To Love and Lost {Ziam Paylik}

Chapter Fourty-Four

*Zayn's POV* {Weeks Later}

Its been weeks and I still haven't talked to Liam. I'm just upset that he still haven't even tried to talk to me. At the concerts we acted like nothing was wrong, but after that we would walk away from me at all times. I even tried once to talk it out but when I called him, he ignored my call. Does he hate me now? He's the on who start this... I think. Why won't he jist talk to me?

Its not December 20th and I still haven't bought anyone a gift. I've just trapped myself in the house, watching Full House. Niall tried to get me to go out, but I'm waiting for Liam to come out the room. He's been in there for 4 weeks and only came out to use the bathroom or grab something to eat. And that would be when I was asleep so I didn't get to see him.

"Zayn? Come on we gotta go buy Christmas presents. I'm not letting you put this off again." I sigh and look over at the clock. It was only 2 o'clock... guess I could go.

"Alright let's go..." I stand up, brush off my pants and grab my wallet before heading out the door with Niall by my side. We head to his car but then his phone starts ringing, I think that its Liam but then Niall groans before answering.

"Yes Tylor?... You are?... I'm going shopping with a roommate right now... I guess that I could... Just tell me where to drop you off after... alright see ya soon... Bye." He hangs up, unlocks the door and plugs his phone in. "Sorry I got last mintue picking up to do. Hope that's okay."

"That's fine. But who's Tylor?" He sighs and shakes his head.

"Someone I met awhile ago. I think he likes me for some reason but I'm not sure. He's so hooked on me and I never get time alone. But its whatever. I like him too but he's not really my type so I don't think I'll date him." I smile at the thought of Niall having a boyfriend. Liam said that he hasn't had one since they broke up. I just wish him the best of luck. At the thought of Liam, he calls Niall up.

"Yes?... Yes I did... yes he is... okay yeah I can do that, just how many do you need?... will you pay me back?... okay see ya soon... I'm not telling you!... well come up the room some time and see for yourself... alright see ya soon... bye Liam." As soon as he hangs up I start with my questions.

"Did he ask if I was with you? What did he want to know? Is he going to talk to me? NIALL!" We pull up to the Airport and he turns around to me.

"Don't ask. I'm only inbetween because I don't want to lose any friends. Just let it go. You'll see later. Now I'm going to pick up Tylor, just stay here okay?" I nod my head and lay back in my seat. I probably shouldn't have set Niall off like that, now he might go off on that Tylor kid.

I wonder what this kid looks like or how he is in like his personality. Would he be any good if Niall did descide to date him? I will come after him, if they do date, if he hurts my little Niall. Yes he is older than me but he doesn't act or look like it. I jusy hope he is good for him because he really needs it. He needs someone other than me and Liam to make him happy now.

Speaking of Liam, why did he ask if I was with Niall? Did he not want to come out when I was there? Did he not want to see me at all? What if he's plans to break up with me? I don't think I could handle. I'm might be preparing myself in my head, but I'm not in life. I don't even want to think about it right now because I might just break down. I love him to much to even think about losing him.

"Zayn? Earth to Zayn!" I snap out of my thoughts and see Niall sitting in his seat looking at me worriedly. I smile and sit back up in my seat before turning to see the Tylor kid he was talking about.

"Hi Tylor, I'm Zayn." He nods and shakes my hand as Noel speeds off to the Mall.

{Hours Later}

We walk in the house and I'm tired out for the shopping. It was hard to get Harry, Louis and Josh something because I don't know much about them but I got them something. And Liams gift took forever to make. I got him an engraved bracelet that had his name on it, the date that we meet and the date we said we loved each other. I thought it was really cute and special to me so I hope that he likes it. I got Niall a few gift cards to Nando's and some other small things that I hope he likes.

I put my things in the closet and walk back out to the Living Room where where everyone was standing, even Liam. He stood there just staring at me before smiling. I smile back and sit on the couch next to Tylor but Liam pulls my arms and I'm confused. He pulls me into the room we have been staying in and holds me by my waist. I keep my hands at my side because I wasn't sure what I should do. I'm still mad at him for ignoring me but the feelings that I have for him are stronger than that.

"Are you still mad at me?" I sigh and think of my answer. I wasn't mad when he said that to me, I mean I kinda was but I got over it. I was just upset that he had ignored me for weeks and didn't tell me why. That's why I'm upset or mad whatever you wnna call it.

"No I'm not mad, I'm just upset you have been ignoring me these last weeks. I jusy want to know why." He smiles as he lightly places a kiss on my cheek. I'm glad he did because I dint want to kiss him until I get a good enough answer. And I won't go easy on him.

"I'm sorry, baby. I've just been planning things for you and like that. Christmas, your birthday; speaking of that what do you want for your birthday? I tired planning this big party but I don't know many of your-" I cut him off by placing a smiple kiss on his lips. I would kiss him longer but he will have to beg. But I still want to talk first.

"Its okay, just take it easy. So that's why you locked in the room and didn't come out. Only when you knew I wasn't around." He nods his head and falls back onto the bed were I sit next to him. I play with the strands of hair sticking out and smile to myself.

"You still never told me what you wanted for your Birthday."

"I don't want anything. Just as long as we are still together, I'm fine." He smiles and pulls me down next to him. I wrap my arms around his torso and lay my head in his chest. I just missed his warm embrace okay? Jezz get over it! Okay... I'm talking to myself again.

"I wrote a song for you. It was to be a Christmas present but I want you to here it now." He stands up and grabs my guitar before strumming the strings to the song.

" When your legs don't work like they used to before
And I can't sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love?
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?

And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way
I know you will still love me the same

'Cause honey your soul could never grow old, it's evergreen
And, baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory
I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand

But, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
Thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are

So, baby, now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Oh, darling, place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
That maybe we found love right where we are
Oh, baby, we found love right where we are
And we found love right where we are"

I smile and kiss him on his cute little lips. "That was amazing. I loved it and I love you!"

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