Fix You

XXII.

Michael's POV

"Wake up Michael!" I wake up to the sound of Calum's annoying voice as he hits me with a pillow. "You're so fucking annoying," I yell back at him. I roll over onto my back checking my phone to see what time it is and Ashton comes into the room. "Lads, has anyone seen my black sweatpants? I left them on the floor in the bathroom." Shit. He's gonna be pissed. "Yeah, sorry mate I think I'm wearing 'em. I was wondering why they felt sorta big." I laugh and Ash throws a pillow at me as well. "Take them off! I haven't got anything else to wear." Calum laughs at Ashton and I stand up slipping off the sweats, handing them to Ashton. Calum is in tears as I walk to my room naked but I'm too tired to care. I spend everyday with these boys, it's nothing they haven't seen. I join them back in the living room after putting on boxers and a long sleeve jumper. "How long have you fucks been up?" I ask as Ashton slips on the sweatpants, Calum sits at his computer, and Luke is messing around on his guitar. "It's been since about 9 or 10. Alex made breakfast for me and Ash." Luke replies and something doesn't add up. "But she had uni this morning. Did she not go?" And Luke is the only person listening to me. "No, mate. She said she was too tired to go or something. She felt bad for ditching so she went home to study." He fills me in and I'm actually pretty shocked that Alex would miss school. She never does and I don't think she ever has before today. If Luke says she went home to study, that must mean she missed an exam or something. Maybe I'm just thinking too into it but I hope she was okay this morning. She'd never just miss class because she was tired.

I go to brush my teeth and my day already feels miserable since I woke up so late. I hear the other boys giggling obnoxiously like school girls so I decided to interrupt the fun. "What the hell is so funny?" Ashton is starting to pick up and fold all of the blankets so I decide to help him. "Luke, don't." I hear Calum say to Luke and he's all of a sudden poker faced. "Don't what?" I ask smirking at them. "It's nothing, man." Luke says awkwardly and I don't want to be upset but Calum's facial expression if making me think otherwise. "C'mon, don't be an ass. Whats going on?" Luke sits up from the chair in the kitchen and lays on the arm of the couch. "Its nothing. It's just this morning, Ash- he asked Alex if she were given the chance to fuck one of us boys, who would she pick." I don't know why they're making a big deal out of this. Alex has never been weirded out by sexual questions before, she knows how immature we all are. "Okay, so what?" I focus back on the blankets and the room is unnecessarily silent. "Mike, she said you." Luke says and I don't even know if I believe him. I don't know if he's just trying to be a dick but I deep down don't think he'd do that. Luke has a soft spot for me, I know it, even though I'm such a dick to him. Calum is the only person who knows how I feel about Alex so maybe he didn't want Luke to tell me so I wouldn't get embarrassed. I honestly don't know what to say. I'll just pretend I don't care.

"Oh really?" I thought she'd say you or something." I say to Luke. He joins me on the couch and stretches his long legs onto the coffee table. "Even if she did, mate, I would never do that to you." I guess this is Luke's subtle way of telling me he knows how I feel about Alex as well. It makes sense since I'm not exactly great at hiding it. But it makes me feel good knowing he'd never try anything. I look over at Calum and he has a sincere look on his face just waiting for me to be excited.

I know that's how all of the boys probably expected me to feel but I'm not. Sure, it boosted my confidence a bit. But I refuse to ever believe Alex actually wants to have sex with me. The way Luke said Ash asked her, it seemed like it was a last resort sorta thing. I could never just casually fuck her anyways. I don't even have her and I know I'd want her all the time. Maybe she just said me because she's known me the longest or she's most comfortable around me. Whatever the case, it doesn't change the fact that I'm a 6 and she's a solid 10.