My Door of Happiness

Chapter 33 "His Deep Voice"

ft. What I wouldn't give song by We The Kings

It's hard enough to find the words to say
It's hard to find a way to be okay

A mother's love can never be replaced
But what I wouldn't give for one more day

And I
I would give my eyes if I could see you one last time
And I
I would give my arms if I could hold you into mine
And I
I would give my lungs if I could feel your air inside
Oh, and I
I would take your place so you could stay the rest of mine
There's nothing I wouldn't give for time

Nag-umpisa na siyang kumanta at hindi ko akalain na marunong o magaling pala siyang kumanta.

I think about your smile ear to ear
I'll miss you more with every single year
But you made us promise no more tears
Still what I wouldn't give to have you here

Oh, and I
I would give my voice if I could hear you one last time
And I
I would give my all to feel your heartbeat next to mine
And I
I would give my soul if I could ever change God's mind
Oh, and I
I would take your place so you could stay the rest of mine
There's nothing I wouldn't give for time

Hindi ko alam kung lalapit ba ako sa kanya para kamustahin siya o dito nalang ako habang pinapakinggan siyang kumakanta.

And I
Know you're here with me, forever standing by my side
And I
I can feel your love every time I close my eyes
And I
Know there's no more pain and you won't ever have to fight
I know you're here watching over me
'Cause you're the angel in my life
And I know that I will see you in time
I know that I will see you in time

Nang matapos na siyang kumanta, bigla nalang pumasok sa isipan ko ang lyrics ng kantang 'yon. May narinig kasi ako na "mother's love" kaya naisip ko na para sa mama niya 'yon. Hanggang ngayon pa rin ba hindi pa rin nagiging ok si Shaun? Alam ko naman na mahirap ang mawalan ng minamahal sa buhay pero wala na tayong magagawa do'n.

Nakasilip pa rin ako sa gate at hinihintay ang susunod na gagawin ni Shaun. Mayamaya, nakaramdam ako ng kiliti sa aking paa. Pagtingin ko sa baba ay laking gulat ko na may ipis palang gumagapang sa paa ko.

"Ahhh!"

Halos mapatalon ako sa sobrang takot at hindi ko mapigilan na tumili. Bigla kong tinakpan ang bibig ko ng maalala ko na nasa harap pala ako ng bahay ni Shaun. Dahan-dahan akong lumingon sa gate nila at hindi ko inaasahan na makikita ko si Shaun sa harap ng gate nila at naka-sandal.

"Hehehe... Hi Shaun.." bati ko sa kanya at ningitian siya na parang ewan.

"What are you doing here?" masungit niyang tanong.

"A-Ano kasi, pauwi na sana ako. Dito ako dadaan pauwi pero naisip ko na bisitahin ka muna. Hindi ko naman inaasahan na kakanta ka pala.."

Buwiset kasi na ipis 'yon! Hindi ko alam kung bakit agad akong napapatili o natatakot kapag may nakikita akong ipis. Lalo na yung mga feeling butterfly.

"Bakit ganyan suot?"

"Eh kasi gusto ng mga kaibigan ko na gan'to isuot ko sa pinuntahan ko kanina. Eh hindi ko naman inaasahan na yung party na 'yon ay para sa 'kin pala. Hindi naman siya party pero parang ganon na rin." Sa totoo lang ang gulo ng sinabi ko.