Obeying Mrs. White [Completed]

Chapter Thirty Nine: No Happy Endings

She took in a deep breath of air, with her shoulders back, her head held high and her hands on her hips as she was standing over the cliff with nothing but trees and the sky as a view.

"Ahh, nature." She smiled as she took in the view. "I love it."

I was watching her until I heard noises from behind me. I turned to see Kaylee and Alexis struggling to climb the cliff. "Ah!" Kaylee lost her footing but Alexis quickly grabbed her.

They finally made it to the top with us. Kaylee looked over at me. "You couldn't wait for us?"

"Your mom was practically dragging me up the cliff with one hand, I couldn't do anything." I said as I watched her walk over to Jordan. I looked at Alexis as she was bent over. "You ok?"

She leaned up then nodded. "You know, being with Jordan as long as I have, you would think I got use to all this." She motions around her. "But I'm not. I hate it, so very much."

I chuckled as I turned back to Kaylee and Jordan. I walked over to them but stopped as we were pretty close to the edge. I walked around then stood next to Jordan as Kaylee left to be with Alexis.

"Beautiful, isn't it?" She asks.

I nod as I look around. It was gorgeous in every way. I just wish it wasn't so life threatening to get to see it from here.

She took her camera that was around her neck and took a few pictures. I watched as she smiles as she viewed them then looked around again.

"This is what I love doing, Dakota." She looked over at me. "This is who I am." She looks around. "It helps me in so many ways that no one understands."

I look over at Kaylee and Alexis as they were sitting on the ground then back at Jordan. "Not even Kaylee or Alexis?"

She shakes her head. "Not even them. They don't understand how this helps me."

"What do you mean by helps you?" I questioned.

She stared out at the view for a moment. "Everyone has something that helps them grasp what they really are, how they keep their emotions inside or let their emotions run wild. Something helps them in a way that nobody else understands, with everything that's trapped inside here." She points to her head.

She looks at me with a small smile. "Let's just say that I had a hard time finding myself years ago. I struggled with so much issues that it would mentally and physically break me into pieces. Nobody could help me." She looks back at the view. "My sister was a therapist and she couldn't even help. Nothing no one did could help who I was."

She sighs. "Not even Alexis." She glanced over at her for a brief moment before looking at me. "Alexis tried so hard to get inside of my walls that I kept built for so long. I saw it everyday when she would try to help, but no matter what she did, I couldn't allow myself to open up." She looks away.

"I had days where I was happy and smiling, then it hit me and I was back to my depressed self where I couldn't handle any situation without making it difficult for everyone around me."

I stared at her for a moment. "I remember Kaylee telling me something about you, but I couldn't see what she meant. You look happy, Jordan."

She smiles. "I am now. I changed over the years and it took more than just what people thought would help. I had to mentally find myself, find who I was and who I'm not. Control the issue I had inside my head then fix it myself."

She sighs. "I regret not letting Alexis inside, but I didn't want her to get hurt because I knew what I was capable of doing or not doing. I had days where I didn't care, but no matter what I showed or not showed to her, I always cared about her. More than she will ever know."