Chapter Eighteen

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*Zayn's POV*

When we get to the stage, fans were already getting in their seats. I smile and we hop backstage. Niall and three other boys are standing there chatting away until the curly boy sees Liam. "Aye yo its Daddy payne!" Liam laughs and hugs him, before hugging the other two. The one with a quiff but its blondish brown puts his arm around my shoulder and smiles. He looks back at Liam and asks,

"So this is you boytoy that can sing?" Liam punches him in his arm and the other two stand by the blondish quiff guy. "Well hello! My name is Josh. You already met Niall as I see. And the curly boy is Harry and Mr. Blue Eyes is Louis." Louis laughs and shakes my hand. Harry smiles, showing me his dimples. I smile and wave, showing that I'm shy.

"Oh come on Zayn! We all know your not that shy." Niall says, making me give a weak laugh. We all get our mic's and practice a bit. When 4:50 comes around, I grab my guitar and start walking towards the stage. I can already feel the excitment pumping through my body. I'm signaled to head on out and when I do, the fans scream and go wild. I sit on the stool and smile. Once it quited down abit I started.

"Hey guys. So most of you won't know who I am, so I'm here to tell you alittle background story about me. My name is Zain Jawaad Malik, I'm 17 years old and I'm from Bradford, England. I moved to New York City when I was about 7-8 years old for my mums job that she got. When I got in middle school, I was an outcast. I never had many friends, I didn't really join any groups because I had anxiety. But it started to go away through out middle school and got bad in 8th grade. I got my first boyfriend, yes I'm gay, and I would like to say we were in love. But once everyone started to find out about us, he chickened out and broke up with me. So that's when they started bulling me more calling me a faggot and gay kid.

"Then I got to the point were enough was enough. No I didn't tell anyone what they were doing to me, I just left it be. Which was the worse things I could have possible did. I started at the time cutting myself and believing that I was a mistake on this world. I took pills from my mum, I smoked anything I got my hands on and I constantly cut myself. That's been happening for the past 5 years. So I'm a senior now and that's when I met up with Liam. He came into my life and I saw the light at the end of the tunnel that I would never see again. So thank you Liam."

I looked out at the crowd and they began screaming and shouting. I heard 'Zayn I love you!' which made me laugh.

"Awe I love you, too. But without further ado, I am a singer and song writer. I write my own song and sing them and things like that, ha. So today I'm going to singing 2 of my favorite songs for you guys. The first one is called 'Scars'." I began playing the guitar before singing.

Those scars on your wrists are the mark of the world
An ocean that's left you so torn
But remember the heart you brought into this world
The same one as when you were born

How confused you must be
Finding love in the blood that you bleed
But the truth is that I see
Why you say that 'it's hard to be me'
And we all make mistakes
Its not you, but this world you should hate
You're as beautiful as you were yesterday

And those tears in your eyes are the product of lies
You've been lead to believe that they're true
But remember the light you brought into this world
I promise it will get you through

How confused you must be
Finding love in the blood that you bleed
But the truth is that I see
Why you say that 'it's hard to be me'
And we all make mistakes
Its not you, but this world you should hate
You're as beautiful as you were yesterday

I laugh and smile when everyone starts screaming. I play a few cords and go back to the mic. "So I hope you enjoyed that one. And to tell you the truth. All of you are beautiful. You might have flaws but that's what make you human. So this next one is when you are feeling down and you just can't find the light again. But I'm telling you all, you can find the light again. If I did it, so can you. So this one is called 'Bruise My Bones'".

I'm about to fall down, fall down.
And I'm beginning to doubt,
I can't live with myself so let's drown, let's drown.
And if there's no going back..

This secret's safe with me, oh how you make me believe
that you won't say a word as long as I don't breathe.
But I've been here before and I can already tell
that I'm about to bleed all over the floor.
And I wish I'd known better than to bruise my bones.

I'm about to fall down, fall down.
And I'm beginning to doubt,
I can't live with myself
so let's drown, let's drown.
And if there's no going back,
we'll take the easy way out.

I'll give you everything when it's convenient for me.
If you don't stop my heart, I'll struggle with every beat.
My hands are tied behind my back with rope made out of what I lack.
Where the hell did I go wrong?
I'll sing with you as you proceed to bruise my bones.

I'm about to fall down, fall down.
And I'm beginning to doubt,
I can't live with myself
so let's drown, let's drown.
And if there's no going back..

I'm about to fall down, fall down.
And I'm beginning to doubt,
I can't live with myself
so let's drown, let's drown.
And if there's no going back,
we'll take the easy way out.

I finish my song and the rest of the day goes on like this. It was pretty epic if you have to ask me. It was amazing and the party at the end was incrediable! The fans were so full of energy and they were amazing. After that me and Liam head back to our hotel room. I get in the shower and then let him, before we head to bed.

"I love you Zayn. Your song are amazing." I smile and kiss his nose.

"Well I love you more, and thank you. Yours are pretty good to." He laughs and wraps his arms around me before we fall asleep.

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YAY! Another chapter, I got another chaoter done for ya. And if you are wondering what the songs were, its 'Scars' and 'Bruise My Bones' by SayWeCanFly. I hope you enjoyed reading this and please don't forget to vote and comment for me! Love ya bye! (: ♥

Random Question: What's your favorite sad song?

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