To Love and Lost {Ziam Paylik}

Chapter Thirty-Two

*Zayn's POV*

I should have listened to Liam, I know he would never do that to me. Its just not like him to do that. I was just worried and scared of being hurt again that's all. I didn't want o fall back into the start I was in for those 5 years. I want to do the better for me, I really do. But really, you are stupid Malik. You love this guy with all your heart and he loves you with all his heart. Next time I need to think before I react.

"You know, it hurt when you compared me to Ryan. I know you guys are cool and all now, but I'm nothing like Ryan was. And to hear you actually compare me to him, I was hurt." I frown and sit on his lap, playing with his hair.

"I know, I'm sorry. Sometimes I let words slip before I could process them through. And I know you are nothing like Ryan was. I was just hurt at the time so I had to think of a way to hurt you. But I went to far and I'm really sorry, Li." He smiles and I kiss him again, just letting it be known.

His hands finds their way to my side and he rubs them. I smile into the kiss, still playing with his hair. I know that's a huge turn on for Liam, so that's why I do it. I really haven't told him what my turn on are, well because I really don't have any. But Liam, he has a lot! Just the amount I need to make him feel good and loved.

"You're never going to leave me again, are you?" He shakes his head fast, making me smile. "Good, and I will never leave you ever again."

"Through love and lost?" He says.

"Through love and lost."

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{2 days later}

"Ryan! Can you turn that down? I got a headache." I don't know what wrong with me. My head hurts, my whole body hurts, I can't eat and I feel dizzy and nausious all the time. I think I might be sick, I feel hot and I might just have a temperature. And Ryan isn't making this headache any better by blasting his music so the whole neighborhood can hear it.

"For real, I can call Liam if your sick man." I shake my head. Please don't let him call Liam! I swear I'm fine I just need to rest abit. And then in the morning when we go to fly back to Sidney, I should be fine. I don't want to make him worry anyways, he already had enough stress on him.

"Then eat something. Show me." I sigh and sit up, automatically regreting it cause I can't see straight. I walk over to the kitchen and grab a chocolate bar before unwrapping it. I took a bite out of it and throw my hands up in the air, showing him that I'm not sick. I feel something in my stomache and I put my hand on it. That couldn't be good.

I run over to the bathroom and sit my head in the toilet. I puke up the little bit of chocolate and whatever else was sitting in my stomache. Okay, I may be sick but I don't need Liam... or maybe I do. Ryan comes in and rubs my back handing my a towel and glass of water. I thank him and lay be on the cool tile wall. Ryan then puts him hand on my forehead and I lean into his touch. He was so cold and I was so hot. He take his hand away and shakes his head.

"I'll be back, I'm calling Liam." He walks out the bathroom, making me sigh. I really didn't want Liam to worry about me anymore. I already but enough stress in his life as it is, why did I have to be sick? I try to take a drink of the water, but I just end up puking it up like everything else. Doniya walks by, but comes in when she's sees me. I feel tears come up and I try to hold them.back, but I just feel so weak and defeated.

"Oh Zayn..."

I cry into her shoulder and hold her. "What's wrong with me? I can't sleep, I can't eat without puking it up the next second, I'm so sore, I'm so dizzy and I can't stand up or stop feeling nausious. I don't want to be a problem to anyone but I can't help it." She rubs my back and helps me up off the floor.

"Your just sick, okay buddy? Your going to get better soon." She helps me sit on the couch where I curl up into a ball and groan. I just hurt all over and I don't like it. Why can't there be this pill that makes you feel better in a second? I'd take that everyday...

"Zayn? How are you feeling?" I open my eye and see Liam standing there, making me smile. I nod and open my arms up, I just want to cuddle him right now. He pulls me up and lays down on the couch, laying me on him. I nuzzel my head into his chest and close my eyes again. He always makes me feel loved, even when I feel like I don't deserve it.

I can in fact say Liam is the first person in my life that I actually love with all my heart. I did love Ryan, but not like I love Liam. Liam is another kind of love that words can't even describe, not even anything can. He's just.... perfect. Everyone says that nothing in this world is perfect, but seriously, have you seen Liam? Or even been around him enough? Literally he is perfect.

I really can't even thank him enough for everything that he did in my life. For anyones life. He make people just feel like they are worth it and they are truly loved. Even if they don't want to believe it, Liam will always be there *if your a fan or friend of him* to make you feel better. He couldn't hurt a fly even if he tried hard enough. He's just to... I don't even know.

I'm just glad that he came into my life. I was in the deepest darkest hole in the world and I couldn't get out. But then Liam showed up and helped me out. I don't even know how he did it, but I'm am very thankful that he did. I could have died and been in a worse place then I was if he didn't bump into me. Everyone I know is thanking him, when really I should be theeonly one thanking him. I know he's helped them too, by keeping me happy and alive, but he has did so much more for me then them.

"Just go to sleep, Zee. I'll be here when you wake up." And with that I did fall asleep. He kissed my head and I wrapped my arms around him. Never wanting to let go... ever.

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UGGG IM SO SORRY! I've just been in a really dark place latly and I've been working my ass off these past days. But I really hope you enjoyed this chapter. I don't really have anymore excuses... but give it a big vote if you did like it and don't forget to comment for me (:

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