Sanders Sides One Shots

Patton's Diary (Royality)

I'm sorry in advance, it's just easy for me to write sad stuff... But it will end nice (unlike my situation heh...).

Warning: Depression

-Roman's POV-

I've been spending a lot of time with Patton, and I've begun to grow feelings for him. One day, I found something on the counter in the bathroom that looked like a diary.
"I wonder whose this is..." I say to no one.

I know I shouldn't snoop in other people's business, but I want to know. I flip to the first page. It said:

Dear diary,
So, today I got to be in an actual YouTube video with Thomas, not just a vine! That makes me so happy and giddy, and I hope we can make more. The others there were Creativity (who I think is handsome but I'm too embarrassed to admit that) and Logic. I hope one day I can learn their real names. Anyhoo, that's all for now.
-Love, Patton

He must've wrote this right after the first Sanders Sides! Oh, how cute! But something caught my attention in that entry: "(who I think is handsome)". Does Patton really think that of me?

At any rate, I continue reading. The earlier ones are cute and happy, but then I read one from a few weeks ago:

Hey, me again.
I know I haven't written in this thing for a while, and I guess I will now. I feel... Sad. I'm not sure how to describe it, exactly... It's like, my chest constantly feels heavy. But I can't let the others know. I have to keep them happy. Happy...

Oh, dear. That's concerning... I read the next one:

So,
I found out what I'm feeling. Apparently, it's called "Depression", and it's a hard thing to get rid of. Maybe if I ignore it, it will go away.
Okay, 2 hours later, I can say that it does not. My mind keeps saying that I'm useless, and a bunch of other bad things.
Stay happy, Patton. H. A. P. P. Y. For them. For all of them.

Oh no... I should talk to him... The next one is his latest entry:

Hey,
Just me. But, who cares? After all, I'm just the "happy, childish, perky one". No one would ever notice my true feelings. I guess that's partly my fault, because I've never told them, but I'm especially surprised that Roman can't tell. I mean, he's supposed to be an expert at love, so I'm surprised he doesn't know I'm in love with him. I think that's one thing that hurts me, because I know he probably doesn't like me back. I didn't realize how much it could hurt to hold things back. Things like tears, emotions, and love. Holding back tears hurts my throat, and emotions my heart. I feel like... I feel like there's only one way to make it all stop...

And it ends. Not good. Not good at all. I run up to Patton room and knock on the door.

-Patton's POV-

I realize after I go back to my room that I left my diary in the bathroom, but it doesn't matter. I lay down on my bed, unable to sleep because of my racing thoughts.

Then I hear a knock on my door. I decide not to say anything, but I instead hear my 3-year crush on the other side.
"Patton, it's me, Roman. May I come in? Please?" he sounds worried. I wonder if he found my diary... No, and he probably wouldn't think anything of a diary just sitting there, anyway.

I put on a fake smile, the one I've used for far too long now, and open the door. "What can I do for ya, buddy?" I say with the best enthusiasm I could conjure.
He looks at me sadly, as if he knew I was faking. "Patton... Please. Stop. Didn't we tell you before that you're allowed to feel sad?" he says, concerned.

I laugh nervously and say, "Whaddya mean? I'm not sad! What would I have to be sad about?" There's that pain in my chest again.
He looks at me in an almost guilty manner and says, "Patton, I'm so sorry. It was hard to read your emotions because you always hid them. I know now how you feel about me, and I feel the same. So please, don't hide from me."

Oh, so he did read my diary. Before I could reply to him, my own power turns on me, and I start to cry. You see, I can bring out someone's true feelings if I want to.

Roman hugs me like his life depends on it and continues, "I know I shouldn't have read your diary, but I was curious, and I'm glad I did. Otherwise, I wouldn't have ever known. Patton, I love you too. So much. So please, tell me what's wrong."

-Roman's POV-

After talking to Patton, he looks stunned for a minute and starts to cry.  Me talking to him must have triggered his power.

"I.... I don't kn-now, Roman! I-it all st-started with the b-br-reak up, but then i-it got worse! I-i don't know h-how to shut i-it up! It w-wont lea-ave me alone!" he says, stuttering because he is crying.

I start stroking his hair while I say, "It's probably because you never talk to anyone about your sadness. If you did that, you'd probably feel a lot better. But, for now, can I suggest something?" He looks up, still crying, and says, "What is it?" I smile slightly and say, "How does this make you feel?" then kiss him. It was a rather long kiss, but it calmed him.

"I-it makes me f-feel happy..." he says afterwards. "Good, then, will you go out with me? That way, I can be here for you." I reply. He smiles, almost unnoticeably, and then says, "Yes, Roman. I would like that, a lot." I smile and hand him back his diary. "I'm going to make dinner, I'll come get you when it's ready." I say and kiss him on his cheek.

-Patton's POV-

It makes me feel better now that Roman and I are together. I open my diary to see that he left a note in there saying:

Patton,
My dear Patton, I'm so sorry I never knew this before. I promise I'll make it up to you in any way I can. Just always remember that I love you, okay?
-Love, Roman

I smile and put my diary away. Roman is right, and from now on, I'll talk about my sadness when I need to.

A/N
Soooo... There. I'll be honest, a lot of these sad beginnings to stories are based off of my feelings that I can't express because no one cares. Anyway, have a nice day/night.