King's huge frickin' book of randomness galore:The ultimate

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"HEY!"

I shouted out.

I still have no idea why it is I did that.

I couldn't begin to tell you.

I clearly wasn't in my right mind.

Why did I grab her?

I have no idea.

Once again...

I couldn't begin to tell you.

"Don't you dare!"

Wait....

What the hell did I just say?

I couldn't care less!

That's what she was telling me.

She had been lying.

With her head resting on my lap, something I repeatedly told her not to do, which explains perfectly why she did it anyway, staring up at me with those big, troublesome blue eyes.

"Hey.....Yuuki." 

"Yes?"

"What if I were to....disappear? Take flight and....fwsht! Just like that. All my troubles, all my worries, everything...just gone? Would that be wrong?"

"...."

I never answered properly.

SMACK!

"OW!"

"Don't ask idiotic questions, idiot."

"Hey! You didn't have to hit me!"

"Idiots deserve to be punished for wasting the valuable time of others, don't they?"

"....Right. Because all I do is waste time."

She had smiled when she said it, but I knew better. 

Afterall, she'd finally stopped talking for once.

.....That was never a good sign.

I hit her for a reason.

I never told her.

We've been connected for days.

Our most intimate thoughts, mixing and dancing, slowly becoming one.

Luke had been the first to ask why I insisted on walking home with him, then frequently chose to change my mind.

Moira too, wondered why I kept picking off her lunch and jabbing her in the side with my elbow.

They all wondered why the look in my eyes seemed so forlorn when I stared at Scott. Yes, stared. I loved him. I loved him so, so very much. He was my everything.

Or was.

Or, at least, he was hers.

I never looked at Nicole the same again.

I had always watched in silence, but it was a completely different story from the mind of the wronged. It was....

dark.

Chaotic.

Maddening.

I tried my best to act as if everything was normal.

They stopped asking questions about my empty gaze.

They figured it was "Yuuki being Yuuki."

About how often I'd began to stay after school.

I didn't ask any either.

I didn't have to.

Then /they/ came.

The tall boy.

The boy with the neat black ponytail.

And the boy with the black dragon-clad jacket.

The first had lost his chance.

He loved a girl, a beautiful one, far from his reach. She'd never look at him. Not in this lifetime.

The second, was a loner. He loved no one and no one loved him. He was as cold as the morning breeze that whipped past him, but no one caught the glimpses of sadness in his eyes, save myself.

The third.....

I would rather not grace him with a description.

I faced them all, day by day, talked them down, until I was finally....

alone.

There was nothing stopping me.

I could finally be free.

"No...."

That was a bad thing.

"Hey, yukes, where are yah-"

I ran past Scott, despite the ache in put in my love-lorn heart.

"Heeeey! Yuu-kun! Are you-"

I didn't care to talk to her. Especially not her.

"Hey, Yuuki, do yah think you could-"

No, I couldn't.

"Yuuki...Have you seen-"

I hadn't.

Not yet.

My feet felt like thunder on the stairs, charging toward the roof.

Toward the end.

I just barely watched her fall.

Arms spread out, as if about to take flight, sock-clad feet placed neatly on the other side of the railing. I could feel her smile from all the way over here. 

I mimicked it.

I watched her fly.

Fly away from it all...

From the pain.

From the heartbreak.

From us.

....From me.

.....No.

She couldn't.

She wouldn't.

Not if I could help it.

The world seemed to fade away, and I'd sworn I'd lost control of my body, given how scarcely I can recall just what it is I did.

All I felt was the softness...the warmth.....that organic thud.

"The ground feels so soft....Am.....Am I...? Did I already.....?"

"Just where do you think you're going?"

I never properly answered her question.

"Would that be a bad thing?"

If I would have, I'd have given myself away. I'd have been to honest.

Though, now, I doubt it matters.

Regardless, If would have said no.

Afterall.....

"I'm far too selfish to ever grant you freedom."