SONS of ANARCHY One Shots

Someone I Loved

Requested by SierraKing768

* This is going to be a sad one shot at the beginning but I promise it will be fluffy in the end*

Summary: You had just lost your husband Kozik because of something that Clay did and you can't get over the loss. You are singing this song in your head at his funeral and Chibs noticed you spacing out. Can he get you through this pain and will you fall in love with him?

Five Years Ago

" I promise to love, honor, and cherish you til the Reaper comes."

" I promise to love, honor, and cherish you til the Reaper comes."

" By the power vested in me and the state of Washington I now pronounce you man and wife. You may kiss your bride."

Herman Kozik the man I loved with everything I had in me had just made me the happiest women in the world by marrying me, he kissed me and it was fantastic. I kissed him back with so much passion, he was the a great man and I was glad he made me his.

I had met Kozik when my friend Kelly brought me to the Sons of Anarchy Club in Tacoma, Washington. She invited me to a party that would change my life forever, it was a patch in party. Happy Lowman and Herman Kozik was patching in after prospecting for a year.

When I seen him I felt like we were the only two in the room and he felt it too, he came over to introduce himself, we hung out all night I told him to enjoy the festivities but he said he was happy right here with me. That night a friendship was formed between me and Happy and the night I fell in love with Herman.

It was a rough start to our relationship but we managed to get through it and if we fought we made up that same day. He never would go and cheat on me like some guys would, he would go to Happy's to cool down and come back to me and make up. When ever he got locked up Happy was there to help me, protect me, to make sure I ate. He was my best friend and I was his, he loved me like a sister.

When he wanted to transfer to Charming because Happy did I was skeptic at first because I had heard some bad things about the Mother Charter, how people were dying or how a Old Lady was killed by  a member but he reassured me everything was ok.

" Herman I have a bad feeling about moving to Charming."

I only called him Herman when I had a gut feeling.

" I know Mae but it will be ok, things have finally calmed down in Charming."

" But what about the Old Lady that was killed by a member? What if it happens to me?"

" That was a huge mistake because of Agent Stahl tried to make a member look like a rat and he was suppose to be in the car not her. Baby you are protected by me and Happy."

I finally caved and we moved to Charming, little did I know my life was gonna to change forever. I would make an appearance when ever it was requested like a lockdown or at the ' Taste of Charming' or at Gemma's dinners. I didn't really trust her but I had to make nice with her because I didn't want to be on her bad side.

The boys had been sentenced to fourteen months in prison and stayed around the Clubhouse more, Herman was there as well helping to keep TM running, along with Opie, Piney and the three new Prospects. The guys eventually got out but Clay did some dirty stuff behind the Club's back and got them into a Drug Cartel.

I was worried about Herman because he was a recovering addict and he might relapse.

" Herman are sure you are ok with this? I mean is there any way out of this?"

" Mae baby it's ok and unfortunately not right now but once this is over everything thing should be back to normal."

It never went back to normal because when Happy showed up with just Herman's Kutte I lost it, and I blamed Clay for this, my husband was dead because of the Sons of Anarchy. Happy let me cry in his arms until I fell asleep from exhaustion. He stayed with me every step of the way, through the preparation of his funeral to packing up my house.

I was sitting at the Funreal and just humming away to a song trying not to cry, trying to remain calm and not have an outburst at my Husbands funeral because I really want to tell Clay to get the fuck out but I needed to be respectful. What I didn't notice was how Chibs was watching me, he was worried about me. After his funeral I left, only Happy and Chibs knew where I was, they came to check on me to make sure I was still alive. If I was eating or showering.

" Mae where are you?"

" Bedroom."

He walked in a saw me sitting on my bed with all the pictures of Herman and me from our wedding day to the Clubhouse in Washington to here in Charming. I started to cry and he held me and was rubbing my back and was telling me to let it all out.

" Why does it still hurt Felip?"

" Love you lost your husband it will always hurt but it will get better I promise."

He held me all night and for once since I lost Herman I felt like it would be ok, I was starting to like Chibs. Was it wrong to fall in love with another man, was I disappointing Herman if I moved on?

It has been about six months since losing Herman and between Chibs and Happy I was getting better, I still stayed away from Charming but Chibs told me Clay met Mayhem, Gemma was killed by Jax for killing Tara and Jax met Mayhem. It was a shit storm but things seemed to be looking up for the Club.

" Love come back to Charming please. I want you closer and Hap does too."

We started to date a couple months ago and it seemed to be going ok, he was now the President of the Club, Happy his SAA and Tig is Vice President. Happy told me to be happy and move on, Kozik would want me too and I did.

" Ok I will come back to Charming Felip, it is time to make an appearance."

We went back and believe it or not I didn't feel dread when we entered town, it felt peaceful. We pulled into TM and noticed it has changed, Chibs told me it was blown up but I got remodeled. The Club was earning legitimately, no more violence.

He was right things were a lot better and he asked me to be his Old Lady and rule together as Queen and King of SAMCRO. Happy was well happy for me that I found love again and found out I was pregnant with a little boy who we decided to name him after Herman as a tribute a friend and a loved one. He came into the world screaming and crying, our little man Evan Victor Telford.