Fix You

XXXVIX.

Alex's POV

I rushed home after work to shower before I head over to see the boys. My day went downhill after having lunch with Calum. I couldn't stop thinking about what he told me about Michael using alcohol to solve his problems. I guess I can't be mad since I didn't exactly solve my problems in a positive way either. Luckily, it's not too late by the time I finish showering and I pack a bag of clothes just in case Michael begs me to stay the night, which I'm kinda hoping he does. It still doesn't feel like he's actually my boyfriend because I know he'll always be my best friend before anything. I throw on some yoga shorts and a baggy t shirt and finally head out to see the boys.

"Oh, it's just you," Calum says answering the door with a cheeky smile. I roll my eyes and kick my shoes off by the door. Luke and Ash come running in to greet me with bear hugs. "Michael's in his room, if you wanna see him. I guess he's a bit sore from today," Ash laughs and I'm a bit curious to know how hard Ashton worked Michael today. I slowly open the door to see Michael laid flat on his stomach face planting into his pillow. "Hi baby," Michael groans and I try to hide my laughter. "What happened?" I burst out laughing sitting beside him on the bed. "Ashton was trying to kill me, that's what." He jokes and I start to massage his bare shoulders. A sigh of relief falls from his lips and he rolls over onto his back, sitting up and grabbing my hand in his. "I'm never working out again," he jokes and I laugh. I lean into his chest and kiss his lips. "I missed you loads today," he says in between kisses. My body feels hot and I just know I'm blushing. I feel the sudden urge to bring up my talk with Calum today but all I want to do is keep kissing him. I keep tugging at his bottom lip and I feel his tongue slip into my mouth. My heart is racing and his lips feel amazing. "Hmm, I see someone missed me too." Michael teases breaking the hot kiss. Fuck. I've been in his room for ten minutes and I'm already so turned on. "How was work today?" He asks and I'm reminded of how just being with him made my shitty day worth it. "Ugh, absolutely miserable. Thank god I don't have another shift for a couple days," I sigh as Michael continues to peck kisses to my lips. Calum barges into the room and Michael and I quickly separate.

"Hey guys, do you want to watch a movie with us lads?" Before I can say no, Michael jumps from the bed and answers Calum. "Yeah, bro. We'll be out in a second." I can't stop staring at Michael in his underwear and I'm disappointed when he pulls sweatpants over his waist. I take a deep breath and try to ignore my hormones running wild. He stands by the body mirror hanging on the back of the door and I notice deep scratches on both sides of the end of his back. "Jesus," I whisper out loud, catching Michael's attention. "What?" He asks with a smirk pulling a plain black t shirt over his chest. I knock from my daze and reply. "What? Oh nothing, I'm just in a daze." He smiles placing his hand on my cheek. "Yeah right, tell me," he badgers me and I chuckle to myself. "I kinda like the way the scratches look on your back. They're really hot," I say and Michael starts to laugh. "You don't have to be embarrassed to tell me that, babe. I like how you mark me too. You don't have to act so innocent," he says grasping my hand pulling me in for a kiss. My stomach flutters and my face is hot once again. Michael causes the naughtiest thoughts in me and it's a feeling that I can't fight. I'm having trouble acting on these thoughts as much as I want to. It really intimidates me how sexual of a person Michael is because he never seems to get nervous or embarrassed. But I'm willing to experiment every last dirty thought I have about him.

We head into the lounge room and the boys have blankets spread out all over the floor. Michael sits on the floor leaned against the couch and I take the place next to him. "Damn, Alex. You look really fit in those shorts," Ashton remarks as I sit Indian style on  the floor.  "Hey, shut the fuck up," Michael quickly responds to Ashton, looking up from his phone and throwing a pillow at Ash. "You don't have to be a dick, Mikey. I was just playing," Ash says and the tension in the room is rising. "Don't hit on her, mate." Michael seems worked up and wasted no time getting defensive. I'm used to the boys complimenting me but I guess It's different now that I'm actually Michael's girlfriend. But Ashton doesn't know that. I look at Michael letting him know to chill out and all be does is shrug. I lay on Michael's thigh and he nervously plays with my hair throughout the whole movie.  At one point, I feel Michael tug at my hair and a loud moan instinctively leaves my lips. "You okay babe?" Luke asks and I quickly stare at Michael, who is laughing into his hand. I'm glad he's no longer annoyed and being playful but I feel embarrassed. I was already so turned on by Michael and now him pulling my hair made it worse.

