✔︎ |𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐒*𝐉𝐄𝐍𝐙𝐈𝐄

Ch//4 Let's Talk

"So, what you wanna talk about?" I said as we entered an empty bedroom and sat down on the bed.

Being this close to him just brought back so many memories. Just, not the ones I hoped they bring.

"Us" I looked at him softly. I was so not ready to talk about us.

"I understand that your mom died, and my deepest regards are with you. But what I don't understand, is why we had to split. I thought we were good. I was ready to be there for you, for you and your sister. But then, you ended things...after everything we've been through, I thought we were going to last..."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I wasn't even thinking about how he could have been affected by our breakup. I've been so selfish towards him, I didn't mean to make him feel bad.

"Please say something Kenz" he wanted the truth. But there was no way I was going to tell him I'm blaming him for this, he'll just hate me even more.

"I-I'm..sorry"

"Is that all?" he looked at me gently. Like the next things that came out of my mouth were going to break his heart.

"I really didn't mean to hurt you Johnny. I wasn't, thinking about how it would affect you. I was being...selfish"

I looked down at the floor. Hoping he wouldn't make me feel any worse than I am right now.

I mean, come on! I was gone for 2 weeks. And I come back to Hayden saying he loves me, and Johnny wanting to fix our relationship.

This is just too much.

"It isn't your fault you know?" He said, finally breaking the silence. "What?" I was obviously confused.

"Your mother's death. It wasn't you fault"

I know that. I believe meeting you was a curse.

"I didn't-"

"Can't we fix us? I still love you Kenz" oh no. Please not now!

The door to the bedroom flung open. We saw Brynn laughing with Hayden at the door, until they turned their heads and saw us sitting on the bed.

"Oh. We didn't mean to intrude" Hayden said politely. Brynn looked over at me, questioning why I was here with him.

I mouthed 'help me' and Brynn nodded. "Hey Kenzie, uh..we need to talk" I got up to go to Brynn.

"But Kenz.." I turned my head back to Johnny. "Later John" I turned away and walked downstairs with Brynn.

"Are you okay babes?"

"I don't think I ever will be" Brynn shook my shoulders. "Come on, be happy" I looked at her like she wasn't serious.

"How are you always so happy Brynn?"

"I don't know. I mean, there's lots to be happy about. But then again..my mom didn't die" I looked down at me feet as we reached the kitchen once again.

"Which, I'm clearly sorry for" Brynn stated, obviously seeing I was upset.

"Let's just keep my mother's death, in the no talking about pile okay" she nodded her head.

"Totally. Anything for my bff. Speaking of, Annie got this really cool ice cream machine. Let's go"

"When did she get a ice cream machine? And how do you know so much about what she's been up to?"

"Well, I had to occupy my time somehow. And she called me over here every time Asher would leave. He bought her the ice cream maker like three days ago" I nodded my head, listening to everything she was saying.

"Man. I missed a lot. I probably should have caught up with you guys"

"Oh no, don't sweat it. You were dealing with stuff, it's fine. Now, onto ice cream!!"