Beloved: Lovable, yet in a non sexual way. Able to love one without purpose of intercourse. Means special in a way that is beyond that of lust, but means the purest of love.
Hey 👋🏽 Good afternoon. I know it's been a while since I've written anything but a lot has been going on with my personal life. I would go into detail but I just don't wanna dwell on what now is the past. I just wanna say thank you for all the love and support 💖
P.s Please keep August in your prayers
R A Y N E
I blush waking up next to Lexus. It's been two weeks since we've been in our new place and every morning I wake up with him next to me feels like the first time. My smile grows bigger as he pecks my lips with his eyes still closed. "Mornin' beautiful." His voice comes out raspy but my heart still flutters leaving me stuck. I don't know why I feel so nervous all of a sudden. My heartbeat continues to be irregular while I stare at his impressively long eyelashes and perfectly shaped nose in hopes he dozed off but instead his eyes open meeting my intense stare. "I do somethin'?"
I shake my head answering quickly with a simple "No." He scratches his bare chest then sits up reluctantly hearing his phone go off. The process of moving is stressful and tiring but we're managing well I guess you can say. Us having a fresh start and new beginnings is exactly what we needed. "Mawmaw and Lenoxx said hey." He laughs showing me a picture of them at the park. I poke out my lip. "Aww I miss him. It looks like tookie got bigger."
"It's only until we get shit over here right plus we get some alone time with each other before things gets stressful." He continues to scroll through his phone while subconsciously rubbing my leg. "It'll only be stressful if you make it that way. We'll be fine."
"Ion know." He mumbles then things get quiet. I can tell Lexus has a lot on his mind pertaining to this huge step we took but there's no reason to be worried. He sighs setting his phone down on the bed to look at me. "This is nice with just us.." he grabs my hand then brings it up to his lips leaving a gentle kiss on it. Instantly a smile spreads across my face.
"I love you."
"I love you too boo." Closing his eyes he holds me closer by my waist. "You nervous?"
"For what?" I ask feeling nothing but peace. "Our new life. We're really about to do the whole family thing. You sure you ready fa that?"
I nod as if he can see me. "Of course. I'm ready to start my life with you." He opens one eye smirking. "I like the sound of that." Lowering his hand down to my butt all I can do is laugh. "You got any plans this mornin' beautiful?"
"I wanted to go see my friend Kayla actually. I haven't seen her since the day of your accident." Leaving kisses on my neck and collarbone he doesn't verbally reply. He pulls me more into him. "Lexus." I laugh.
"Hm?"
"I really miss her.." Sighing he let's me go. "Ight but remember tonight it's just me and you." He says for the millionth time this week. "How could I forget? You made me clear my schedule."
"Jus' reminding you. Ion want no excuses." He pecks my lips then gets out of bed. Whatever he has planned better be good. He pulls a hoodie over his bare chest along with some black joggers then walks into the bathroom.
"And where are you going?"
"Got some shit ta handle." He mumbles walking back in with his toothbrush hanging from his mouth. "I ain't gonna be out long." He reassures me before I can ask any additional questions. We still have yet to discuss him selling drugs although I feel he knows I know or either he thinks I'm extremely stupid. Thinking I'm not paying attention he tucks a gun in his pants underneath his hoodie. The vibe in the room instantly shifts as I get more annoyed and saddened that within two weeks he's doing the exact thing I wanted to get him away from. Two freaking weeks.
He comes over to me pecking my forehead twice. "I love you." Internally I roll my eyes. "Baybeh?"
"Mhm you too."
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"How's your friend doing? You never updated me on anything once you left." Kayla glances up at me then back down at her toe nails while she paints them. It takes me a minute to process what she's asking but then it clicks. The friend she's referring to is Lexus which is actually my husband I never told anyone on campus about. "He's great. I actually wanna tell you something pertaining to that whole situation..we're actually-"
"Dang Kayla, you got the whole apartment smelling like a nail shop. Open some of these windows." A guy walks in the front door dressed in navy blue scrubs along with a black backpack. I look at Kayla basically saying what the heck. I didn't know she got a roommate that fast especially a guy. "Oh Keith this is Rayne my old roommate, Rayne this is Keith my current roommate also known as the thing that makes my ass itch." She introduces us. "Might wanna make an appointment if your ass is itching." He laughs then looks my way. "Nice to finally meet the girl that's top of her class without physically being there."
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"You go to Emory?" I ask curiously.
"No but my father did, he's kind of a big deal. I'm a trauma surgeon at Grady Hospital now so I guess you can say I'm following in his footsteps." Kayla smirks. "You look pretty young to be a trauma surgeon." I take a good look at him. He can't be anymore than twenty six and if he is then I wanna know his skincare routine right now. He laughs exposing a perfect set of teeth. "Is that your clever way of trying to figure out how old I am? Trust me my hands are very gifted, I wouldn't be a surgeon if they weren't." My eyes instantly drop to the floor then to the ring on my finger. "Um I have to go- I have to get home." I stumble over my words feeling this guy burn a hole in my face.
"Well nice meeting you. If you're interested in trauma we should definitely hook up. I have a lot of knowledge I can share with you." Kayla's eyeballs practically fall out of her head as he passes me his business card with an email and phone number on it. "Oh uh thanks. I really have to go so I'm just gonna-" I maneuver around him so I can exit out of the door. Forgetting to even say bye to Kayla. As I walk to my car I stuff the card in the bottom of my purse thinking I'll just throw it out later. ________________
