She Has My Heart Forever

Chapter 11 My Oh My

Katniss POV

Peeta and I pull up to the therapist's office and get out. Its been a week since I lost the baby and I think I'm doing okay but Peeta still wants us to go here.

"Come on Katniss. Lets go." he says taking my hand.

"Peeta...do we really have to do this?" I ask as he opens the door.

"Yes, we do." he says. "Now just sit down." He's been really aggressive and depressed since the baby died and that scares me abit cause I fear he'll turn back to the drink. He walks up to the desk, talks to the woman there then returns to me.

"When can we go it?" I ask

"Soon." he mumbles looking down. I sigh and lean back I know its hard for Peeta but it seems like he doesn't care about how I feel. Soon after another woman walks in.

"Mr. and Mrs. Mellark? Please follow me." she says. We stand up and follow her down the hallways to a white room. "Here we are. Your therapist will be here shortly." she turns and leaves.

"I hope this can help us." I say. He grunts and keeps his eyes on the ground. "Whats your problem?!"

"My problem is that your acting like the world is okay!" he says.

"It isn't but I think I should be the one slumping around like a damn zombie! I lost my child that was growing in me! That was mine to protect and I could! Why don't you think about how I feel?!" I yell.

"My oh my.....haven't even started and we're already yelling." we turn and see a man,  shoulder length grey have and a dark blue suit. "My name is Haymitch Abernathy. Its a great honor to meet you both." he dramatically bows.

"Umm..okay?" I say.

"What? Did you expect something else?" he asks sitting down.

"No..no I didn't." I say sitting down as well.

"Alright, lets begin. From your records I got from the hospital you had a miscariage." he says putting his glasses on.

"Yes." I say looking down.

"I'm sorry for you loss." he says. I nod and sit up. "But lets begin. Whats happened since that time? How have each of you been handling it?"

"Well....I think I'm doing good." I say.

"Yeah right, your pushing everything down." Peeta says.

"This is not how your supposed to act! You don't know my pain!" I yell.

"Your acting like everything's fine! Like nothing ever happened!" he yells back.

"Nothing is fine! I lost my child! My baby! That was I was supposed to protect and your telling me you have it harder!" I yell.

"I never said that!" he yells.

"Alright! I can see we're not gonna get anywhere with this so lets try something else." Haymitch says.

"What else could we do?" I ask.

"Well...lets start embracing the fact that your gonna end up killing each other by going on like this." he says. "Lets relax and start over."

"I don't think this is gonna help." I say looking down.

"Neither do I." Peeta says.

"Okay, lets try this. How did you two fall in love?" he asks.

"Umm..how is this supposed to help us?" I ask.

"Well...its a way to go back to the roots and start over." he says

"Alright umm...well...it starts back in school." I say.

"See? Good. When did you two meet?" he asks.

"In kindergarten." I say.

"Wow...damn..alright." he says writing it down. "No, when did you end up..together?" 

"Umm..Peeta?" I ask looking to him.

"After...I got shot..when we..umm..somewhere around that." he says.

"Come on guys..think." Haymitch says. I look down and think as hard as I can.

~FLASHBACK~

"I know I've been the worst girl ever. I've ruined you life and I'm sorry." she says. 

"Katniss I...."

"But I can't fight my feelings." she says looking up.

"What? What feelings?" I ask.

"My feelings for you." she says. This all takes me by surprise. "Peeta, I love you."

"What?" I ask. 

"I love you." she says softly.

"Katniss, you do...." but she pulls me forward and into a deep, passionate kiss. Before I can do anything...I kiss back I love this girl more than life itself. When she pulls away I'm just stuned. "Do you really want this?"

"I know what I want Peeta." she says. I smile and nod. I have the chance to be happy and I'm not letting it go.

~FLASHBACK END~

"In my room, that night we were studying." he says.

"Studying my ass." Haymitch says writing something down, smiling.

"Peeta...look at what we're doing. We're yelling over something like this. Our baby just died." I say feeling the tears coming. 

"I'm so sorry Katniss." he says letting his tears flow as well. I shake my head and pull him for a long needed hug.

"See? What did I tell you two. Going back to the roots helps." Haymitch says. I guess he was and I'm glad we came here now.

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Nikki :)