Finding You

Mini Chapter! Lunch with Jordan

"The salad," the waiter places the plate in front of me. "And your burger." He sets the burger in front of Jordan.

"Is it possible to get another coffee? Extra shot of espresso?" I ask him and he nods, "Of course. I'll be right back." He walks away and I turn my full attention to Jordan, who hasn't said a word short of ordering her food, which has made lunch annoyingly long and boring.

"You can explode if you want. I just can't take the silence anymore, Jo." I tell her and drizzle a little italian dressing on my salad.

"I just can't believe you didn't tell me." She huffs and I sigh. I knew she would be like this.

"I just know how you feel about people who are famous or celebrities or whatever." What is a YouTuber considered? That's a good question.

"That's how I feel about the ones that I choose to date. You're different... You have good taste." I literally almost choke on my water.

"Jordan, I have the worst taste in guys. You know this." I tell her and wipe at my mouth.

"Shut up. Young Natalie was an idiot but it's changed who you are now. Like I would have fucked Thomas, Collin, and that yummy friend of yours Dan who is begging for your schedule so he can take you out." She says and I roll my eyes.

"Thomas is another Alex, I'm almost certain of it. You know yummy until he meets someone named Catherine and decides 6 months is long enough to know you love someone more than your life. Collin is married and way too old for us. Dan is an old friend who kind of just hopped on the 'I want to fuck you' train." I laugh and take a bite of my salad.

"Fair point. I want to hear more about Dan then. What's the story there?" She asks and I swallow hard and take a sip of water.

"I met him like 3 years ago when I worked his concert on base. I accidentally put him and his band to work and they all took it really well. Anyways, I don't really know what happened but I was invited to hang out with them and we've all been friends since then. Dan only told me he wanted me like that a week ago."

"And how did that happen? Did he show up at your door naked or something?" She asks and I roll my eyes. She's hopeless.

"No, he called me wanting to celebrate and told me he wanted to fuck me on the beach in french. It was super hot either way." I tell her and she stops chewing.

"Why in french and why didn't you do it?" She talks with her mouth full and I laugh.

"He found out I'm fluent in french and always asks me to say things to him and I usually tell him something stupid just to make him laugh. When we decided to sign his band, he asked me to tell him something dirty and I did, mostly because I was on this weird high. Anyways, I told him that he was a naughty boy. He called me and spoke french to shock me, as if telling me that you want to fuck me on the beach isn't shocking enough." I explain and she sits her burger down.

"Interesting. Did you fuck Brad?" She asks and it's my turn to stop chewing in shock.

"No Jordan, I just met him." She nods slowly.

"Why didn't you do someone? You closed a big deal and didn't scream anyone's name?"

"If you want to group crinkling my toes to the thought of someone instead of my vibrator into that category that'd be great." I remark and take another bite of my salad. Where is my espresso?

"Juicy. Which one did you think of?" She licks her lips and leans across the table and I blush. Is both of them a good answer or would I sound slutty?

"You dirty girl." And just like that, she's read my mind. I don't know how she does that but it's annoying. I would like to keep some things to myself.

"Stop. I was on a high and had to get it out of my system. Very different O's, very different thoughts." I tell her and feel calm as the waiter finally sits my coffee in front of me.

"Your self control is so admirable. I bet you do great things in bed." She sighs and takes a huge bite of her burger.

"Jordan, you're the worst." I shake my head and eat my food, both of us finding a nice silence as we eat. I love Jordan but she is so open and honest and opinionated. After a few months of friendship she still surprises me on the daily.

"Say something dirty to me in french." She says and I laugh.

"No. Last time I did that, it didn't turn out too well."

"I promise not to fall in love with you or want to fuck on the beach." She begs and I take a deep breath.

"Je t'aime mais to me rends fou." I roll my eyes and she smiles.

"I get it ya know? I might've asked you for a roll in the sand had you called me something dirty." I shake my head and take a long drink of coffee, ignoring the burn from the hot coffee. I don't even know how I have taste buds left.

"Are you sure about Brad?" She asks softly and I sit the cup down. I feel really good about it but we're worlds apart and he could change his mind at any moment. He can decided that i'm not worth it or that I'm all wrong for him and walk away. I mean we've known each other a week so there is still so much that can happen.

"I can't be sure about anything after my past but Jordan, I feel so certain that wherever this take me is worth it. It's worth seeing it through no matter the ending." I tell her and blush. I hate being like this. I don't like putting my heart on the line anymore. Not after what I went through. I don't know if it'll ever get easier to talk about.

"I'm sorry for getting angry then." She reaches across the table and sits her hand on top of mine. I smile and let it sit there for a minute.

"Not a big deal. I should've told you." I sigh and push my plate away from me.

"I just don't want you to get hurt again. I don't think I can live off of ice cream again." She jokes and I laugh. She nursed me back to health after I moved out here. I got really lucky with this one.

"I don't think I could either. Just finish eating so we can get back. I dropped Maya off with Brad and promised I'd get off early to get her, plus I have a date." I tell her and she raises an eyebrow before shoving the last bite of her burger into her mouth.