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"Hey Dr. Brookes, this is Rayne um I'm calling to see how long do we have to wait for Lexus Alsina to be able to fly?"

"Uh- huh, okay. Yes I see." I nod even though the man can't even see me. "Alright thank you. No, you have a nice day." I suck my teeth setting down my phone. "What he say?" Lexus asks looking at me. "Blood clots you could get freaking blood clots and die immediately. You almost died twice already and you know what they say about the third time. That'll be the one to take you out and around the park." He laughs me off flipping through channels on the remote. "Rayne go get my black bag in the closet fa me please." He mumbles. I would usually ask what's wrong with his legs but in the event of him being home for just three weeks I decide to keep my mouth closed. I bring him the bag and he unzips it handing me stacks of money at a time like the ones the rappers or drug dealers carry on them. "Four thousand." He zips the bag back up and readjusts himself in the bed.

"Lexus what's this for and uh where'd you get it?" I ask growing uncomfortable from just looking at it the mass amount and knowing there's like triple that amount left inside the bag. "Savings and work. That's fa you paying for my eviction and shit. I appreciate it."

"But it was literally half of this." I give him two stacks of the money back. "And you literally my girl so go shoppin' with your girlfriends or somethin'. Do something you like with it or save it ion care." I bite down on my lip. "Okay but you said it was from work? You haven't been to work, you just got out of the hospital." I state obviously confused. "My grandma was gettin' my checks fa me while I was gone and I cashed them. "Okay well thank you.." I put the money on the floor next to the bed until I get a chance to go to the bank. I'll probably end up saving it for a rainy day. "When you go back ta school?"

"When you're just about a hundred percent. Why, you want me gone already?" I ask playfully. "Of course not." He smiles. Lenoxx's cry starts coming through the baby monitor meaning the big boy is finally up. "I got him." I get off the bed and walk down the hall. "I've been waiting for you to wake up, I missed you." I say excitedly. "Wanna see daddy?" I jump seeing Lexus in the doorway.

"You so good with him." He smiles. "Yeah we've had some bonding time ain't that right cutie patootie." I tickle his stomach making him laugh until I notice Lexus is fully dressed. "Did you want to go somewhere?" I ask.

"Royce 'bouta come get me. Can you watch him fa me?" He takes him out of my hands. "No. When Royce gets here I'm gonna explain what it means to get into an accident, have brain surgery and almost die twice. I'm also gonna explain to him what healing time means because apparently he doesn't know and neither do you. "Imma be out fa like a second. I'm good."

"Okay well me and the baby will come then. I have to bring your medicine and you'll have to eat something before we go-" I begin to make my way to the kitchen. "I'a just tell him nevermind." He mumbles. "Take him please." He groans leaning up against the wall with his eyes closed. I put Lenoxx in his crib  before I help Lexus back into the room. "See you're doing too much. Do you wanna be back in the hospital?" I fuss getting him in the bed.

"I jus' got dressed too fast. Take all 'dis off." He sits up allowing me to take everything off except his joggers. I put his stuff back in the closet then I go get him some ice water, his pain pills, and a wet towel. "Baybeh bring my medicine" He yells.

"I'm coming, Jesus." I mumble peeking my head in to check on Lenoxx. "Just two seconds ago he wanted to go out with his buddy and now he's in the bed with the sweats asking for my help. How ironic. "Hey when'd you get home?" I ask seeing Ms. Maylene in the kitchen.

"A couple minutes ago. I just saved the groceries. Why that big headed boy yelling in my house? Cut that yelling out Lexus!" I laugh. "He got dressed and tried to go hang out with his friend and now he's in pain. I told him he's gonna be right back in the hospital if he doesn't listen, it's only been three weeks." I shake my head. "I know better than anybody that boy don't listen. You could tell him the stove's hot and he'll still touch it."

"Rayne!"

"That's my cue." I laugh walking down the hall. "Here you go sir."

"Thank you." I watch him for a second to make sure he doesn't faint or anything crazy. I cock my head to the side seeing something black poking out from under the bed. He notices me looking at the object and pulls me down on the bed. "I thought you were just hurt?"

"I am. I want you ta lay with me though." He mumbles taking both of his hands and resting them on my butt. I laugh getting up. "No touching remember? Plus I have to get some school work done today." He sucks his teeth. "Jus' lay with me until I fall asleep. I think my meds about to kick in." He closes his eyes like he's really about to fall asleep. "Those pills are not in your system yet. You just took them five seconds ago drama queen." I laugh until my foot hits something reminding me of the object poking out from underneath the bed. I bend my head down to pick whatever it is up but instead I call out Lexus' name sternly. "You brought a gun into your grandmother's house?" I yell in a whisper. "What are you doing with a gun?"

"I've always had a gun. Relax."

"Okay but why is it loose?  We have a ba- there's a baby in this house.My foot just hit that thing, I could've shot my toe off!" He sits up trying to shush me up. "Lower your voice. I'a put it up, damn." He mumbles something under his breath struggling to get out of the bed. "What did you just say?"

"I said you bein' real dramatic right now and that's not how guns work. I'm sorry fa just having it out but-"

"BUT WHY WAS IT LOOSE IN THE FIRST PLACE?" I cut him off keeping it at a very loud whisper. I don't want Ms. Maylene to hear or she might just send him back to the hospital. He doesn't bother to answer me. He brings the gun into his closet saving it I suppose. I just watch him annoyed that he couldn't care less about the situation until I begin to put two and two together. I stand still in the same spot hoping my speculations aren't true.

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