❝ it's like sadness became my coping mechanism. the pain and tears it brings is quite beautiful to see ❞
this is an imagines book but it's contents are mostly angst.
requests are closed for now (may 09, 2020)
#1 in bts angst
#80 in korean
08/24/19
[🌙] : title : ❝ you need me ❞ [✨] : type : angst [🍂] : member(s) : min yoongi
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( this hurts LMAO)
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Being with someone like you has made me realize many things. You made me question my whole existence and my worth.
Sometimes I find myself wondering, am I really someone you love? Or am I just someone you've been hanging onto for support?
I watched silently as you giggled along with your group of friends, eyes twinkling from happiness. You were popular, and I knew exactly the reason why.
You were someone that laughs every problem away.
I'm sorry for tying you up in this relationship.
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I softly caress yoongi's hair, humming an unfamiliar tune as he lay your head on my lap.
Has loving you always been this painful?
"Yoongi," I whispered and he hummed, eyes slightly closed. "What if I suddenly disappear? What would you have done then?"
"Why the sudden question? Is something bothering you?" That's weird. I suddenly feel like crying.
"Nope." I giggled "Just answer the question yoongs"
"I don't want you to disappear." he whispered, opening his eyes and facing me, eyes staring into mine. "I need you."
Of course you do.
I chuckled, placing my palm on his cheek. "I'll stay by your side then."
Even if it means dying.
I smile, softly whispering, "I love you, yoongi."
"I know." he whispered back, smiling.
Of course. He doesn't love me.
He only needs me.
If I hadn't met you, would everything be so much better than how it is now?
—flashback—
I looked into your eyes as you sat in front of me at the cafeteria. Having been known one of the popular boys, you sure do have such a painful expression on your eyes.
"Say, is something bothering you?" I whispered, trying not to catch any other attention besides his.
"Huh? Why?" he whispered back.
"You seem to be very lonely considering that look in your eyes." you chuckled.
I watched as his eyes widened. "What..."
"Hm, we don't really know each other but..." I trailed off. "I can listen to your problems, kay? I'm always free" I smiled softly.
He opened his mouth in shock before whispering, "Yeah... thanks."
—present—
However, that wasn't the case, you didn't use me yoongi. I used you.
If I hadn't met you back then, then I wouldn't be able to be living my life as well as I am right now.
Please don't ever leave me.
I'm begging you.
[🥂] : author's note — hi! yes, i AM alive LMAOO. I'm so sorry for being so inactive, school has been vERY stressful lately, i hope y'all understand.
