To Love and Lost {Ziam Paylik}

Chapter Fourty-One

*Zayn's POV*

Liam and Niall have been acting really strange around me latly, I hope their okay. I've never see Liam so worked up over something, and he's not telling me. I mean, I tell him everything, why can't he say what's on his mind? I'm trying to act like I'm not worried, but its hard. Everytime I ask Liam if he's alright, he stiffens up, says yes and then calls Niall. I need to know, its like eating me alive.

So I called Niall and asked if he wanted to hand so we could come up with ideas on our video, The Best Friend Tag. But really, I just want to know whats going on. I know it sounds selfish, but I need to know what's wrong with MY boyfriend! He's telling his best friend everything, I just feel likes he's slipping away from me...

Niall walks through the door of Starbucks and walk over to me, smiling. "Hey Zee!" I smile back and take a sip of my coffee. Oh, and to mention we are at a different Starbucks than the on she works at. He takes a sit acroos from me and plays on his phone before setting it down to talk.

"So I was thinking, maybe could do that egg thing. Ask questions, general because we don't know a lot.about each other, and then if we get it wrong, bust an egg on our head. But if you have a different idea that's cool. Its your channel." I sigh and shake my head.

"Before we talk about the video, I wanna talk to you about something." I see him nod his head slowly, waiting for my question. "What's up with you and Liam? And don't tell me its nothing! I've never seen Liam so worked up about something and he's telling you instead of me. I just feel like.I'm losing him." I see Niall nod and sit back in his chair.

"Well I won't tell you its nothing. But he doesn't really know who to tell you in a way that seems... I don't know. Its just a hard topic, and trust me, I don't know why he just can't tell you." I nod and and wait for him to go on.

"But I'm going to tell you the truth, since you want to know. Bet its been killing you. But he doesn't want you to know that we da-" Niall was about to tell me but then Liam walks in. He smiles and pulls up a seat next to us.

"Hey, there you guys are. What's up?" I sigh out of annoyence and close my eyes, counting to 10. I don't normally get mad, but this was jist pissing me off. They go around and act like everythings okay but its not okay. They are cutting me out of everything and I'm not really liking it.

"Niall was just telling me something. But I guess its not important to me." I stand up and throw my cup away. I hear Liam talking to Niall in the background about me.

"What's wrong with him?"

I roll my eyes and walk out of Starbucks, heading back to Nialls place. Just being around them and not knowing what's going on between them pisses me off. What's so bad that I can't know it? I'm Liam's boyfriend, not Niall so I deserve to know. Its just pissing me off that he can't talk about it to me.

I don't like being mad at Liam, but seriously I don't see what's the big problem. I feel alittle selfish that I'm being this way, just wanting to know. But I'm sure other people do this also. Its not jealously... or maybe it is? He does talk to Niall a lot, more than he talks to me. I just don't want to lost him again that's all... yeah that sounds selfish.

"Zayn!" I turn around and see Liam chading after me. Again, I roll my eyes and keep walking the way I was going. "For real, what's wrong with you?"

"Nothing. Why don't you talk to Niall about it like you always do!" He flinches at the words coming out mt mouth, slightly looking hurt. But I don't care at this moment, he deserves it I think.

"What? Zayn what's going on?"

"You want to know? Fine! Since I tell you everything and you don't tell me anything! Your always talking to Niall now and its pissing me off bcause your stressed out over and you won't let me help you! I feel like your slipping away from me and there's nothing I can't do about it because your not talkng to me about anything. I just want to help but you have to talk to me and not Niall all the time!" I breathe heavily and close my eyes, trying to not cry or explode anymore.

Its about 5 mintues and Liam still hasn't said anything to me. He's taking in my sudden anger, and I don't think he's taking it well. But next thing I know arms are being wrapped around my waist, hands rubbing my back slowly. I relax in his touch, letting out a loud sigh. I didn't mean to blow out on him like that, but I was bottleing it all up. And it came out the wrong way.

"Zayn... I didn't mean to make you feel that way. Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere, I'm right here, ain't I? I'm sorry I didn't talk to you, and I'm still not, I just don't know who you would react to it and how yuiou will react to it. I'm so sorry baby." He kiss the top of my head and I hug him back.

"I sorry I blew up like that. I'm just pissed you can't talk to me. I know he's your besst friend and you love talking to him, but I just think we need to be more opened to each other. If we don't, things like this can happen again and I don't like being mad at you." He nods his head and squeezes me abit before looking at me.

"Do you want to know? But you have to be honest and not get upset or whatever, okay?" I nod and hold his hand, waiting for him to answer. "I used to date Niall..." I look at him and he looks in my eyes, trying to find something. But all I'm sure is he found humor because I started to laugh.

"You were all worked up because you thought I would be upset that you and Niall used to date each other?" He nodded his head slowly, making he laugh and pull him into a hug. He got all worked up over nothing.

"Do you love him still? Are you still attracted to him?" He shakes his head and I kiss his lips. "Than I don't care, Liam. As long as you love me and are attracted to me and not anyone else. I don't care." He smiles and kisses me back.

"I'm sorry I couldn't talk to you or say something. I don't know what I was so scared for. I promise to be more open with you for now on. But I love you."

"Me either, but I love you more."

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