langst one shots

I Dont Understand

I dont understand. 

I sat in my bathroom alone. Right in the middle of the floor, sobbing. 

I dont understand. Why? Why did Keith cheat on me?  

My thoughts became louder, overpowering as one might say. They scream at me to do unreasonable things. 

This is not what I had planned. 

If we look back to a couple of weeeks ago, just a couple, eveything would be fine. He didnt cheating on me, yet. 

I have to keep moving forward. 

As I thought that I remembered the song 'Just Keep Swimming.' 

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming swimming, what do we do? we swim swim swim. Keep moving forward.

I got off of the bathroom floor and splashed some water on my face.

I got this. Im going to go to dinner and be fine, because I am fine. Fine.

I made sure I dont have blood shot eyes, nope, then I left. I started walking towards the dining area when i got a little side tracked trying in avoid keith and shiro.

Damn I forgot keith took this path. Well, i guess Shiro does too because they are in the same room now.

I tried not to cry thinking about it. 

Its fine this is fine. I will just go a different route.

On my way to the next route I took I bumped into Hunk.

"Hey Hunk, my dude!" I tried to sound happy but I guess I didnt do a good job by the way he looked at me. 

"Hey Lance..." He studied my face to find anything to say about. He didnt find anything i guess because he looked away and we kept walking. 

"So Lance how are you and keith?" 

Oh shit.

"ah well, you see... Keith kinda broke up with me" I didnt want to add the cheated part. I dont want to start any fights. 

"What??? He did?! Man im real sorry for bringing it up..." 

"Its cool im totally over it. Im gonna go back to dating hot alien chicks."

"Alright bud but if you need anything let me know."

"I know, I know."

As we walked into the dining room i saw keith and shiro together. Shiro was in my spot so i took his. Allura was the first one to start talking "Hello everyone" she said in her chirpy voice.

"Princess may I be excused I would like to train." She gasped which ment she thought I never trained.

"Yes lance. Go please."

"Thank you." I walked towards the training room when I heard Keith call it my name.

"Lance!"

"Yes, Keith?" I said his name like it was poison in my mouth.

"Lance, I just wanted to say, I'm sorry,and I know that is not enough got what I did to you. Let's please put behind us, okay?" He pleaded for us being friends again.

Once you love someone it doesnt go away. Once you love someone it can never go back. I thought.

"I dont understand, keith," my voice cracking I push out the rest of the words ", why did you do it?" He looked away thinking of an answer.

"I guess I never truly loved you."

Oh God. Why did he say it with so much ease? Can't he tell I'm hurting?

"O-okay I have to go now." I run away. Not just from Keith but the feelings too.

The sirens and red flashing lights and soon enough allura's voice was hear though out the castle telling us to get to our lions.

It was a huge fleet of galra cruisers. We were shooting them but it wasn't enough. The blue lion took some real bad hits.

Their ion cannon powered up and shot into space shining for the lions. It eased heading towards keith.

Do I save him? Or do I let him suffer? I'll save him.

I quickly pushed the red lion away and took the hit.  The only thing heard on the comms we were my screams.

Keith pov

The battle had ended. Soon after lance got hit they retreated.

He loved me so much he took a hit for me.

After the battle I went straight to Lance's room and looked through his clothes. Finally I found it. His signature sweater. I put it in and I looked in the mirror. I put my hands in the pockets and I felt something. A note.

Huh.

I opened it carefully to make sure I didn't rip it.

Dear anyone who's reading this:

I had a pretty good life. I have my boyfriend Keith to prove it. Oh this is mostly me taking about Keith because I love him.

He must have written this be fore we broke up.... I continued on reading,

What I love most about him it I can trust him. I told him everything and I don't regret it. I know he would never do anything to purposely hurt me.

How did I not know back then. Tears are now streaming down my face.

God dammit don't tell me now I love him.

I walked into the bathroom and sat on the floor.

If I sit in here they will hear me less.

I sat on the bathroom floor alone. Right in the middle of the floor, sobbing.

I don't understand. Why? Why did I cheat on him?