✔︎ |𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐒*𝐉𝐄𝐍𝐙𝐈𝐄

Ch//32 Longing

After they released Brynn to me, going through all that paper work because both her parents are gone. They told me to keep a close eye on her, and maybe get her into therapy.

I decided to take her home with me, since her house was farther, and she'd probably be more safe with me anyways.

As I drove up the driveway, parking my car, I saw the lights on in the house. It was night, what could have possibly been going on.

As I was getting out the car and going over to Brynn's side, I remembered what Johnny told me about her feelings for him. Hopefully he decided to take some initiative and tell his parents to stop acting like he doesn't exist.

Of course not. Johnny was still here, but so was Isaak. And they were yelling. Where is my sister? I would love to know too.

I held onto Brynn's free arm and led her into the living room. Since all the spare rooms were upstairs, I had to face Johnny first.

Brynn kept her head down as we got to the threshold. Isaak immediately saw me, since he was facing my way. "Kenz!" Johnny turned around and saw me too.

"Woah, what happened?" Before answering any of them, Brynn should rest. "Yeah, we all have a lot of questions. But I'm going to bring my best friend upstairs, and you two are going to shut the hell up" I said firmly.

After settling Brynn in, I dreadfully went back downstairs to see the two boys glaring at each other from opposite sides of the couch.

I stood in the middle of the living room, folding my arms over my chest. "What's going on?"

"Your boyfriend is being a prick" Isaak said rolling his eyes. "The hell I am! I just found out you had a panic attack" my arms dropped to my side.

Did I seriously not tell him about that? I mean, it's for his own good. He already has too much stuff to deal with.

"Why didn't you tell me?" His eyes went soft, like they always do when his disappointed in me. "Honestly, it wasn't that big a deal"

"Not that big of a deal? I'm the one who caused that! And I couldn't be there for you? But he could.." Johnny's head fell.

I walked to him, lifting his head up. "It's not your fault. I was just going through so much at the time, hearing something else bad...triggered it. But I promise, it wasn't your fault okay?"

Johnny leaned into my hand and grabbed my arm. He put it down slowly and looked at me. "I believe you"

"Finally" Isaak spat out. Is he serious?! "What is wrong with you? You come into my house, argue with my boyfriend, and you think you have the right to speak?!"

"Woah, I wasn't—"

"Get. Out." Isaak slowly rose from the couch and walked near me. "Kenz, let me explain.." Johnny stepped in front of me. "She said get out. You should probably listen"

Isaak of course, wouldn't take being spoken to like that. Like come on! Why do boys do this?!

"Or what? You're gonna hit me? Channel all that inner rage into your fists? Try..me."

Stupid asshole.

Johnny swung first, already making blood come out Isaak's nose as he stumbled back from the hit. "Johnny!" He completely ignored me. He went straight after Isaak.

Isaak punched Johnny's jaw, and Johnny went back and threw him into the wall. "Guys! Stop!" I was so not having this while Brynn is upstairs trying to sleep.

I rushed over to try and get Isaak off Johnny, since they tumbled to the ground. But instead, Isaak swung back and hit me. Like, really hard.

I just felt excruciating pain as I fell back, hitting  my head on the ground. "Oh my god Kenz!—" was all I heard until I was just gone.

There was nothing. Just silence and darkness. I didn't feel anything..then everything disappeared.

Until I slowly lifted my head, rubbing my temple from the head ache I now have. I looked down at my hand and saw a huge amount of blood.

But that's not the worst thing that I had saw.

Johnny. Standing over Isaak's, what I hope is a passed out body. Covered in blood. It was dripping from his head, to his fingers, into a small pool surrounded by Isaak. I couldn't even see his face, but I pray it's not as bad as I think it is.

"J-Johnny?.." I said slowly. Still holding my arm on the ground for support. "Kenz.." Johnny walked towards me. Every step he took was hurting my head even more. "Oh no..baby"

He ran his bloody fingers over my bruise. I winced at the pain. "I'm so sorry Kenz" tears started falling from my eyes.

Because my headache, my bruise, but mostly...Johnny. I inched away from him. I was honestly scared of him. Literal blood dripping from his arm, where there had been a cut. His knuckles red, probably from how hard he hit Isaak. Handprints of blood all over his shirt. But, I could still see his eyes, that looked more hurt then he ever was.

He noticed me backing up and got on his knees. "Your scared of me?" I kept quiet, tears still falling down my face. "Kenz please don't-" I moved back more as he tried to reach for me.

I don't know why, but I thought he was going to hurt me. "Please Kenzie. Let me help you at least? I'm so sorry you had to see this" he held his hand out for me to grab. His eyes were getting duller by every second that passed that I didn't take his hand.

I didn't want to..honestly. But everything was hurting. And my heart hurt even more for him. I loved him, and I wanted him to be okay. But he's only ever okay with me.

My hand slowly went to his and a smile formed on his face. He helped me up and held me close to him. He took me upstairs to the bathroom and sat me down on the toilet.

He was more worried about me than he was about himself. I looked into his eyes as he washed the blood off my forehead. My heart was beating faster as I longed for him. But he still scared me. He wasn't Johnny. He was someone else.

But I still fucking loved him.

"I love you Johnny"