❝ it's like sadness became my coping mechanism. the pain and tears it brings is quite beautiful to see ❞
this is an imagines book but it's contents are mostly angst.
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#1 in bts angst
#80 in korean
08/24/19
[🌙] : title : ❝ me or her❞ [✨] : type : angst [🍂] : member(s) : kim taehyung
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I remember the feeling of excitement I had when I first saw you. The way I immediately wanted you to be mine. The way I wanted to hold you and say,
"I love you. Please stay with me."
— flashback —
I peeked through the ajar door of the music room, mouth slightly open in awe as I listened to him play the guitar.
It was like I was brought to another world. It was like I was brought somewhere where I truly belong.
Just like that, I found myself listening to you play everyday, secretly staying by the door and wishing that you played for me too.
— present —
Nothing went my way. I was a coward,scared of everything.
And because of that, I watched silently as you tell me, "I like your friend. Could you maybe tell her to meet me later?"
Soon enough, you both started dating, unaware of me. Unaware of my feelings.
Please look at me too. She only dated you because you liked her. While I truly love you. Please acknowledge me.
But considering the fact that she didn't sincerely liked him, their relationship was toxic. Constantly having fights here and there, involving me in their stupid arguments and then make up.
"Please let me stay for now." I looked at him with disappointment, opening the door further and letting him in.
"Fine. But don't stay the night here. Go back home after you calm down and make up." I said as he followed me towards the kitchen.
"But y/n I don't wanna go back there. She'll just start yelling at me—"
"Then break up with her." you growled, facing him. "If you're fucking hurt and let go taehyung."
"Stop clinging onto her. You know damn well your relationship's toxic." you shouted. "Stop hurting yourself! I hate seeing you like this—!"
"It's not that easy y/n!" he shouted back. "I love her! I can't just let her go!"
You stayed silent, "....Right. Of course."
"Fine then." you whispered. "Please stop meeting me after this."
"What?"
"I said I don't want you meeting me after this whole incident. If you keep being with her, then you're going to lose me taehyung."
"It's me or her."
"Why the hell are you even making me choose—!?"
"Because I'm tired of seeing you so broken! It's either you break up with her and quit keeping up with her toxicity or stop meeting me and showing me that painful look of yours!" you said, tears streaming down your cheeks. "Taehyung it hurts me seeing you hurt like that too."
He scoffed, stepping away from me. "Fine then. You know damn well she's the one I'm gonna choose."
He walked away, slamming the door close behind him.
Why did I ever think that loving you was going to bring me happiness?
You brought nothing but pain to me.
author✨ I think I'm about to end this book soon :(
