To Love and Lost {Ziam Paylik}

Chapter Thirty-Three

*Zayn's POV*

I woke up and seen that Liam wasn't next to me. And I wasn't on the couch anymore, I was in my bed. Maybe he carried me... was I really in a deep sleep? I smile and shake it off *No, Taylor Swift*. My headache is gone and I feel not as hot as I was yesterday. I hear the door open and pops in a shirtless Liam Payne.

"Hey buddy... you feeling any better." I smile and nod my head.

"Now I do." He rolls his eyes at me and gets back in bed with me. I wrap my airs around him and cuddle into his chest. Even if I did feel hot when I woke up, I'm freezing now and his body heat is enough. He kisses my fore head and I sigh. I don't know why, but my heart just feels alittle heavy...

Maybe its because we never broke up properly and I cheated on him by kissing Ryan. Just remembering that made my heart feel heavier, so that's it. But I don't know why, it was a mistake. Why can I just forget and move on with my.life, being happy with Liam? Because it feels like I cheated on him, and I know exactly how it feels to be cheated on. Its not a good feeling.

But does he really have to know? I mean, I'm sorry I won't do it again. But I think I do... I need to get this heavy heart of mine not so heavy anymore. Its not fair to him and its not fair to me that I have this weight on my shoulders.

"Liam? Can I tell you something?" He nods and holds me closer to him. "Promise you won't get mad at me."

"I promise, it can be that bad." I sigh and look up at him.

"I may or may not have kinda... cheated on you while I was mad and you were still in Sydney." I looks at me and then chuckles. WHY IS HE LAUGHING, its not funny.

"Okay and? Zayn I'm not mad, I understand why you did it. You thought I was cheating on you so you get revenge. Therefore, your not to blame." I sigh with relief and hugg him this time. "Just who was it with?"

"Ryan..." I whispered. I felt his body go stiff and he was no longer rubbing my back. I can tell he wasn't expecting that at all. "But it was nothing more than a peck I swear." He nods and smiles, probably brushing it aside.

"Are you able to sing tonight? If not I can get Niall, I don't think he'd mind. Have you even posted a new video? Or wrote a song?" I tghink over ally the questions he had asked and had an answer to all of them.

"Maybe, we'll see. No I haven't posted but I do have a song. So I ca just post that yeah?" He nods and sets everything up by the bed as I try to make myself look presentable. I had bags under my eyes, my face was drained and my hair didn't want to work today, I'll just wear a beanie. I sit on the bed and grab my guitar, having Liam sit next to me.

"Heelllloooo! And now before you ask, yes that was my best Marcus Butler impression and yes I know I look like hell! I've just been sick and I forgot to make a video and I didn't have many songs and I didn't want to vlog because I was sick, but you guys get the point. But today I do have a songfor you guys and it goes out to my beautiful boyfriend in the world, Liam! I think I'm going to call it 'You Got It All but let me know what you guys think in the comments below. Alright, here we go!

" Some people got soul

Some people got passion

Some people got wisdom

But you got it all

Some people got strength

Some people got courage

Some people got vision

But you got it all

Some people got drive