Okay, Maybe I'm A Bit Gay

T H I R T Y - O N E

~ Chapter 31 | Friday, July 12th ~

"TODAY IS THE DAY," I muttered to myself as I stared at my reflection in the mirror.

That day was the day, I was going to see Kabelo again after the kiss and the day where I was also going to be meeting the mystery girl that stood me up on our very first date.

So I guess you could probably guess that I was excited...Yeah, no. If anything, I wanted to die but who was I kidding, I was already dead.

I sighed as I watched my phone ring on the sink; it was Ashley. I was deciding whether to answer and tell her I was sick or pretend to be super stoked.

"Hello?"

"Are you ready for today?"

"I-" the moment of truth, "I'm excited! Probably the most excited I have ever been in my whole entire life!" I sounded disgusting and I felt like it as well. Why was I lying to her like that?

"Same. Well, not for me since I already met Kabelo but for you since you still have no clue who your future wife is!"

I walked out of the bathroom and started heading towards my room. "Oh, ha-ha-ha, you're really pushing it there."

"I'm really not. When you see her, you're definitely going to agree."

Not sure that I was since I was apparently into guys and Kabelo was all my mind focused on. I didn't tell Ashley that obviously but I damn sure wanted to say that. If I did, I would've immediately regretted it because she would've probably been really supportive of the fact and tried to get me to act on my gayness. When, in reality, I wanted to do the total opposite.

"I bet I am," I said.

The line went silent for a bit. "Is something the matter? You seem a bit weird? Like it's obvious something is bothering you."

"James said the exact same thing a few days ago and honestly, it's a bit annoying. I'm fine. I'm more than fine so please don't ask again."

"Okay, so hold up. I'm not the one when it comes to the attitude so bring it down several notches."

I sighed. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to just go hard dick on you."

"It's fine. I get it and also I didn't know you and James talked still."

"Why wouldn't we? We've been friends since ever."

"I don't know. It's just that in high school, he would always act weird around you. Well, around us."

"Yeah, I never knew why. He would be totally normal when it was just me and him."

"Oh. So it was just me. He probably didn't like me or something." She sounded very hurt and upset by that. I never knew she cared that much about James to get sad over him potentially not liking her or something.

"I'm sure it wasn't like that."

"Yeah, well anyway, I'm almost at your house so be by the door so I don't have to honk and scare the entire neighborhood."

I chuckled. "Alright."

She hung up and then I made my way downstairs where Dawson and Mai were.

"What's up, ass wipes?" I greeted as I plopped down on the couch next to them.

"Nothing much," Dawson said.

"We were just talking about Dawson and how he's going to come out."

"Mai! Shut up!"

"Wait, what? Seriously? Why are you telling her to shut up, I want to know too! This is big, crazy big."

Dawson sighed. "Well, it's not that big of a deal since they basically know that I am already but they don't know for sure because I've been pretending to be more straight, I guess. So at the moment they don't hate me as much but fuck that. I'm going full glam, nails, makeup, outfit and all and coming out of this damn cocoon."

"Makeup? You never wore makeup before," I said shockingly.

"I know because I hate it," he said.

"And what he means by that is that he just doesn't know how to do it and has the patience of a bratty child."

"Exactly," Dawson said. "But Mai does pretty good with makeup so she's going to do it for me."

"Wow, uh, wow!" I just stared at Dawson and pictured him covered in rainbows and how upset our parents were going to be. "You're really going through with this, huh? Mom and Dad are going to be livid."

"And I care why again? It's about time I worry about making myself happy and not someone else. I don't care who they are, parents are included. I don't have time to walk around the house depressed and be a basic, colorless bitch! I want to be me! I want to be happy and live my life. No more walking on eggshells."

I placed my hand on his shoulder. "And I'll be here all the way." He smiled and I pulled him into a hug. I held him tighter than usual and for some reason, some odd reason, I was crying.

"Woah, don't need to be all weird and shit," he said as he gently pushed me away. "You're being gayer than me and that's saying something."

I chuckled as I wiped my eyes. As I stared at him, I couldn't help but smile but there was something that was hanging at the back of my mind...There was something I wanted to ask him but it was going to have to wait for another time.

My phone started to vibrate and I already knew it was Ashley so I stood up, said my goodbyes and headed out.