Crazy | bts x Jimin

二十二

Jimin pov

At first, I thought I would never see them again, since their confession. I lost all contact with them, they left the city and changed their numbers. I was alone.

They say that all I am is a pretty face, I have no use in this place at all. I wanted to prove them wrong, I had to. I don't want to be known as the boy who only has a pretty face.

I studied hard, really hard. I studied day and night non stop, and maybe sometimes I had gotten a little overboard and fainted but thats out of the point.

I drowned myself with work from school and tried to get to a good job. My parents never really pressured me, so they were shocked when the letters came in.

I can't even put up a smile for them.

I stared at my letters, long and hard. I don't even know what the hell I'm doing anymore! I feel like they are just flooding my mind — those thoughts.

I can't control myself when the demons take over, they all say I should become a model or maybe even a singer, simply someone who lives off a face.

I shook off the thoughts before putting on my clothes and grabbed the coat I brought home yesterday since I didn't take it off before leaving work.

I decided that I should walk to the office today since the weather isn't too bad this morning. It was rare that I don't feel bad early in the morning. There wasn't a lot of people which I appreciate, I definitely hate being in crowded places.

I walk quickly and head into the building and started the day as I usually would by cleaning and sorting out my files. It is the same thing every single day, I don't even know why I haven't hired anyone yet. Right, the tests, they can't be leaked out.

Looks like I have to do everything by myself for quite some time then.

Just as I was about to sit down to take a breather, the bell rang. I looked at the time, it was pretty late so it is probably the boys.

I quickly walk over to open the door for them so they could enter and I could start my fun quickly. The guards just left automatically, I guess that's why they are called guards. You only need to tell them once and nothing else is needed.

I've always thought about myself, I mean if I am not normal, does that mean I'm not human then? They always say that if you're not normal then we would treat you like a beast.

Those were the words of the guards that I overheard talking back when I was still at the institute. I wonder how they are, I hope that there aren't any more killings though, that would be a bit over the head

"Just take a seat first, I'll be right back shortly. You can just chill and relax at the moment. I'll go collect my files from my room." I said before retreating into my office.

This whole test or you could call it an experiment, it is very important. It is my only lifeline now. Nothing can save my anymore.

I just hope they let me have my way with them so this would succeed and I can just kill anyone and everyone who opposes me.

I won't even let a single bacteria past my eyes at this. Nothing and I mean nothing can stop me.

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Okay like this is the first time I'm writing a personal message to you guys. So I won't be updating from 15 October to 29 October. I'm starting school soon so yea I need time to adjust my schedule slightly.