Fix You

XXI.

Alex's POV

I woke up in Michael's arms this morning and not one inch of my being wants to leave. I don't necessarily remember how I got this close to him but I have to get up and get ready for school. His sweatpants are hanging awfully low and he's shirtless. I can see his pubes by the top of his black sweatpants  and I don't want to look away. FUCK. Why isn't he wearing underwear? I get the sudden urge to wake him up with a blowjob but the other boys are around and that can't happen anyway. It is too early to be aroused. He rolls over and pulls me closer to him in his sleep. My heart is literally racing. His mouth is open a bit and he must think I'm a pillow. I don't mind it though. I run my fingertips across the tattoos on his arm that is thrown across my waist.  I mess with his hair and sigh; there's no way I can leave. Luckily I only had one class today so it's okay if I miss it. I lean my head closer to his and kiss his nose, forcing myself to go back to sleep.

I managed to sleep for a couple more hours but woke up to a sharp pain in my boob. I'm the first to wake up once again and it's because Michael's head is squishing my boob. "Mikey! Michael! Get up, please!" He lifts his head and looks at me with one eye open. "Sorry but your head was hurting my nipple." I laugh and I can tell he's too tired to function. "Oh, sorry. Do you want me to kiss it?" He asks in a deep morning voice. Did he seriously just ask that? Maybe he's too tired to even realize it. I seriously over think every little thing. I hope he doesn't notice how much I'm blushing. "Thats okay, just go back to sleep." I smile and he pulls me into his arms, my back to his chest. What the hell is going on? I mean we've cuddled before but he seems extra clingy this morning and it's turning me on. I've never been such a sexual person and Michael has managed to throw that idea right out the window. My heart literally stops when I feel his boner up against my ass as he falls back asleep. I'm so fucking horny and it's almost like Michael is trying to kill me. I need to stop feeling like this. Fuck. First I masturbate to him in the shower, then I dream that he fingered me, and now this. It's taking everything in me not to grind my ass back on him. Why does he make me feel this way? This whole thing took a turn for the worst the night I decided to give him head. We are supposed to be best friends. But my feelings for him are taking me over.

I'm laying sat on my phone with Michael's arms around me and I feel his waist get closer to my back side. Goddamn. I seriously can't fight this anymore. I want him buried inside me right now. He takes my sex drive to a whole new level. I need to remove myself from the situation before things get too out of hand. I decide to get up and start making breakfast to help keep my mind off things.

Luke is ths first of the boys to wake up and he joins me in the kitchen. "Hey beautiful." He sweetly greets me even though I know he's just trying to be nice. "Hey Lucas. Did you sleep okay last night?" I ask, getting orange juice from the fridge and he nods, pulling out his guitar. Ashton stumbles into the kitchen after stretching and putting on his glasses. He goes straight for the cabinet in search for the Vegemite. Typical Ashton. Ashton meets Luke at the table and they're giggling about something. I seriously love being around them. There is no way I could ever be in a bad mood being around these boys.

"Hey Alex. Can I ask you something? And you have to be honest." I set down my orange juice and tie my hair into a ponytail. "Oh god, I love questions that start out like that. Okay, shoot." I tell him and he can't stop smiling. "If you were given the chance to fuck any one of us boys, who would you pick?" Luke gets up from the table trying to convince me not to answer. "He's just being a dick, don't answer that." Luke is so considerate but I really don't feel awkward telling them. "What? I just wanna know!" Ash remarks and I smile at both of them. "Honestly, I'd fuck Michael." I admit focusing back on my breakfast. The room is suddenly too quiet and I look up to see Ash and Luke staring at me. "Wait, seriously?" Luke asks and he looks like he's trying not to smile. My hands feel cold all of a sudden and their reaction is freaking me out a bit. "Yeah. Why? Is that weird?" I nervously respond and they both smirk at each other. "No, not at all. Great choice, actually." Luke smiles, pulling his lip ring between his teeth.

My stomach really hurts and I'm not sure why. It wasn't until today that I realized just how badly I want to have sex with Michael. And I can't stop thinking about it. I always thought I'd lose my virginity by now so maybe this is me just eager to lose it. The thought of losing it actually terrifies me.  In the back of my mind, I always knew that Michael would always be my plan B, if I never had luck with anyone else. It's so dumb of me to think that that would ever happen.