Michael's POV

This seems to be a pattern everytime we all hang out; everybody falls asleep on me. I stopped paying attention so long ago to whatever movie Luke put on so I'll just play video games since I'm wide awake as usual. I'd like to have a beer while I game but I'm trying to cut down for Alex's sake. She would never expect that of me but I just don't need it anyway. I quietly set up the Xbox and take my place back on the floor beside Alex. She looked exhausted coming here after work so I knew it was only minutes before she'd pass out on me. I wasn't expecting the lads to as well, but I'm more used to it with them. I'm pretty into this game when I see Alex's frame roll over onto her back, laying closer to me. Her shirt goes up a bit and I can't stop thinking about what those shorts she's wearing are doing to me. Fuck Ashton for hitting on her earlier. I don't care that he doesn't know she's my girlfriend, he doesn't need to look at her ass. My eyes are focused back on the screen to see that I died in the game. Fuck. Even when Alex is asleep, she still drives me insane. I shut the game off outta frustration and lay closer to her. I'm in the mood to cuddle her even with the boys around but of course, she's asleep. She looks so beautiful and at ease. I take a second to look at her wrists, running my thumb over the multiple scars. I kiss her wrist and I feel the sudden urge to cry. If she only knew just how much she means to me. I have no clue what I'm going to do when I go away again. Last time was pretty bad and I don't want this time to be worse. This is why I can't be awake and alone, my thoughts start to consume me.

I playfully start to run my fingertips up her stomach and watch the goosebumps form on her skin. I watch at her face for a reaction but she doesn't budge. I run my thumb over her slightly parted lips then lean in to kiss them. I perch myself on my elbow and nuzzle my head into her neck, slipping my hand inside her shorts. I run my hand by the tattoo by her hipbone admiring how sexy it is. Her hips slightly buck as I collect the wetness on my middle finger. I peek over at the boys hoping they stay asleep.  "Goddamn," I say, as Alex instinctively spreads her legs wider, still appearing to be asleep. I rub at her clit a few times and plant kisses on her neck simultaneously. I tap on her clit gently before inserting two fingers inside of her, pumping them slowly. A small moan fills the room and her eyes shortly open as she starts to wake up. "Michael? What- what are you doing?" She stutters half asleep. I put my finger against her lips as she tries to register what's happening. "Babygirl, you have to be quiet, okay? Just relax," I direct her eyes to the boys and she bites down on her lip. She looks so confused but it's the cutest damn thing I've ever seen. Her back arches as I quicken the pace of my fingers and she nearly claws at my shirt. "Fuck," she pants and my dick is starting to throb. "That feel good, baby?" I whisper into her ear and she softly moans, nodding. Her breathing is heavy and I love watching how her body reacts to me. A tiny squeal falls from her lips and it sounds like music to my ears. I place my opposite hand on her mouth while continuing to finger her. Her moans are mumbled against my hand and her legs start to shake. Her head falls back and her eyes are tightly shut. She pulls at my shirt as her whole body shakes and she cums all over my fingers. I hear her squeal against my hand and a groan leaves my lips. "Holy shit, what was that for?" She whispers coming down from her high. "I just wanted to cuddle you and you were turning me on." I say placing my hands on her ass and pulling her closer to me. "Oh yeah? I was asleep, how did I do that?" She giggles kissing at my nose. "You're just really sexy. Even when unconscious." She kisses me and laughs into it. "I am no such thing but thank you baby." Her eyes still look heavy but she seems wide awake. "I'm sorry for waking you. I know you were probably tired from work." I start to feel guilty as she yawns and stretches her arms. "First, that was an incredible way to wake up. And second, I'm sorry for falling asleep on you." She pouts her lips and I can't stop staring into her eyes. "Plus I'm glad you did. Anytime you want to cuddle you just say the word and I'm yours," she says in a raspy tone and I'm trying to avoid blushing. She rolls over with her back against my chest and I pull her to me as close as possible as we try to fall back asleep.

My heart is pounding as she quickly falls back asleep in my arms. I love the smell of her hair and I can't ignore how hot her ass looks up against my dick. Jesus, this woman. "Say the word and I'm yours. " Those words caused a sharp pain in my chest and they keep replaying over in my head. I kiss Alex's hair and tell her I love her before I attempt to sleep off this sudden sick feeling.