Rains of Darkness (Celebrity Series #2) [EDITING]

Darkness 25

Chapter 25

Gusto Kita

Just when I am already determined to accept all my memories, to risk the deathly pain, to stop avoiding the truth and to stop running my darkness, saka pa hindi nakiayon sa akin ang aking memorya.

Wala. Nabigo ako. Hindi nadugtungan ang naputol kong memorya kahit pa hinalikan ko ulit si Ark.

Pinutol ko ang halik at humiwalay sa kanya. My head is painful as hell that I think I would be unconcious at any moment. Inalis ko ang kamay kong nakayakap sa leeg niya at akma ng aalis pero muli niya akong hinigit pabalik.

"Are you alright?" he asked gently.

Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko. I can feel my lips losing its color.

"Did something hurt you? What's wrong? Tell me."

Umiling ako at kinalma ang sarili. "A-Aalis na ako."

"Where are you going? After you kiss me?"

"Ark, I need to go."

"What's the problem? May masakit ba sa'yo?" he sounded so worried.

Umiling ulit ako at kumalas mula sa pagkakahawak niya. He's very strong and I'm sure if it's not his will to let me go, hindi ako makakawala. Nararamdaman niyang hindi niya ako mapipilit sumagot kaya binitawan niya ako at hinayaang umalis.

I don't know what happened. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit sa kanya kumakalabit ang mga kinatatakutan kong ala-ala. Hindi ko alam kung bakit siya ang nakikita ko sa mga malabo kong nakaraan.

Is he part of my past? Is he part of my darkness? Pero impossible iyon. Kung parte nga siya ng nakaraan ko, dapat kilala niya ako.

I know this is a very serious and heavy accusation, but if Ark is part of my past, it's possible that he's the one who manipulated and... violated me.

Naalala kong kamukhang-kamukha niya iyong tumangka sa akin noon. Kahit malabo, sigurado akong mukha niya iyon. If he's indeed part of my darkness, then impossibleng hindi siya ang walang hiyang lalaking pinagtangkaan ako!

Ayokong maniwala. Ark was friendly and kind in my new memories. He couldn't do it. I'm sure of that.

Pero paano nga kung... siya? Magtitiwala ba ako? Ano bang alam ko sa buhay niya bago naging artista? Pero ayoko. Hindi siya iyon. Hindi niya magagawa iyon dahil hindi siya masamang tao.

Fuck!

I fell asleep after taking my medicine. Mabuti na lang at nawala na ang sakit ng ulo ko kinaumagahan.

Naligo ako at nagbihis. Insaktong pagbaba ko sa sala ay biglang tumunog ang doorbell. The thought that it might be Elvira who finally decided to visit me made me rush to open the door.

"Good morning," Ark greeted me with a small smile on his lips, all his attention was on me.

Nagulat ako. What the hell? Kanina lang ay iniisip ko siya tapos ngayon bigla siyang nagpakita sa akin.

"Anong ginagawa mo rito?" Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala! "Paano mo nalaman ang bahay ko?"

"I asked someone who knew your address."

"Sino?"

He watched me closely and sighed. "Si Elvira."

Why would Elvira told him my address? How did he ask it from her? Ganoon na ba sila kaclose para mapasagot niya si Elvira sa personal na bagay kagaya niyon?

"I'm sorry for asking your address. I just want to know where are you staying. I was worried for you yesterday. Are you feeling well now?"

"I'm fine. Go home, Ark."