Divided Unity

From The Top

Compositions lie.

Everyone lies.

Sooner or later, you're wrong, and bam -

You've lied.

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I've lost track of the day you arrived

For better or for worse, it seems

The very first day I saw your eyes

They were the scape of my dreams

Mayhaps the days decided

That once they all were done

We'd no longer be a united two

Instead a one and one.

Internal tears are wrenching

They wring your heart in two

Like sponges that you twist too hard

And split in front of you

Convince me that I'm wrong though,

Persuade me that I'll move from you

Tell me I'm overreacting

One more time, and I'll kill you.

When sex is out of order,

Yet lay no time to rest

You shouldn't have continued

But left me at second best

Promise so many times

That stay with me you would

By one sentence falsified

In ways nothing else could.

Deem yourself unimportant

I'll be there to prove you wrong

And though I wonder why I still do

My words follow along

They say that I'm just caring

But between care and love

One's blue with childhood skies

One's what drama's made of.

To care about a caring

A damn for all lost time

Wasted effort can be forgotten

Effort not lost was mine

I gave what I had to give to you

But grant no last reprieve

Pay debt to fallen wishes

Black clad for worldly leave.

I said maybe I'd learn to live

Without your damaged eyes

Half expected you to intrude

And see it as a lie

The only lie I've told you

Was that one, then and there

How can I live without you

When your memory's everywhere?

Your scent still lingers in the sleeves

Of a black hoodie freshly cleaned

Your eyes reflect in feathers

On a starling, proud and preened

Your laugh is in my files

And in the wag of a beige tail

Your ticket of 300 miles

Made me think we'd prevail.

It took a year of turmoil

For so many different reasons

I numbed myself to what you'd do

That my friends considered treason

I held my heart in the mirror

No beat to give concern to

I cried for once out of anguish

Yet you weren't there to turn to.

And now I lay where I once smiled

And thought of your chapped lips

The warmth of your cold hands

Comforting dryness of your kiss

There's difficulty writing now

When all the letters blur

My tears, I feel them running down

For heartache's an acid burn.

I don't know how to end this

Like I don't know how to say

I wish it wasn't like this

Turn back the other way

A beaten path, content they tread

Caught by the rocks below

If you hadn't assumed all this

Well then, Jake, now you know.

Sometimes I know we're drifting

Further with passing time

Who knows when we'll acknowledge

Blame habits mostly mine

If you aim to find my memory

You will- yet with a catch

A silhouette beneath the canopy

Hanging from an olive branch.