I Really did it this Time

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I really did it this time

Allura and shiro were yelling at me again.... I didn't even think I did anything wrong. I did what I was told

"Lance! Are you even listening??" shiro yelled at me. I quickly looked up.

"Y-yes sir"

Shiro looked at bit confused but contorted his face back to anger. He dismissed me so I walked back to my room, alone With my thoughts.

Why can't I pay attention

I'm such a loser

Why am I like this

I need to get better

And fast

Once I got to my room I on my suit and headed out to train.

---in the training room---

I pulled my Bayard out.

"Start training level one"

The first bot came out and sped towards me quickly. I shot it before it could reach me.

Nice, I thought. Not nice enough I need to get better.

"Training level two." I kept pushing my self harder and harder every time more bots cane out and every time I shot them. My legs felt so tired.

"Hey lance," keith called out ",I always train at this time get out." he demanded

"Yes I'm sorry."

He was a little taken back by the sorry but continued to push me out. As I exited I saw pidge walking with her computer.

"Hey pidge what time is it?"

"Oh, its about 2 in the morning."

She didn't even look up from her computer.

"Okay lets get you to bed. It is way to late for you to stay up with your developing brain."

She sighed " okay fine I guess it is late." she didn't notice I was in my armor so that's good. I swiftly put her to bed but before I leave I hear her mumble a small thank you.

While I'm walking to my room I pulled off my armor by bits and pieces. Starting off from the shoes to the plates.

Soon as I walk in my room I get in the shower. I don't even bother looking at myself.

I grab the razor from under the soap.

More pain makes you forget about the other pain.

I drag the razor across my wrist. First it was just one, one quickly turned to 10. Before I even knew it there was blood gushing down my arm.

Oh shit oh shit oh shit. I have to clean this up right now.

I turn of the shower while holding my wrist. I scrambled to find the bandages. At last I found them.

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