Fix You

XVIII.

Alex's POV

I think yesterday was the first day in a very long time that I didn't cry once. After my amazing jog in the park, I went home and wrote down all of my feelings regarding Michael into a journal. I needed to address everything by writing it out before I admit everything to Michael himself. It helped take a small amount of weight from my shoulders so I'm glad that I did it. I lit some candles last night and watched a few of my favorite 80's movies to end my 'me day' off properly. I feel as if I'm making alot of progress and everyday is one step closer to loving myself again.

My shift starts in a half hour so I'm scrambling to get ready. In the middle of me applying makeup, my ringtone goes off. It's Michael. "Hey Mikey, what's up?" I answer, pacing around my  room for my shoes. "Hey, nothing much.  Are you busy tonight? Ash wants us all to watch movies and hang out altogether." I grab my apron from the chair by my computer, struggling to hold my phone to my ear. "Well, I get out at 9, so I'll definitely come afterwards." I start packing a change of clothes and Michael chimes in. "Oh, bring stuff to stay over in. We're all gonna camp out in the living room and eat junk food and stuff." I don't know why but Michael sounds nervous and it's insanely cute. "Okay, definitely. I love you guys, I'll see you later." I hang up the phone and grab all of my cosmetics and clothes to sleep in, throwing them into a bag.

My shift completely flew by today and it only put me in such a better mood. During my break, Michael sent me a picture of him and Luke with puppy eyes in a text that said 'Miss you loser.' The way Michael looked in it was just enough to help me survive the rest of my shift. I feel gross and my hair is a mess but I'm really looking forward to hanging out with my favorite boys. I get to the house and only Luke and Michael are seated on the couch as Michael plays video games. "Hey, how was work?" Luke asks me moving his feet on the couch, expecting me to sit down. "It flew by, thankfully. It wasn't too bad today. Where are Ash and Cal?" I ask, scanning the house that is still somewhat clean from the other day. I'm actually quite impressed. Michael has all his attention on the TV screen and he looks so perfect just sitting there. "They're buying food. They should be back soon." I set my bag on the couch, hitting Michael to grab his attention. "Ow! Geez, hi Alexandra." He retorts and I giggle. "Is it okay if I shower quickly? Since we're waiting for Ash and Cal anyway." I'm meaning to address both of them but Michael is in his own little world. "Yeah, of course." Luke says and jumps up to show me how the shower works.

I don't know what has come over me in the past half hour but I feel completely frustrated. As I get naked and the light breeze hits my skin, my nipples harden and I playfully grab my boobs standing in the mirror. Shit. The fact that all Michael did was sit there and I got turned on is really pissing me off. I turn on the light in the shower and leave the rest of the bathroom dark. The hot water hits my skin and it feels amazing. I begin to mess with my boobs again increasing my sex drive. I don't wanna do this here but my body is craving some sort of relief.

After washing my hair, I lean against the wall and begin touching myself as the water relaxes my entire body. I'm rubbing circles by my clit and I bite my lip enjoying every second of it. Oh shit. I slip one finger inside myself and start pumping slowly while quietly moaning to myself. I'm hoping the noise from the water will drowned out my soft moans. I continue pumping when a voice knocks me from my daze. "Alex, it's Michael. I'm just gonna pee really quick." Fuck. I'm so close and I can't stop. I bite my lip and shakily say 'Okay.' I'm back in my own world and accidentally moan out loud. "Are you okay?" Michael asks and I can feel myself turning red in the face. I give him a simple 'hmmm' while trying to hit my high. I pump my fingers faster and finally hit my high as I can hear Michael still in the bathroom on the other side of the curtain. I instantly cover my mouth, smothering my moans, and my body feels so much better. I hear Michael lightly chuckle and leave the bathroom. I'm praying that he didn't hear anything. Fuck.

I'm trying to catch my breath as I wash the rest of my body and I can't stop lightly moaning. I dry myself off and change into a tank top and pajama shorts. I can hear all four boys now being loud in the living room and I leave the bathroom to join them. Ashton and Calum run over to me and give me a huge bear hug while yelling how happy they are to see me. I can tell they've already drank some. Their hug just boosted my mood some more. I love those idiots. I continue running the towel through my hair and sit on the couch next to Michael. He turns to me with a cocky smirk on his face and asks, "Feel better?"

Fuck, he knows.