Finding You

Yours

"We missed you today." Jeremy's voice makes me jump, dropping my bag. I turn around and see him leaning against the trailer.

"Have you talked to Dan about me?" I ask, curious as to if he told anyone what happened.

"He hasn't talked to anyone all day. We weren't sure if he was even making it to the concert." Of course.

"We had a falling out this morning. If I knew he was going to make everyone worry about him, I would have been here to drag his ass on stage." Jeremy looks surprised.

"What kind of falling out? You guys are thick as thieves."

"The kind that's going to take some time to get over. He needs help, Jeremy. I can't help but think that I broke him somehow." I run my fingers through my hair.

"He was saying some pretty wild stuff last night when you guys had left. Please tell me he didn't say something to Brad." I sigh and look down.

"Look, it's been a really long day. I need a shower and a glass of wine. Talk to Dan and get him some help so I can feel safe working with you guys again." I don't want to talk bad about Dan to his friends. I want them to get him help. I want him to apologize to me and for this whole mess to be behind us.

"I'll go get Carter and we'll talk to him. He didn't touch you, did he?" He asks and I don't know how to answer that. I don't know what to tell him really.

"He didn't hurt me and honestly, it didn't occur to me that I could have been in a scary situation until Bradley pointed it out to me when I got back. Things could have escalated but he got sick. He had a lot to drink apparently."

"Before my blood starts boiling, you should just tell me what happened." Jeremy says and I can see his jaw clench.

"He called me early this morning demanding that I come here early and help him. He got upset with me because he told me he had feelings for me and I didn't return those feelings. He kept saying that he wanted a kiss to prove there was nothing there but I was set on leaving until he took my things from me. He answered my phone when Brad called and somehow Brad thought that he was helping the situation but encouraging Dan to kiss me. So I did it. I let him kiss me and then he got mad that I didn't kiss him back. That's when he started pushing it more saying we could try when he was sober. Thankfully, he got sick and threw up, giving me my chance to escape." I explain and close my eyes. Saying it out loud makes it more real. Makes it easy to identify how scared I should have been. Makes me mad at Brad all over agin.

"Fucking asshat." Jeremy says and I take a deep breath in, opening my eyes to look at him.

"Look, I'm happy with Brad or I would have let him have his way with me and move on. He doesn't want me though, he wants someone to tell him no. He wants to chase someone and maybe I gave him the wrong impression. Maybe I led him on somewhere. All I know is that I can't and don't want to be around him anymore."

"When you told him you didn't want to kiss him, that's when he should have stopped. Drunk or not, he crossed a line. For now on, don't be alone with him. We'll get him the help he needs. Do you still have my number?" He asks and I nod.

"Of course."

"If you need to talk business, call me. If there's a meeting, I'll be there. Just use me as a middle man until Dan is back." He tells me and I blush. He's being so protective of me.

"Okay. Thank you." I smile and look away from him. I'm happy with Brad. Brad is just as protective and caring, if not more.

"Finish up here and I'm gonna go make sure Dan is tucked away when you leave. Do you want me to walk you to your room?" He asks and I shake my head.

"Bradley is with me. He's around here somewhere." Jeremy half smiles.

"Well, if you need me, call me." He turns to the door and I watch him leave before turning back to my stuff. Everything has been loaded up and they'll be gone tomorrow. We just need to do a quick walkthrough to make sure everything is good to go and we can go back to our room.

I sling my backpack on my shoulders and walk out of the room and out onto the field. The stage has been loaded up for a couple hours now leaving nothing but the empty field.

"Fuck!" Turning my head towards the loud profanity, I see two figures ahead.

"Hey, it's time to start heading out. That means you two as well." I say loudly, cupping my hands around my mouth to project my voice and they both turn towards me.

"Just waiting on you." What I hear as Brad says loudly. I speed up my walking and he meets me halfway, kissing me softly.

"Whose up there?" I ask confused.

"Dan. We were talking." He tells me and I look at him confused.

"Is that why he yelled "fuck"?" I ask and stop walking.

"No, I punched him." I raise an eyebrow at him and he takes a deep breath in.

"You did what?"

"He made a snarky comment about kissing you." What I would have gave to see him punch Dan. I can picture his entire arm just tightening, his large hands clenched with white knuckles.

"Nothing good, I'm guessing?" I ask and he looks down.

"Didn't punch him for the fun of it."

"What did he say so I can ease your mind?" I ask softly, grabbing his hands and beginning to kiss each knuckle.

"That you pretended to dislike the kiss and did more than just that before I interrupted." The way he says that makes me cringe. Disgusting.

"Hmm, it must suck to have to lie to yourself to get through the day." I pause kissing his knuckles.

"You didn't enjoy it, right?" He touches my face, pulling my attention up to him. He needs to hear me say it. Dan has gotten to him just the slightest.

"I've never despised anything more. In fact, I may need lots of attention tonight to make me feel better again." I grab his shirt in my free hand.

"I would do anything to rid you of him."

"Anything, huh?" I let go of his hand and grip his shirt, pulling him to me as he wraps his arms around me.

"How do you do that?" He asks softly and I smile.

"Do what?" I graze my nose against his lips and his breathing hitches.

"Just make everything better."

"Same way you do." I kiss him softly and he tightens his grip on me.

"Adrenaline pumping?" I ask and he nods.

"Only one thing gets me pumping like this." I blush as his hands slide down to my butt.

"However you want me." I tell him softly.

"Can we do that thing Ive only done with you?" He asks innocently and I can't help but smile. That is the least innocent thing a person can do.

"Of course." I'd let you take my black cherry if you wanted to. I would do any position, any where you wanted. My new favorite is how much you enjoy the thing we've done once as a fluke though. How strong and powerful it felt. How you felt in complete control when really, I held all the cards.

"I love you, Natalie." He whispers and I smile.

"I don't think I'll ever get tired of hearing that."

"I can't wait to hear you say it." I can't wait to feel confident enough to say it to you.

"I am yours, Bradley. Mind, body, and soul. I hope that's enough for now." I tell him softly and he kisses me, taking my breath away.

"More than enough." He assures me.