Best Mistake I've Ever Done

CHAPTER XXXIV

My Sacrifice...

Jennifer's POV

I rushed to Grandeige hospital to look for Jason.

"Excuse me. I'm looking for Mr. Jason Statham. I'm a friend of him" I told the nurse.

She looked for the lists at the computer. She looked at me with sad eyes. I wonder why.

"He's in room 402 mam." She told me.

"Okay thanks." I went inside the elevator. I felt really nervous. I don't know why. I reached the 4th floor and look for Jason's room. A doctor came rushing to me from his room.

"Are you Jennifer?" He asked me.

"Yes I am. Where is he? What happened to him?"

"We knew that he doesn't have any family here"

"His parents died when he was in college. But he has an uncle in New York." I told the doctor

"Mr. Statham asked me to call you since he doesn't have any family members here except for you. i'm afraid to tell you but Mr. Statham is dying."

dying...

I can't beleive what I just heard. What? How? I narrowed my eyes.

"How? I mean he is healthy. We've been together for a year. And he never get sick. He's a healthy man." I told the doctor still shocked by what I just heard.

"He kept his sickness as a secret to you. He's visiting this hospital once a week for his check up. He has aneurysm. He can die any moment when it attacks. Last night he had a severe attack. Luckily he was rushed here before he could die"

I was so shocked. I can't beleive he's been sick.. And I can't stop thinking about last night.. That it was my fault.. I felt tears stream down my face

"You can now go inside." The doctor told me.

I came inside. I saw Jason already awake. He gave me a half smile. I sit at the chair near his bed.

"You never told me you were sick." I told him.

"Because I always beleive I can be cured, because you're there making me happy" he said. His voice weak.

"I'm sorry.." I told him as I cried.

He held my hand..

"Shh. Don't be.. I had a severe attack lastnight. The doctor said.. I can't be cured anymore. I can die any moment Jen." He said holding back his tears.

"No. Don't say that.. you'll gonna be fine."

"I won't.. I'm gonna die. Alone." That hit me.. I can't stop thinking it was my fault why he's here now, why he's dying.

"If only I knew.." I told him

"Would you say yes if you knew?" He asked me.. I didn't answer.

"Guess the answer is still no. You love him Jen, he will always be the one.." he told me.

"I don't wanna die alone Jennifer.. I don't wanna die knowing no one is gonna be there on my wake. No one is gonna be there crying for me.." he said.

He held my hand tightly and started to cry..

"I know you love him so much. And you'll never love me the way you love him. And that's okay with me Jen. That's okay. I just want you to be with me, because you make me happy. You make me feel alive even i'm dying. Your my strength Jen.. Please..."

My heart is beating fast. Is he asking me to stay with him? But I can't leave Harry

"Jason.. you know i'm with Harry now." I told him.

"I know..  I know...but all i'm asking is for you to stay with me until I die. Until I'm no longer breathing. I just want to be happy in my numbered days. I just want someone to take care of me.. Even if not as my girlfriend or lover but as a friend. Please.. " he said crying..

He's begging me to stay.. I remember him being there when i'm alone.. when I pushed him away but still he stay.. but Harry.. I can't just leave him. I waited 3 years  just to be with Harry again. I thought everything will be okay. But here is Jason, begging me to stay with him because he's dying. I felt the pain in my heart..

Knowing that whatever decision I will make will hurt one of them. I took a deep breath.. then finally made a decision that I know will be worth it. I stand from my chair.

"Jen. Where are you going?" Jason asked me

"I just need to go somewhere." I told him.

"But.. I want you to stay" he said as he tightly held my hand.

"I really need to go somewhere Jason." I said as he finally let go of my hand.

"Your going to Harry?" He asked me.

"I am." As I smiled to him and rushed to the door.

"You'll be back right?" He said with his voice almost breaking, almost begging..

I closed my eyes before I turned around to looked at him. I just gave him a smile before I leave.

I rushed to exit the hospital as I felt tears stream down my face. Harry must be waiting for me now. And it gave me a sudden pain in my heart again..

I drive to the Carnival to meet Harry, and I still can't stop crying.. everything will be okay.. I told myself. I'm already at the Carnival, and it's already night time.. I look for Harry.. and I saw him sitting at the bench smiling with stuffs on his hand.. and that.. that breaks my heart..

I wipe my tears and try to look strong... I walked towards him.

"Harry!!" I shouted making him looked at my side. He smile big and rushed to me. He gave me kiss.

"You're late!! But it's okay.." I can see the happiness within his eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm late.." I told him, trying to make my voice strong and confident. Even inside i'm starting to fall apart.

"That's fine.." he looked at me in the eyes and cupped my cheeks.. sensing that something is wrong..

"Hey.. are you okay?" He asked me..

I looked at him.. still trying to be strong. Trying to be okay.. But I can't.. I just can't... I put my palms on my face and started to cry....