langst one shots

Shiro

I sat on my bed reading a book. I can barely focus. Thoughts reappearing and disappearing at a rapid rate.

My head filled with his words. Each memory laced with his sweet voice. I ran a hand though my hair.

I grabbed my phone and headphones and played my playlist titled 'him.'

They songs play in order. First on up is 'can help falling in love' originally made by Elvis Presley but I prefer the Twenty One Pilots version.

Why? Why would I do this to myself. I already know he doesn't like me back.

Yea I'm gonna tell him anyways.

I get up from my bed pushing myself to do this. I already knew if I didnt do this now I would never do it.

I walked to his room and knock on the door.

"Hey who is it?"

"Its me Lance. Can I talk to you real quick?"

"Yeah come in are you okay?" I guess he could hear the uneasiness in my voice.

"Yea its  just... you know what I'm just gonna put it out there. I like you Takashi Shirogane. I like how you give us the small but meaningful pep talks before anything. I love how your laugh is so god damn contagious. I love how your smile makes me feel like there is no intergalactic way going on that might just kill me." I didn't even notice but tears are now streaming down my face. I looked away diverting his gaze. I ran my hand through my hair, nervous habit.

"Lance, I'm really sorry. You... you just remind me of someone back home. You and him were just alike." I looked at to him. He also had tears in his eyes.

"It sounds like to me you are just afraid to love again." He turned away. He held himself with his arms.

"And if I am? Does that mean I'm broken?" How hurt his voice was brought me so much pain. It drove me nuts.

"You are not broken just bent. You can learn to love again. It doesnt have to be with me. Or even anyone else. It can be with yourself if that's what you need."

"Thank you, Lance."

"No problem, Shiro."