To Love and Lost {Ziam Paylik}

Chapter Thirty

*Ryan's POV*

I'm glad me and Zayn had talked it out. I mean, yeah I still am in love with him and would love to have him back, but its just not right. He has Liam now and is happier than ever. And if he can make Zayn happy from the pain that I had caused him, then fine by me. I just want to see him smile and laugh like he used to, all I want is for him to be happy.

I mix the rest of the batter while Zayn sits on the counter and stares at me. I look back at him and chuckle. "What?" He shakes his head and looks up at the celing. I roll my eyes and go back to mixing the batter so we could put them in before the girls get home. I can't tell if he's staring at me again, but I can feel it. I look back and he is.

"Zayn are you okay? You've been staring at me for awhile now." He jumps off the counter and stands next to me.

"I was waiting for you to finish the batter." He sticks his finger in the batter and eats it. Oh he did not just do that! I stick my hand in the batter, running my hand through his hair. He jumps back and stares at me.

"YOU DID NOT JUST RUIN MY HAIR!" I laugh and lick my finger.

"Still insecure about your hair I see. To be honest, your hair looks better with chuncks in it." He gives me a cold stare before walking over to me. "But" I pull out his old glasses that I kept because... well I don't really have a reason "you would look much better in these." I put them on him and smile. He still looks the same as he did when I first met him.

"Wow, I've been wondering where these went." I chuckle and dpour what ever batter we have left in a pan.

"You left them at the house. I just found them again, so I thought you should have them. I have no use for them." He smiles and kisses my cheek.

"Well thank you Ryan. That was very thoughtful."

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*Liam's POV*

Call me obsessed, crazy or whatever, but I have to do this. I need to see how he's doing. I've been looking through his twitter for awhile now, but I don't know why I keep doing it. He hasn't updated in 13 hours! I sigh when I realize I'm going completly insane. I go to my home page and look through the tweets.

I passed one up but go back to it when it really catches my eye. The tweet was from Doniya and she posted it about 4 mintues.

"@DoniyaMalik: Totes my second fav OTP! @zaynmalik @RyannDudee"

There the picture was Zayn kissing Ryan's cheek. He's wearing those same glasses he wore in the video he made with him... he's in the same room as him... he's kissing his cheek. What if he's already getting over me? What if he takes Ryan back and he's but through all that pain again? I can't let that happen. My heart will literally break if he's with someone else.

I'm sorry but I love him to much to let this or him go. Okay so maybe I am alittle obsessed... but I really don't care. I know he still loves me too... I hope. I can't see him pick Ryan over me, I just can't. It will be to heartbreaking to see. I call up Niall to tell him the news.

"What ya want Liam?"

"Remember how you said I shoud give Zayn awhile before I go to get him back?" I mentally picture him nodding before he answers me. I start to slip on my shoes and grab the hotel key.

"I do. What about it?"

"Change in plan. When's the next plane to Bradford?" I hear him choke and spit out whatever it was in his mouth. I picture him standing up with his mouth opened wide.

"Liam! I told you to give him some time!!"

"I know, Ni. But I'm sorry, I can't lose him to Ryan." I hang up and pull on my jacket and run out the hotel door. When I make it downstairs I throw the money and keys to the counter guy, running out the door. I push past people, not even sayong sorry or whatever. Its not like me, but right now is serious.

When I make it to the Airport I look around and find a counter lady... thing. "When's the next plan to Bradford?" He smiles and types away in her computer before looking back up at me.

"When the plane that went there already comes back and that's about a 20 mintue wait." I thank her and toss her some money for my ticket. I sit down in a chair and rub my face in my hands. I really can't lose him, I jusy can't. I won't be able to live a day without him. I hear a seat next to me get taken and I look up to see a teenage girl smiling at me.

"Hi Liam. My names Jilian, I'm a huge fan of yours!" I smile and give her a hug, giving her a 'thank you'. "So... where's Zayn? Are you waiting for him? Aren't you to be here for another week?" I smile and shake my head.

"Well, yes I am to be here for another week... but things came up. And no I'm not waiting for Zayn, I'm actually going to get him right now. We had alittle conflict and he's mad at me. And he's with his ex so I'm afraid he might take him over me." She smiles softly and rubs my shoulder.

"I'm sorry Liam. But you are doing an amazing thing, you know. Not many people have the courage to fight for the ones that they love. I'm proud of you, I always have been and I always will be. Yuiou surprise me almost everyday... thank you." I hug her again and pull away.

I get her twitter and follow her before my plane is ready for me. I'm going to win his heart back, he can't give up on me that easily...

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Awe yay! So I hope you enjoyed this chapter because I now got it up. I'm sorry I haven't posted in awhile, I've been having really bad panic attacks lately so I have been able to function. But I'm okay now! But if you did like, vote for me because it helps and leave me one of those comments! (:

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