bts imagines

❝the daughter we never had❞ PJM - ANGST

"you'll be here for me until the end right?" he smiled as the moon's light shone on his angelic face.

"Of course love. I'll always be here no matter what." he said.

She felt a tear drop down her cheek. "Promise me."

"I promise you love." he muttered. "That even though the ocean dries out, my love for you won't. I'll stay and keep you inside my arms warm and tight."

"Stop crying now because I won't leave you just like how they did. I'll stay for you and me."

He cupped her cheeks as he wiped her tears and kissed her forehead. She then rested her head on his chest, wrapping her arms around his torso.

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"IF YOU ONLY HAVE BEEN MORE CAREFUL THEN OUR DAUGHTER WOULD'VE STILL BE IN YOUR WOMB!" he shouted as she cried harder, covering her ears and bringing her knees to her chest.

"I-I'm sorry-"

"Your sorry can't bring anything back y/n!" he continued shouting.

"You know damn well that you're pregnant for eight fucking months now yet you go outside without my permission! Look at you now!"

"Look at the cause of your stupidity y/n. Look at yourself. Because of your dumbness, a life was held back and stopped to see the wonders of the world."

"A life was held back to be in my arms. To be surrounded by my warmth." he glared at her. "All because of your stupid decisions."

He watched as she slowly break down and sink into deep sorrow.

"ARGH!" he shouted and stomped towards the front door, heading out and slamming the door closed.

She flinched and continued to cry.

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He silently opened the door to see everything still like how it was before. A total mess.

"Y/N?" he softly called out. He then heard sobs and headed upstairs to the bedroom. He then opened the door as his tears fell over the sight that met him.

She was sitting on the bed, sobbing as he was tightly holding the dress that they had bought for their daughter.

"y/n...." he whispered, running towards her and sitting beside her on the bed.

"M-Minji-ah" she muttered the name that they were supposed to name their unborn daughter. "M-mommy's sorry. I-I failed you baby-" she sobbed.

Jimin hugged her as he, himself, sobbed. She was in so much pain and he neglected it. He was only thinking about himself.

"Y/N..."

"J-Jimin..." she whispered. "I'm sorry."

"No no love, please stop crying."

"Minji. She's gone." she sobbed. "It's all my fault. Minji's gone because of me!"

"Why was I so stupid." she sobbed.

"Why didn't I just die." she began hitting her head as he yelped, hiding her arms down. "I should've been the one that died! Not my daughter!"

"Love please stop." he sobbed, hugging her tightly as she slowly calmed down.

"My daughter...."

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"Taemin-ah!" jimin called out to his 5 years old son. "Come and sit down. I brought Ice Cream."

He cheered and skipped towards the small table by the park, carefully grabbing the ice cream from his fathers hand.

"Appa?" he called out. "I have a question."

"Hm, go ahead baby." he said.

"Why is mommy often crying at night?" he innocently asked, licking his ice cream.

Jimin, on the other hand, halted his movements as he heard his statement.

"Really baby?" he asked.

"Mhm. She often cries while clutching my noona's baby clothes." he said, referring to the daughter they never had.

"Hm. Maybe I'll ask mommy later okay?" he assured him. "Now finish your ice cream. Your aunty is probably waiting for us at home now."

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"Ah, what a beautiful daughter you have." y/n muttered, forcing out a smile

Yoona smiled, looking at her second daughter and caressing her small face.

"Thank you. She is indeed beautiful."

Soon enough, the family of four left and as they did, y/n felt her tears releasing her eyes.

(a/n: ya author's lazy so please excuse me.)

She then hurriedly headed towards their bedroom and sat down the bed, wiping away her tears.

Jimin's eyes softened as he saw her broken state. He then sat down in front of her, softly holding her hand.

"I want to let it go, to let her go but I can't seem to jimin. I love taemin. God I love him more than I love myself but I just-" she sobbed. "The past and everything just haunts me everytime. I've always wanted a daughter and when I almost had one, I-I blew it away."

"Why am I such a careless person jimin?" she said. "I hate it. I hate myself and I hate my stupid decisions."

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oh and i cried while writing this wth.