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❝antidepressants❞ MYG -angst

❝antidepressants❞
min yoongi
angst

"Our parents didn't even ever love you y/n." your older sister smirked. "They almost aborted you and almost put you to adoption."

"But grandma and grandpa had to be whiny ass people." She scoffed. "Nobody ever loved you other than them."

"So what makes you think yoongi will?"

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You looked at yourself in the mirror, grip on the sink tightening as your tears slowly fell down your eyes.
You didn't want to, but you had to believe that this was reality.

Harsh reality.

Your breath quickened as you forcefully shut your eyes. You panted, feeling your panic attack surfacing.

"No," you muttered, trying to calm yourself down. "This...is....not...good. Y—yoongi might come home—" you slowly said between breaths.

You cupped your face and tried slowing your breath. "Calm the fuck down y/n...." you whispered to yourself and when calmed down,

You quickly opened the kit and took out the antidepressants you safely hid. You then opened the lid and drank the medicine.

You calmed down when suddenly, you heard the door opening. You hands shook as you unconsciously placed the medication on the sink.

You splashed water on your face and wiped it with a dry towel, walking out of the bathroom and heading downstairs to face yoongi.

"Hi yoon." you softly smiled and pecked his lips as he held you by the waist and also kissed your forehead.

"Hi princess." he tucked your hair behind your ear as he sighed. "Love you."

"Mhm. Love you too yoon." you smiled. "I'll heat up the food again and set the table, okay? Go and change to comfortable clothes yoon."

He nodded and let go of her as he headed upstairs. You smiled and began humming a tune as you went to the stove and began heating the food.

A few minutes later, while you were now setting up the table, you hadn't notice that yoongi was now heading downstairs.

He stood behind you and muttered, "y/n." you turned around as you slightly jumped by his sudden presence.

"Oh god you scared me yoon." you smiled but it soon faltered as you saw his stiff expression. You then brought up your hands to caress his cheeks. "hey, what's wrong?"

He placed his left hand on top of yours as he slowly raised his right hand, revealing your antidepressants.

Your eyes widened and you gulped. "Y-Yoon—"

"Why didn't you tell me y/n?" he asked. "Why didn't you tell me you were feeling this way?"

"I-I didn't wanna be a burden yoon—"

"You know you won't be y/n." he softly said. "I told you that already. You aren't and you will never be a burden to me!"

Your brows furrowed as sweat formed on your forehead. You tried to reach for the antidepressants but he quickly lifts it up.

"Just give me back my medicine yoongi—"

As you reached for it, your fingertips brushed against it forcefully, causing it to fall from his grip and onto the cold floor. The lid pops open as you watch it slowly scatter everywhere.

"No! fuck!" you screamed, your tears rapidly falling as you fell to your knees and gathered the scattered medicine with shaking hands.

"Y/N..." yoongi watched with his tears falling too. He saw how desperate you were. How desperate you were to feel the happiness you longed for in such a long time.

"You don't understand yoongi!" you sat on your bum as you continued crying. "I just wanna feel happy and loved! This is the only way I could feel it yoongi! This is the only way I could remove this feeling inside of me."

You hugged your knees and continued crying. Yoongi then sat down beside you and tightly hugged you.

"I'm sorry y/n..." he said. "I didn't realize it until now. I'm such a dumb boyfriend."

You shook your head and opened you mouth but no words came out as you continued sobbing. Instead, you hugged him back, and began kissing his cheeks as he cried harder.

You really did love him. And you love him so much.

"I can make you feel loved y/n." he muttered. "I will make you feel loved. I will take away that sadness you are feeling. Let's start all over again, like it's our first month together."

"And this time, I'll make you feel like the queen you are."

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