Why my Bella?

Apologies At Thanksgiving

Bella's POV

I planned on spending Thanksgiving with Charlie and Edward would be at my side, his family knew Edward didn't want to be apart from me and they understood why. Charlie had invited the Black's to spend Thanksgiving with us, I knew Jacob would be accompanying his father. I didn't know if I would be able to control myself at all, I was still mad at him for attempting to attack me. I just hoped Edward wouldn't be the one to lose control, I didn't want him to get hurt or fight my own battles. This one is just between Jacob and I, he might learn he would soon regret what he tried to do. I don't know if I would be able to forgive him, but I certainly wouldn't be able to forget it ever happened.

Edward warned me, "They just pulled up in front of the house, they brought beer with them." I sighed and said, "Charlie and Billy just love to drink beer while watching football, I guess it's just a guy thing." I heard Charlie say from the hallway, "I heard that, Bella." I looked at Edward and smirked, then I went back to preparing turkey. Edward stroked the back of my neck lightly and asked, "Do you know what I would like to do right know?" I replied, "I certainly do and it's not going to happen until our wedding night." He asked in an alluring voice, "What if I don't want to wait?" I responded with a laugh, "Then you're just going to just have to think about me as you use your hand to bring yourself pleasure." He sighed and said, "You know I prefer to do it with you, it would be better than using my right hand."

We heard someone clear their throat and turned around to see Jacob, I had no idea what he wanted from us. I asked him with a hint of anger in my voice, "What do you want, Jacob?" He said, "I just want to talk to you...alone." Edward growled, "No, I won't allow you anywhere near her, especially after you tried to hurt her." I sighed and said, "It's okay, Edward, just go to the living room." He said, "But Bella..." I interrupted, "No, I can handle this on my own. I will call you in here if I need you, now go into the living room....please." He sighed and said, "Fine, but if he tries to hurt you I won't hesitate to beat him half to death."

I turned back to Jacob after Edward left the kitchen and asked him, "What do you want from me?" He sighed and said, "I just want to apologize, I didn't mean for it to happen." I sighed and said in an agitated tone, "Well, it did happen. I just don't understand how you think you can win me over with just a little apology. Do you think I'm so easy! I'm not going to forgive you just like that! I don't know if I'm even willing to forgive you, Jacob! I don't know if I can trust you anymore! You're a werewolf and I'm a vampire, our kind don't blend in together that well! We're suppose to hate each other and right now I hate you! I will never forget what happened!"

Jacob's POV

I murmured under my breath, "You hate me," then I took off running out of the house. Once I was outside I transformed into a wolf because I became so angry, I wasn't only angry at Edward I was angry at Bella too. I couldn't understand why Bella could hate me because I thought we were friends, I didn't hate her because she was a vampire. I had to admit I wanted to be more than friends with her, I had loved her since the day she moved to Forks. I had loved her longer than that leech has, but she just doesn't feel the same way. Bella wasn't my imprint, but that still didn't change the way I feel about her. 

When I found out she would be able to have a baby with Edward it made me mad, but I thought about it and it would probably resemble Bella. I could never hate anyone who looked like or was a part of the beautiful Bella I knew and adored so much. I didn't tell Sam or the others about the possibility that Bella could have a child, it might start a war and I didn't want Bella to get hurt.  When I thought about Bella with a baby girl that would look just like her I couldn't help but smile, I immediately calmed down and transformed back into my human form. I quickly put my clothes back on because I didn't want any of the neighbors seeing me naked, then I headed back inside the house and entered the living room.

My father asked, "Are you alright, Jacob?" I replied, "Yes father, I'm fine." My father went back to focusing on the football game, but I couldn't focus on that because I felt guilty for what happened a few weeks ago. I heard Edward say from the entrance of the living room, "You should regret what you did, you mutt." I felt anger course through me immediately, his words had enraged me." I growled at him, "You better watch what you say, leech." Bella yelled out, "Knock it off you two, we don't need a fight! Just stop it!" Edward sighed and walked back into the kitchen, he would get the pleasure to spend the rest of eternity with my Bella and that sickened me to my core. I still loved Bella even though she's a vampire, it seemed nothing would stop me from loving her the way I do--even-though she doesn't love me the same way I love her. I would do anything and even risk my own life to protect her, I would do anything it takes.

A second later a pale figure appeared in the entrance of the living room and I looked up to see Bella, by the look on her face I knew she had heard my thoughts. She wore an emotionless expression on her face because she quickly tried to hide her emotions, she didn't want me to know how she felt. I became confused and it bothered me, when she left again I couldn't help but sigh in irritation. My father gave me a strange look, but I shrugged my shoulders without saying a word. I could hear her soft beautiful voice from the kitchen, she spoke gently to Edward because she didn't want me to overhear. Well, she should have been miles away then because I could hear everything, she told him what I had been thinking and he didn't like it one bit.