Her Famous Papa -Completed-

Chapter Eleven

Louis eventually decided to take me up on my offer of spending time with Emilia, he didn't want to take her out of the house though, because he doesn't know much about her, her likes and dislikes, if she is allergic to anything, if she has any health problems, and two because paps found out that the boys are here, but they know nothing about Emilia or myself being here to visit my mother. So, since it was such a nice day out Louis took Emilia outside to play footie in the fenced in the back yard and the guys were outside watching them while Eleanor was upstairs 'sick', and my mom had to go back to work well Gemma was on a date with her boyfriend.

I was standing at the sliding glass door watching Louis chance after our daughter and her giggling, and it made me start to think, what would have happened if I had come back and told Louis that he was going to be a father? Would we have stayed together and raised Emilia together? Would she has always known who her true family was? The world will never know because I chose what I thought was right and I can't take it back all I can do is move forward from where we have left off and let him have a relationship with his daughter.

I soon felt arms wrap around me and I jumped before realizing that it was just Zak, "She's occupied maybe we should use that to our advantage." He said pulling me to our room and I tried to pull away while I was shaking my head no, and I then said, "Zak I am not having sex in my small queen-size bed in my childhood home." And then he did something that he hasn't done in a long time, he smacked me right across the face, hard enough to make me know that there was going to a bruise on my chin in the morning, "What have I told you about saying no to me?" I could never say no to him, it was one of his rules if he was to stick around and help raise a kid that wasn't his, so I ended up giving up the fight and letting him have his way with me.

An hour or so later I have the newly formed bruise covered with some cover-up that I always have with me. I walk downstairs and see Louis and Emilia sitting in the kitchen at the island talking about music. They must have just gotten into this conversation because Louis doesn't look so shocked about her loving One Direction yet. "So, Emmie, what's your favorite artist, your favorite singer?" Louis asked and then she looked right into his eyes and said, "Dada, duh!" which made me smile and scuff just a little bit because she doesn't know or quite understand yet that I once was a singer, now I just write music for others."

I walk out of there and give them some more time, I grabbed my guitar and my writing book and sit out on the back porch, leaving the sliding glass door open, and start playing a song I'm writing, well that I started writing a long time ago that a famous friend wanted me to finish for her.

I miss those blue eyes

How you kiss me at night

I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise

Like the taste of your smile

I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in

And now,

I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you

Without you, oh

"Hazza, you're still working on that song?" My mom said sitting down right next to me on the swing that we both loved for so many years. "Mom, a friend of mine actually loves that song and wants me to send it over to here when I'm done, I almost got all of the lyrics, but I don't know." I said and then I saw Louis and Emilia walking back outside, and I guess that my mom noticed, "I think I know what's holding you back, you still love him but you don't want to be hurt, and you don't want to hurt him." I then said, "Mom, he's got a fiancée and a baby on the way, and I'm happy with Zak." I lied to her and myself, I know that I am not happy, but I wouldn't let Emilia not have two parents in her life.