Beloved: Lovable, yet in a non sexual way. Able to love one without purpose of intercourse. Means special in a way that is beyond that of lust, but means the purest of love.
"Girl if I told you I love you that doesn't mean that I don't care." Lexus sings a song while rolling a blunt. I shake my head pouring myself a glass of red wine deciding to keep my nagging to myself just for tonight due to his big romantic gesture. I came home to a sea of rose petals greeting me as soon as I opened the door, my favorite bottle of wine on the counter, some takeout from some Chinese spot, and Lexus looking very moisturized in a white fluffy robe. He ran me a bath, lotioned and oiled me up, then gave me a foot massage. Now I'm here sitting between his legs on the couch in a fluffy robe as well feeling relaxed as ever. I love him.
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"Whatchu over here thinkin' about?" He smirks wrapping his arms loosely around my waist. Slightly turning my head he gives me exactly what I want; a kiss on the lips then my forehead. I shrug. "I just feel little butterflies like when I had a crush on you..it's stupid." I laugh slightly obviously blushing.
"It's not stupid. That just means you fallin' for me again." He inhales the smoke then let's it flow between his lips so smoothly. I watch almost as if I'm stuck in a trance. "I feel like we deeper in love than before and it's crazy because when I used ta think back during our bad times I didn't think we could feel nothing deeper for each other. Like now I would do anything for you. If you tell me you need something in China I'a figure a way to get my ass to China." We both laugh. Intertwining our fingers he holds my hand. "Nah but for real you showed me what real is, ion tell you enough but tha love and respect I have for you runs so deep baybeh. I love Lennox then it's you. I never been able ta be so transparent or actually feel until I got with you so I thank you for everything you dropped and sacrificed to come back in my life and in my son's life. I owe you everything and imma give it to you. Imma be the man you deserve and then some you hear me?" My heart beats like it's never beat before. I nod taking in and appreciating being appreciated. "That's my word not ah empty promise."
"Well your word means everything to me but I do promise you my patience while we grow up and raise Lennox together. I wonder where we'll be in a few years?" I smile imagining all kinds of scenarios. He sighs tilting his head slightly. "Lemme see." He mumbles putting a hand on my exposed thigh. "In a few years you gonna be Dr. Alsina out here savin' lives and shit, I'll have my own business or two-"
"What kind?" I interrupt him trying to really see the vision. He rubs his cheek. "Uh ah business that'll help kids on the street in need. Not a homeless shelter but something that'll really help 'em with real jobs and food. Like ah foundation or something you know?" I nod liking the sound of him having future goals. "We'll have a big house with a pool and Lennox will be in private school." We sit in a comfortable silence. I sip on my wine until I finish the glass while Lexus fills the room with smoke.
The more he smokes and the more wine I drink we both get into another zone of being relaxed. Putting his blunt down in the ashtray his lips connect to my neck instantly making me shiver. Oh boy He sucks and licks careful to not leave hickies while one hand reaches into my robe caressing my right breast. "Babe.." I watch intently as his hand resting on my leg begins to massage my inner thigh. I bite my lip enjoying his soft touch forgetting whatever I was about to say to stop his actions. He rubs in circles until my body begins to react. "You want me ta keep going baybeh?" All I can do is nod while I watch his fingers get wetter and wetter. "Ye-sss." My voice shakes.
"Hm?" My eyes close instantly as he slides two fingers slowly pumping them in then out. All I can think about is how good this feels and that tonight might actually be the night.
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"Keep going." I moan leaning more into him. "Oh God." I cover my mouth quickly apologizing to the man upstairs. "Lexusss." I bite down on my lip enjoying every second of this. My back arches and my legs begin to quiver while he mumbles things I can't quite pay attention to at the moment. He turns my head kissing me while I have my first orgasm. Removing his fingers he licks them clean then kisses me again. At this moment he can do anything and I won't care. I grab his hand practically pulling him off the couch so we can go upstairs. Following my lead he grabs my wine glass and his blunt.
"You love me?" He hovers over me searching my eyes. "I love you Lexus." I say without any hesitation. I'm nervous but this is exactly how I've always wanted my real first time to be. I'm with someone who loves me and wouldn't hurt me. Kissing my lips slowly he holds my leg up pressing up against me, the only thing between us is the material from his robe.
Working his way down he kisses the top of my breasts then my navel while he opens up my robe fully exposing my body to him. Lexus looks at me like he can see the depths of my soul sending me into overdrive. I want him to do something already or do I do something?
"You sure?" He asks spreading my legs slightly. I nod. "Tell me if you wanna stop okay?"
"Okay." Taking a deep breath I mentally try to prepare myself not to freak out. This is your husband. He loves you. Relax.
"I got you baybeh." He begins to kiss me some more and rub against me. My body loosens up under his touch. His fingers rub in circles until I begin to moan lowly. He then moves down connecting his mouth to me and I watch him in action between my eyes fluttering open then closed. "Oh- Lexuss ." I cover my mouth trying to keep quiet but he moves my hand away. "I wanna hear you." He says in between feasting. His hand caresses my body while his tongue does magic tricks causing my body to heat up. I grip the bed sheets feeling the pressure built up about to release. The feeling is so overwhelming all I can do is moan and call his name over and over again. He continues to lick and slurp after the fact turning me on even more.
Lexus sits up to kiss me while he massages the tent in his robe. He kisses me sloppily with his tongue positioning himself between my open legs. His eyes low and red he leans down kissing my earlobe whispering how much he loves me and how beautiful I am. Almost immediately I feel him slowly entering me but he stays still for a minute while I lay with my eyes shut trying to ignore the pain. "Shit." He groans rocking his hips even slower than before. Soon the pain begins to feel pleasurable. I hold onto him tightly allowing moans to escape from my lips. "Uh- Lexuss." My mouth falls open slightly as he digs deeper into me. It's as if I can feel every "I love you" he's ever said or every emotion he feels towards me. The amount of pleasure is almost unbearable. He holds my hands out on either side of me looking me in the eyes while I struggle to keep my eyes on him.
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With his breathing growing heavy "You gon' give me ah daughter?" he asks me. I nod moaning even louder than before not really caring who can hear. "Hm?" He holds one of my legs up so he can go even deeper. My eyes flutter feeling heat all over my body while tears run down my face. "Yes, Ye-sss. I'll give you a d-daughter." Wrapping my other leg around his waist he pumps in and out of me faster. He curses under his breath while coaching me through yet another orgasm. "Cum for me baybeh." My legs shake uncontrollably keeping my eyes on him while he reaches his climax at the same time. "Shit- Rayne." He moans in my ear while my back arches off of the bed feeling his warmth fill inside of me. I fight to keep my eyes open but the feeling is just so amazing I close them savoring the feeling of being this close to him.
Sliding out of me he looks over at me seeing tears streaming down my face. "I love you so much." I blurt out as if he doesn't already know. Lexus laughs a little then kisses me tenderly. "And I love you so much more." He sighs holding me in his arms. I lie still for what feels like hours on end listening to his steady breathing and heartbeat while trying to fight sleep. I wanna stay awake and cherish the moment we just shared forever. I'll never forget today. Ever.
