm on my way back. Talk to you then." I hung up and start walking to find the Airport. I just hope I have enough money to pay for a ticket on such short notice. I walk in and go striaght to the counter.
"Hello, how can I help you?" I wipe the tears from my eyes and try to smile. I'm leaving Liam here, all alone, and without even telling him. But I can't stay here. He hurt me after he told me so many times that he wouldn't. I don't even want to hear the story, I just feel so hurt and betraded. I can't even explain the pyshical and emotional plain right now.
"How much for a flight back to Bradford on such short notice?" She looks at me with sympothy and worry. Why does everyone do that, like stop its just making me feel even worse about myself.
"Awe hun, you know what. Here. Just go get on that plain sweetheart." I reach for the ticket with my shakey hand. Is she serious? I can't just take it without some kind of payment.
"Its okay, really. Just go please? Don't tell anyone." I nod and walk over to the gate.
"Ticket?" I nod and hand it to her. She gives it back and says 'Have a nice day'. But I honestly didn't hear it. I just barly made it out. Its offical, I'm leaving to go back home where all the trouble really happened. But I need it. I have to feel some kind of pain again.
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Fiksi PenggemarZayn Malik is an average kid living a normal life. Since a little kid, Zayn never had many friends. He was always the quite kid and was bullied constantly. He has depression, anxiety, and he selfharms. His mother has no idea what Zayns life is like...
