Chaeyoung's POV
Sitting across from Joy feels weird. I haven’t seen my best friend in years. She looks more grown up now, her hair’s longer, she’s dyed it, her features have matured and her figure’s more toned. She’s still the same though; noisy, easily excitable, beautiful. I used to wish she’d fall in love with me. But she was always in love with Yeri. And when I met Lisa, it didn’t matter anymore that Joy was only my best friend.
Lisa, I’m sorry I dealt with things the way I did. I’m sorry.. I got scared… I got envious. I was immature.
I’ve only been back from America for slightly over a week and I’ve been crashing at Joy’s till I find a job and an apartment for myself.
Tonight, I’ve just been catching up with Joy. She’s been slowly feeding me information about Lisa. Joy still meets up with Irene once in awhile. Ever since I met Lisa, its been the 6 of us. Joy, Yeri, Seulgi, Irene, Lisa and I. We all hung out together a lot and our friendships gradually blossomed. Even though I left and ruined things, some of the friendships have remained.
Joy tells me that Lisa hasn’t spoken to Yeri and herself for years but that Irene has kept her updated. It breaks my heart to hear of how I shattered the best thing that ever happened to me. I know Joy’s not telling me the whole story cos she doesn’t know the whole story. But from what I’m already hearing from her, it tears me up inside. Lisa didn’t deserve any of this. And I’m not running away anymore. I know I’ve screwed up so badly with her and I intend to take my punishment. I deserve it.
Yesterday, Joy slipped into our lunch conversation that Lisa’s seeing someone called Jennie now and that they seemed happy. I tried to maintain my smile. I tried to pretend I was ok with the news. But I wasn’t and Joy knew. Best friends always know. What should I have expected Lisa to do though. She moved on and even though its hurts that she’s not mine anymore I know she deserves better than me.
Why am I back?
Because its about time that I came back to confront my actions. Its about time to stop running away from her. Its about time I came home.
Do I want Lisa back?
Hell yeah I do. But only if she wants me back. And if she doesn’t, I’ll still take whatever she’s willing to give me because I want her in my life. In whatever capacity she’s willing to, I want her. I don’t want to live the rest of my life missing her. The last 4 years were bad enough without her. I don’t think I can face life knowing she’s not around.
Joy’s been thinking of proposing to Yeri. They’ve been officially together for 5 years already and she wants to take the next step. She wants to truly make Yeri hers’. JoyRi forever. I’m happy for them. It’s the first really good news I’ve heard since Joy told me about Lisa and Jennie. Now Joy's trying to think up the perfect proposal. She wants to show Yeri just how much she loves her. I wish she’d stop with the cheesy ideas though. Seriously, finding a ring in desert is completely over done. I know Joy can come up with something better.
“Ok, how about this. Since you want to show Yeri how much you truly love her, make this a long proposal. Don’t do just a one off event. Have like a month long proposal. Everyday you’ll just do something special for her. It doesn’t have to be big. Just like flowers at the office or breakfast in bed. But like everyday for a month. And finally, you can have an entire weekend where you show her the best time of her life. That weekend you wine her, dine her and love her till she can’t take more. On the last morning you slip the ring on her finger and wake her up with a mind blowing kiss. You tell her you want to spend the rest of your life with her and proceed to celebrate or continue convincing her with your skills babe. Its sweet, simple and memorable. How’s that for an idea!” I reach over to Joy for a high five cos I’m so proud of my suggestion. But then again, that was my original plan to propose to Lisa. I doubt I can use it anymore so why not let my best friend have it.
Suddenly Joy’s handphone goes off, she grabs it and checks caller id. She looks at me and I can see worry and hesitance in her eyes. “Chaeng, I gotta take this call.” She walks off into the room and closes the door behind her. I’m left wondering why she’s acting so strange.
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You Never Said Goodbye
Fanfic(Completed) Lalisa Manoban's world crumbled when her first love Park Chaeyoung left her to follow her dreams. Years later she found herself in a relationship and fell in love with a certain girl named Jennie Kim who helped her get through her break...
