Am I allowed to call her a "b*tch" if she started it ?
Am I allowed to listen to her speaking to anybody but me, to try and figure out how she's doing?
Am I allowed to miss her eyes which made me feel safe when staring inside?
Am I allowed to want to protect her when she's already cast me as the villain?
Am I allowed to avoid the spotlight so she cant fix her mocking gaze on me?
Am I allowed to stare at her new girlfriend looking for clues?
Am I allowed to hurt for all the memories thrown away?
Am I allowed to dream as if our breakup was just a bad dream?
Am I allowed to want to be friends with her after she turned me suicidal?
Am I allowed to physically jump when we accidentally make eye contact?
Am I allowed to look around hyperactively just to make sure she's not there?
Am I allowed to be on therapist number 3?
Am I allowed to miss her?
Though no one ever says I'm not allowed
their tired gazes say other wise
now more than ever
I know only eyes tell the truth
Notes: so this is turning into two poems one a fortnight rather then weekly, but nearly half way there. well give or take, its my birthday next week. Had no chance to look forward to it as EXAMS!! Someone should talk to the British government about the effect of exams on mental health. They wonder why mental health problems are so wide spread. Of course its a variety of other factors, but I think they should teach us how to try and be happy as well as successful.
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