The Colour of Sadness

after the rain

《 触れられずにいれたら 笑えたかな？》
If we had never touched,
would we still be smiling now?

I place my palm on the window
Where the rain droplets linger
Tracing their way down

Eyes closed, I can't help
But think about your palm
Against mine
Pressing into the thin glass
That separates our joined hands

It still lives on in my memory
That scorching summer afternoon
Plagued with rain showers
And that umbrella
You sheltered me with
Remembers the moment
I kissed you
On your cool, wet cheek
And the sensation
Of my lips alight
Even though you were cold as hail

In this cruel autumn,
I'm still longing for that season.

I miss you,
Standing outside my window
The scenery fades away
Dies away and bows to you
When you're right in front of me
Even the rainbows
Seem to disappear into light
Right away when you smile

I've been unable to do anything
These days; just daydreaming of you
Nothing but that once
You were a part of me
That once,
You had a home in my soul

I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow.
The rain only brings back your aftertaste
And the raindrops cascading down
Are reminiscent of hidden tears

It's still not enough
It still won't fade away
Do the palms of our joined hands
Still hold any innocence?
What a good thing we lost
What a bad thing we knew
I'm still soaked in your words
Like I've been in the rain

It's still not enough
I still can't say
The goodbye I've been dreaming of
While counting down the days

No matter where I look
My eyes still find yours
Even when there's no one
I guess you're still a part of me
Even though these days have passed us by

I still want to feel you
But you're so radiant
It makes me want to look away
From the light of your kindness
That I first loved like no one else

Looking out the window,
I saw a dream that could never come true
Why am I still longing,
For that season?

If I had been a little more brave,
Could I have said something more?

But this rain shower has passed us by
And I guess it's a little too late
For all the words I failed to say

When you let your umbrella down
When the rain poured down on us
And I stepped out
Into your rain
I was soaked in your feelings
I was overwhelemed

I was caught in your rain.
Our rain.
Droplets pulling the heat
From our bodies
And extracting our untold stories

I wanted to stand in the rain
Forever.
Ever.
So much that I didn't think
About what would happen
About what would become of us

After the rain.