To Love and Lost {Ziam Paylik}

Chapter Thirty-Nine

*Zayn's POV*

We walk back to Niall's place and I take my shirt off while we walk. We just finished the concert for the night and it was amazing. I never experienced something like that before, and I loved every second of it. I don't think I would ever take a mintue of my life back. I love the one that I have right now.

Niall was going to be over at Harry and Louis' for the next few days so they could come up more songs for their band or whatever. They have been working really hard and I could tell Niall was stressed out. But he's doing a good job being a happy and cheerful lad.

I throw my shirt on the floor as we walk in and I look at myself in the mirror. I smile but also cringe at my sweaty nasty hair. Liam comes behind me and wraps his arms around me. He pulls my arms up and runs his fingers over them. Nothing but faded scars are there and I'm smiling. I'm finally happy in life and I stopped what I never wanted to stop but did.

"Look at you, your so beautiful..." I turn around and smile as I press my lips on his. He deeps the kiss and puts his hands on my waist, tracing small circles on me. I moan and it catches me, I do have a turn on. I blush but kiss him back with them same level of passion. He pulls me closer to him and I wrap my arms around his neck. He pushes me to a wall and I wrap my fingers messily in his hair.

"Jump..." I nod and did as I was told. I quickly wrapped my legs around his waist, not trying to fall and ruin the mood. He puts his hands under my bum and gives it a light sqeeze. I smirk and kiss his nose before working on his neck. I kiss it gently and say,

"Do you like it here?" Kissing and nipping at his collor bone. He throws his head back but doesn't respond. "How about here?" I nip at the base of his neck but agian, no responce.

"Here?" I kiss and nip right under his ear and that's when I get it out of him. He moans and I moan just hearing him moan. Its fucking sexy! I continue to kiss and nip at this skin until its bright red and sure to be a bruise in the morning. I lick the sensitive spot and kiss his cheek before kissing his lips again. He pulls me as close as we could get and walks backwards.

I fee my back now hit a door as Liam fumbles to open it up. I help him and he kicks it right open. I get layed down and he pulls his shirt off, climbing back ontop of me. I lean up to kiss him but he pulls away and chuckles. I rool my eyes as I pull his head down and plant his lips on mine. He slowly begins to grind on me so I buckle my hips on him.

"Zayn? I want you to fuck me." I hear my breathe hitch as he says that. I look up at him and his eyes are filled with love and lust. I smirk, turning us over that I am on top this time. I catch my breathe this time and kiss him, rocking my hips back and forth on him, straddling him.

"Liam, are you sure? We don't have to." I say, just wanting to make sure. I didn't want nto make him feel used or anything in that sort. Plus he was still a virgan so... I would be his first. And he's trusting me...

"Yes, Zayn. Please just... fuck me now." I nod and begin to take his belt off, still looking for a sign to stop. But I never found one. He's really letting me take a big part of his life away from him... he really trust me that much. This is a big step for him, and I'm just smiling the way through.

I get my pants off and his plus his boxers. I cringe and look at Liam. "You wouldn't have brought any lube or condoms with you, would you?" He shakes his head and I sigh. I don't want it to be painful for him, its going to hurt like hell without those.

"Niall, room. Now." I nod and make my way to Niall's room. I open up his top draw and laugh when its the first thing you find. I pull them out and go back to our room, where an unpacient Liam waited. I lugh and walk back over to him, opening up the bottle.

"Babe, this is going to hurt like hell. But know I love you and I'll try to make it feel as good as I can." He nods as I rub some lube over my fingers. I lean down and plant kisses on his lips and I slide one finger into him. He makes a face at the coolness of the liquid and new tension. He cups mt face and pulls me closer to him. I begin to thrust my finger in and out, hearing him moan in pleasure. I add another finger, and another trying to get him ready.

"Zayn, please... I want you in me... please." I chuckle and sit up, pulling my boxers down slowly.

"I know, I know. Have pacients Liam. Are you sure your ready? I don't want to pressure you into it." He nods faster this time, letting me know that he really wants this. I unwrap the condom, putting it on and rubbing lube over it. I climb over Liam and peck his lips. "I. Love. You. Tell me when to move okay?" He nods and I slowly push into him.

His eyes cringe and he bites him lip, hard. I try to distract him and started kissing his neck again. He plays with my hair and moans. I peck his cheek a few times and look at him. He nods and smiles.

"You can move now..." I kiss his him once more and slowly moved back and forth. He shut his eyes in pain, just a tear sheaded. I stopped with worry and fear that I had hurt him.

"Does it hurt? We can stop." He shakes his head and moves abit on his own.

"Stop talking. Just go..." I rock my hips and he groans, leaving his lips parted lightly. I smile and move abit faster this time, hearing him moan out my name.

"Z-zayn... f-uck my god." I kiss him and lick his bottom lip, asking to come in. He opens up and I explore his mouth, him doing the same to me. We both moan into each others mouth, him rubbing me and scratching my back.

"Zayn, I-I'm close..." I take my hand away from his head and wral it around him, slowly pumping him. He moans and thrusts his hips along with me.

"I know babe, me too." With a couple last thrusts into him, we both reach out climaxs. I pull out of him and throw everything away, cleaning up a bit. I get back in bed and cuddle into Liam's side, kissing his collorbone and neck for the 50th time today.

"Just warning, your ass will be in pain in the morning." He groans and wraps his arms around me. Kissing me nose slightly.

"Don't remind me."

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