SONS of ANARCHY One Shots

I Loved Her

Requested by SierraKing768

* Trigger Warning*

This is going to be a sad one shot, mention of Characters death. If anything triggers you I am sorry.

Summary: You have been with friends with SAMCRO for years now and ever since Kozik met you he has had a crush on you but never told you. You have been sick for a while and never told the boys because they would worry and you pass out one day and they find you. On your death bed Kozik confesses to you.

Shelly's POV

I have been friends with the boys of SAMCRO for years now, you met them when you came in for a oil change and a friendship formed that day and to be honest you wouldn't change it for anything in the world. They were a crazy bunch but you loved them and all their craziness, Gemma took you under her wings and groomed you into the women you are today.

You were shy at first and wouldn't stand up to any of the girls and Gemma told you to stand up for yourself and tell those gashes off. I finally did and they respect me now, I still don't get along with some of them and that is ok but I am not afraid to bounce a bitch off the floor. I have a time or two and apparently caught the attention of one of the Tacoma  boys Herman Kozik but everyone called him Kozik.

Here lately I have been feeling sick and found out why I have a inoperable tumor and was secretly getting treatments because I didn't want to worry the guys or Gemma because they have a lot going on. Jax's son Abel was born prematurely, their warehouse was blown up and their guns are stolen. We needed the bodies and that is why Kozik was down here but Tig won't patch in him because of some bull shit from the past he won't get over.

" Alexander we need the bodies here and you keep rejecting Kozik why?"

" Not you too doll."

" Yes me too, I can't take the tension between you two, so kiss and make up or I am taking you to the ring Tig and you know I can kick your ass."

" I can't Doll, but the way you are looking lately I don't think you can kick anyone's ass. You ok doll?"

" Nice Tiggy, I love you too. Yeah I am just tired."

I kissed him on the cheek and walked away, I was tired from the treatments but they didn't seem to be working and I was getting worse by the minute. I was so scared but I was too chicken shit to tell my family and get them all worked up. So I went to visit Abel he seemed to calm me down, he was a fighter and it made me a feel real weak. This little guy was stronger than me and it made me sad but glad he was surviving.

I was getting worse and I could feel it but still able to hide it with makeup and lots of coffee and pain pills. As long as I seemed ok they won't ask me if I was or not, I needed to be strong for my guys and it was taking a toll on me, I was losing my hair from lack of nutrition so my doctor told me to take supplements and wanted to try radiation again but I refused to because it wasn't shrinking the tumor so why take a treatment if it wasn't working, I started to smoke pit as well to help myself to have a appetite so that I could eat around the guys.

Kozik's POV

I have noticed lately that Shelly was hiding something and honestly don't know what it was but she was trying to be strong for herself but for us too. I have liked her since I first started to come around and heard her stand up for me warmed my heart but I was chicken shit to tell her and Tig told me she was off limits but I didn't care because I will make her mine and I needed to man up.

I came unto the lot one day and she wasn't there which was unusual because she was always her drinking her coffee and smoking her joint that she has been doing a lot lately but told me it was for her migraines but I didn't buy it but couldn't call her out on it.

" Hey where is Shelly?" I asked Gemma

" I don't know she isn't answering her phone which is unusual, I was about to send one of you over there."

" I will go."

But I wasn't the only one to go Jax, Happy and Tig went with me as well, fear, dread came over me as I drove to her house. I was so afraid as to what we were going to find when we got there, we were at war right not but tried to keep it out of Charming and the Mayans usually don't go after women.

Eventually we pulled to her house and nothing seemed out of the ordinary so we all parked our bikes and went inside with guns drawn to be on the safe side but what we found the house was intact and she was no where to be found, so we started to yell for her but no answer, we walked into the kitchen and there she was passed out on the floor so I called 911 and she had a pulse thank god.

We all followed the ambulance to St. Thomas and called the rest of the guys to meet us there, we all were in the waiting room when the Doctor walked in,

" Family of Shelly Johnson."

" That's is, what happened?" Gemma asked and what he told us had rocked all of us to the core. Thank god Shelly made Gemma her next of kin, Shelly had an inoperable tumor and was getting treatment til last month but stopped because it wasn't working and was in constant pain because of it.

Now I know why she had migraines, there wasn't a dry eye in that waiting room and we didn't care who saw us crying because that women we grew to love is dying and stopped her treatments. The Doctor told us she didn't want anyone of us to know so that we wouldn't be worried about her, that incredible women was worried about us and not herself.

We were allowed to go back one by one to see her and she looked so pale but at peace at the same time, I needed to final tell her before it was too late, she woke up when we all visited her but it was taking it out of her to talk and what the Doctor told us next had us crying more, she was dying and could go at anytime, so everyone said there goodbyes and I finally told her.

" I love you Shelly have for a while now but was too chicken to tell you plus Tig told me you were off limits. I shouldn't had listen to him but now I feel like crap to tell you now, but I love you Sweetheart."

I kissed her on her lips and she woke up and grabbed my face with her weak pale hand and told me,

" I love you too Herman and kick Tig's ass for me for saying that." She told me to kiss her one more time and then she flatlined, the nurses came and turned off her machines and I left.

Her funeral was very beautiful and everyone turned out for it, she was loved by everyone. She was buried as my Old Lady and to be honest I will never love any women again, she was it for me and I should have told her and made her fight more.