Beloved: Lovable, yet in a non sexual way. Able to love one without purpose of intercourse. Means special in a way that is beyond that of lust, but means the purest of love.
I groan attempting to get up until I realize Lexus is laying halfway on top of me. I shake him feeling like my head is about to explode. "Chill out." He mumbles tightening his grip. "Let me up." Sucking his teeth he moves allowing me to get up. I turn the light on in the bathroom and I let out a scream seeing the condition of my neck. "Lexus." I go back into the room waking him up by hitting him with a pillow. "What tha fuck?" He sits up frowning at me.
"Look at my neck! What did you do!?" I hit him again getting angrier by the second. "Don't hit me again cause you not gon like what happens next." He warns me getting out the bed. He walks right past me going into the bathroom splashing water on his face. "Why do I have hickies on my neck Lexus?" I cross my arms watching him try to ignore me. "Hello?"
"Please chill out. You talkin' all loud and shit." He looks at me through the mirror. "You was tryna fuck me that's what happened." He turns around showing me his neck. I squint trying to see the little red mark he's claiming is a hickey. "Yeah now you quiet. You ah freak when you drinkin' around me Rayne." I walk away from the bathroom remembering bits and pieces of us making out. I sit on the edge of the bed rubbing my head.
"We horny ass teenagers and we were drunk Ray don't sweat it. We was just foolin' around."
"I don't do things like that. We can't "fool around" anymore." I groan remembering flashes of earlier today. "Just admit you like me." He pulls his shirt over his head. "I came ta terms with it. I'm feelin' you..I been feelin' you." He admits brushing his hand over his hair. My heart pounds in my chest keeping up with my pounding headache. "Okay?" Is all I say awkwardly. I've never really sat back and thought about if I like Lexus but it's obvious I do. I do a lot of things I would never do when I'm around him and I take a lot of his b.s because I may have a small crush on him. "So you good?" He asks not caring that I didn't say I like him back.
"Y-Yeah I'm great."
"Cool." He gathers his stuff to take his shower leaving me to die in my thoughts. I lay back on the bed kicking myself for just saying "okay." I stay in the same position wanting to just put a pillow over my face for making things so awkward for myself but instead I turn the tv on. Lexus comes out of the bathroom wearing a pair of basketball shorts with a towel wrapped around his neck to catch the water dripping from his curly hair. "We goin' out ta eat at eight." I look at the time seeing I only have a hour and a half to get ready. "Okay." I get up so I can take a quick shower, I cover the hickies with makeup the best I can then I slip on a blue dress I've never worn but always thought was pretty.
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"You got ya dick wet in Arizona yet?" Smiling he shakes his head. "I wish but on some real shit I'm chillin." I look through my suitcase for my heels cringing at how he's talking on FaceTime with Royce. "You tellin' me you in a different state with different chicks and you not bussin' em' down?" He looks around noticing I'm out of the bathroom. "Chill." I can tell he points the camera at me due to the loud "Ohhh, my bad." Escaping Royce's mouth. "Imma hit you up later G, you talkin reckless." He laughs ending the call. Standing to his feet he looks over at me through the sunglasses he's wearing. "You ready?"
"Yeah." I slip my heels on walking out behind him. My heels click against the floor as we walk to get into the Uber Lexus got. "Thank you." I get in as he opens the door for me. He sighs getting in with his face buried in his phone the whole ride to the restaurant. He smirks then locks his phone. "Man." He mumbles. I look out the window seeing we're finally at the restaurant. I open my own door knowing it's gonna irritate him. "Good evening, how many?" The girl smiles. "Two please." I smile back until I feel Lexus grab my arm as if he's lost his mind. "Don't try ta fuckin' embarrass me in public dawg." I jerk away from him. We get seated in a booth away from everyone since I know he's about to act a fool. "Don't grab me like that. Are you crazy?" I frown once the girl leaves.
He laughs looking off somewhere. "You not finna ruin my night cause you jealous. Argue with yourself."
"Jealous?" I ask confused. "Of what?"
"I said what I had to say, it's done. Drop it." He mumbles pulling his phone out once again. I bounce my leg up then down deciding to get up from the table. My chest falls up then down rapidly getting upset that he's doing all these little petty things knowing it's gonna upset me. I look around outside taking deep breaths before I go back in. As I walk to the table I see the waiter talking with Lexus. "The shrimp with the wild rice is good too man. How are you?" The man greets me with one of the prettiest smiles I've ever been in the presence of. "Wow, you have a really nice smile."
"Thank you. Yours isn't too bad yourself. Can I get you all some drinks?"
"Water." We both say in unison. "Alright I'll give you some time to look at the menu." He flashes his smile again before leaving. "Why you walked away when I was talkin' ta you?" Lexus stares me down. "You were talking at me, I really don't understand you sometimes." I shake my head. "Your attitude sucks."
"And yours don't? You getting out of cars and slamming the door because you don't have my attention is childish as fuck. Don't try ta flip this on me cause I was good."
"Okay." I mumble trying to get him to just shut up so I can hear myself think. "Everything's okay." I laugh looking up at him. "Is this seriously what this is about?" I ask referring to me saying okay when he told me he likes me. He gets on his phone again driving me insane. "Can you get off your stupid phone for one second and talk to me?"
"Everything ain't about you Rayne, just cause my attitude shifts don't mean it has anything ta do with you. I never said I liked you all I said was I'm feelin' you so you can stop tryna make it seem like I'm in love witchu or something. I could care less if you said you liked me or not." I leave him at the table feeling my blood boil, I've never felt so much anger at once in my life. "Jesus, Jesus." I pace the sidewalk looking up at the sky praying for this anger I'm feeling to go away. I've never wanted to put my hands on someone so bad before. I sit on the curb watching cars pass by trying to figure out if I should leave the restaurant all together. After about ten minutes Lexus comes outside looking for me. He sits down next to me. "You're irritated and I'm irritated so I'm sorry fa whatever I did ta piss you off. We got one more day here let's not do this." He sighs licking his lips. "I'm sorry for making you mad too." I apologize.
"I wasn't textin' no girl by the way." He teases as we walk back in to our table. "Okay." We both laugh making light of the situation.
