SONS of ANARCHY One Shots

Ride til I Can't No More

Summary: You are the first and only Female Son, you are Clay Marrows sister and have the same problem he has with his hands, you going to ride til you can't more.

Being the first and only Female Son in the whole MC you had a lot to prove, plus being a First Nine's sister  Clay Marrow you had to prove more to him. It was hell getting where I am today, I have been beaten, stabbed, shot, been to jail and prison all for the Club.

I have been married three times because they didn't know how to handle me or the Club because they had a weak constitution. Bryce was my late husband and understood the life and he joined as well. He gave me two beautiful children and they accepted the life as well, now neither of my boys wanted to join and I was ok with that Bryce Jr became a doctor and Jace joined the Marines.

Unfortunately I lost Bryce to the Mayan war we had back in the nineties but I killed the Mayan who took my husband from me and my kids, Marcus shot for that and I shot him too. My kids thankfully didn't blame me or the Club for it, I see my boys all the time along with Bryce Jr's two little boys Jacob and Jason.

I love being a grandmother but it still doesn't stop me from being with the Club or riding. My hands want me to stop because unfortunately like my brother I have the same problem and maybe have two or three more years left where I can't ride no more but until then I am going to ride.

" Your hands ok Shell?"

" Today is a good day Jax, I got into a fight last night with a Croweater and fucked my hand up."

" You think by now they would learn to leave you alone."

" No it's the young ones that isn't to smart. How is my great nephew?"

" Getting stronger everyday, he will be out of the toaster soon."

" That's good, I remember when you were the one fighting for his life and made it. Abel is a Teller and he will get through it."

" Thanks Aunt Shell I know love you."

" Love you too."

He kissed my cheek and left. Besides my hands hurting it was also the anniversary of Bryce's death and it still gets to me every year, they say time makes it easier but it doesn't it still feels like it was yesterday I lost him I think as I rubbed my shoulder where I got shot by Marcus.

" Love you ok?"

" Just thinking that's all."

" It's his death date right?"

" Yeah tomorrow and it seems like every year my hands act up and my shoulder hurts the closer to the date it get."

" It never gets easier even after this long but you have us to get you through it."

I laid my head on his shoulder and he put his arm around me and we stayed like that for a while but in the distance we are being watched not by a enemy but by my brother and Gemma. Not in a bad way but in a good way.

" You ok with that?"

" If she wants to go somewhere with it I don't care she is a grown women and plus he has been pushing off the girls away a lot lately so he is faithful and they have known each other for years."

" Maybe he is what she needs to get through this."

" Maybe your right."

Chibs and I eventually wonder into the Club for a beer and stayed in there til I was ready for bed. So he walked me down to my room because I wasn't wanting to go home tonight and I had way too much to drink. He was about to leave when I asked him to stay.

" Sure Love I will stay."

He got down to his boxers and me into my t shirt hell we are both grown adults and to be honest I had feelings for Chibs for a while now but never acted on it because I thought about Bryce and thought I was cheating even though he has been dead for years now. I started to cry and Chibs held me until I fell asleep and he kissed my forehead and fell asleep himself.

Woke up the next expecting a empty bed but he was still there and he was watching me.

" It's not polite to stare."

" Can't help it when there is a beautiful next to me."

" Such a charmer."

" You have no idea love, be mine?"

" Yes I will because to be honest I have had feelings for you for a long time and we aren't getting any younger."

" Good because I feel the same way, Bryce would want you to move on."

" It's true he would plus Jr and Jace like you so approval needed there. Jacob and Jason like you so that's a plus, they will be happy that Mawma is happy."

We got up and dressed for the day, went to go get coffee and announce to the Club we were together everybody congratulated us and we went about our day. Around dinner time Jr, Jace and the kids came by and I was happy to see my boys. Jason and Jacob has been having a hard time lately because their mom died and Jr is raising them on his own.

" Jr can't you transfer here so that you are closer so I can help with the boys?"

" Been thinking about it mom, I need the help since Rachel died."

" I am here for you, you know that. I love the boys when they visit and no runs are coming up anytime soon."

" Ok I will see the hospital administrator tomorrow and see about a transfer."

" By the way I am with Chibs now."

" Good for you mom about time you need to be happy and we like Chibs. How are the hands by the way mom?"

" Well hitting a girl at the Club didn't help at all and I got maybe two years before I can't ride."

" You retiring then?"

" Yes that is when Clay is stepping down as well and letting theses younger ones to run the show."

Dinner went well and the next day I told Chibs that my boys were ok with us and my grand babies are going to be around more. He seemed happy with that he loved my grand babies and was good with them.

True to my word I rode until I couldn't no more and to be honest I was happy stepping down from the Club along with Clay. We were enjoying watching our grand children grow up Jason, Jacob, Abel and Thomas was a blessing to have around and those three told us they wanted to Prospect when they got older and we all were fine with that.

I loved spending quality time with Chibs and he with me, he retired as well and was enjoying the extra time we had with no worries of the Club. We got married a few years back and it was amazing plus I got his Crow and he got my Crow. The one I had for Bryce had is birth date and death date, it was a chapter of my life that had ended and Chibs was my next chapter.