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Stokeley
I got so fucked to last night. I remember everything though. And I feel like shit. I opened my phone and all I saw were messages telling me to watch Jahseh's live. He left it posted so I watched it. Man was I heated after watching that. Why would he catch all my shit on fire.
"Oh my god I'm so stupid. And he really just caught all my shit on fire too." I mumbled as I walked out of the hotel and went to my car to head home.
I got home and all my stuff was still outside still.
I went inside and was greated by a tired Jah bouncing Alaia up and down in his arms while he made her a bottle.
He looked at me and rolled his eyes.
"Hi slut," he smiled at me.
"Ja-"
"Here's your rings back," he hands me his engagement rings I bought him. "And this." it was another ring box. "I was going to give it to you after the show but you know.." he trailed off.
"You didnt even have to give em back what are you doing?" I sighed.
"What am I doing? I'm home taking care of our kids while your out sleeping with random ass bitches." he smiled.
"Why you smiling?" I rolled my eyes.
"Cause your single. I'm single. I'm a single parent. Life's great," he said. He looked like he was ready to snap but was trying to hold his composer.
"Single? Jah its not even that deep it didnt mean anything," I argued. "Please don't break up with me."
"Okay so let me go fuck someone and you can be good with it cause its not that deep." He laughed.
"Dad? Is this why you're sad?" Aiden walked into the kitchen and showed us a picture on Jahseh's phone. He showed us a picture of me kissing the girl from last night.
"Aiden go in your room for a minute I'll be up and get you dressed for your play date soon," Jahseh told him as he fed Alaia.
"You're a disappointment Papa," Aiden sighed. "You hurted our family. Now imma be like everyone else with divorced parents," Aiden walked away.
"Baby, I didn't mean to I swear ," I sighed. I dont know why I thought it was okay to do that.
"Well, you have nothing here so you can leave," Jahseh said. "The kids are staying with me but if you want to see them you let me know and we can figure something out. But other than that, we are done. I'm not doing this." Jahseh walked past me and upstairs.
I sighed and followed him to the nursery. He put Alaia to sleep and tried to walk past me. But i stopped him by pushing him onto the rocking chair.
"Stokeley move," Jahseh said as I spread him legs and got on my knees.
He was wearing a robe with nothing underneath so it was easy access.
I slid my fingers inside of his hole, slowly.
"You want me to move?" I asked.
"Y-yes," he moaned.
I started kissing the inside of his thighs. Then i kissed his puckered hole. And he didnt stop me so I kept going. I flicked my tongue in and out of him as he laced his hands through my dreads. He pulled my hair and pushed me away.
"I said move," He got up and walked away. "You got ten minutes to get out before Taymor is on his way."
"The fuck is Taymor coming for?" I yelled.
"To put ya bitch ass out," Jahseh yelled back.
"You really just dont love me if you willing to let us go just like that," I chuckled.
"Nigga don't start with me. Did I lay down with my ex and get drunk and have sex and have people posting pictures all over the internet? No the fuck I didn't so I guess you're the one who really just dont love me if you're willing to fucking cheat on me!" He yelled.
"I dont know who the fuck you think your talking to," I cornered him in the hallway.
"You, now move," He slapped me and tried to walk past me.
I grabbed his throat and pinned him to the wall. "You gone stop disrespecting me," I yelled at him. He was pushing me too far.
"I cant breath," he tried to pry my hand away.
"Papa?" I heard Aiden's voice.
"Go in your room Aiden," I said without looking away from Jahseh.
"Aye ya'll need to stop yelling before y-" I heard Gazzy's voice.
"What the fuck?" I heard Naomi voice. Then I felt a fist connect with my Jaw. Jahseh punched me and hard.
I let him go and watched as he gasped for air.
He punched me again and again. I grabbed his hands and pinned them behind his back. "Chill out." I said.
"No you chill out," he told me .
"You gotta go, you over here fighting infront of Aiden like you dont know how the hell they grew up," Gazzy yelled at me.
"Get off of me," Jahseh cried. I let go of him and he started hitting me again and I let him. I deserve it.
"Why you keep playing with me?" He asked me.
"Am I not enough for you?" He cried. "What did I do?"
I just shook my head. If I told him why, it would break his heart. Well one reason why. The other reason was that I saw pictures that he was cheating. But now that I think about it, they looked photo shopped. So I deadass just got revenge for nothing. This is a fucked up way to live.
"No you're enough," I sighed as his punched became weak as he began to cry.
