✔︎ |𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐒*𝐉𝐄𝐍𝐙𝐈𝐄

Ch//21 The Hospital? Again?

"She should have never went to the stupid party! She could've gotten hurt! More than she already is!"

"Look it's not her fault alright. Annie asked her to hang and she came over without knowing it would be a party"

"Oh is that right?"

"It is. Yes"

"Oh fuck you Isaak"

"The hell Maddie?! I'm just as upset as you are! I found her on the fucking street having a god damn panic attack and you think your the only one who gets to be mad?!"

"Isaak I—"

"No. Fuck this. Call me when she wakes up. Other than that, I don't want to speak to you"

God dammit. Not again. I hate this, there is seriously something wrong with me.

My eyes lifted open after the loud footsteps died down what seemed like an endless hallway.

Great. I'm in the hospital. Again.

"Kenzie! Oh my god your awake!" Maddie ran over and hugged me. She let go once she realized she was crushing my oxygen supply. "Hang on, I'll get the doctor"

Long story short: I had a panic attack last night, Isaak found me and got me to the hospital. And they found out that I have some disorder that has to do with blackouts.

Thanks dad. For the fucked up genes you passed down.

"Wait, what is it?"

"Psychogenic blackout. It's an involuntary reaction of the brain to pressure or distress" my sister nodded, standing next to me. I hated this. The last time I was here, my mom didn't show up and we had no idea why. But I guess we do now. I don't know why but, I was still hoping she would show up.

"Psychogenic blackouts sometimes develop after people have experienced ill treatment or trauma. They are sometimes a reaction to a horrific experience in the past which a patient has not able to come to terms with."

"Makes sense" my sister spat out. Yeah, just tell all my business why don't you. "Oh really? The doctor started writing down stuff on a clipboard. "I'm going to need you to tell me all the trauma you've been through so we can better help understand what we need to give you"

God! They make we sound like I'm mentally ill. Which, I'm starting to believe.

"Don't worry. Take your time"

I'm seriously going to have to think about all of this?! Well..this should be fun.

"Do dreams count?"

"Yes Ms. Ziegler. Anything that you can remember"

"Okay..well there was a dream I had where my some-what boyfriend cheated on me with the high school slut" the doctor nodded and wrote on his pad again.

"Um..I got into a car crash because of my anger issues. My friend got his nose fractured because of me, and my best friend got hurt in the crash with me"

"Now was this all in the same day?" I nodded my head. "Yes sir" the doctor continued to write on his note pad.

"My horrible father came back one time and tried to take us from my mother. Uh, my some-what ex boyfriend broke in my house to apologize for 'thinking' he hurt me more than my friend. The same high school slut stabbed me with a knife, that resulted me in the hospital also"

"Wow, you really don't get a break do you?" The doctor asked. Maddie answered before me. "Yeah, you'd be surprised"

"And the same girl tried to kill me with a pillow the next day"

"Wait, did you say pillow?" I nodded my head. "Wow. Okay then. Continue"

"A guy I thought I had a crush on, kissed me one day then when on a 'date' with my best friend" Maddie put her hand on my shoulder. "Woah Kenz, you never told me that"

"Yeah. I didn't tell you a lot of things once you started getting really focused for college" Maddie folded her arm over her chest. "My father blackmailed my some-what ex boyfriend to break my heart. Then we later on found out the he died in a car crash, which really wasn't true once he had showed up again not knowing that everyone thought he was dead. And I thought for the longest time that it was this person but it really wasn't—"

"Kenzie, breathe" I looked down and saw my fist clenched together. Wow, just talking about my father made me upset. "Right, yeah I'm sorry"

"Hey, I can uh..let you calm down for a bit. I can come back later"

"No no, it's fine. I'm really starting to hate hospitals, so I'll just get it over with now" the doctor nodded his head. "I uh, found out that my best friend liked my crush, then my crush that was no longer my crush at this time tried to roofie me"

"Wow, Kenz. What were you getting into to?!" I laughed a little. "I wouldn't even know" the doctors wrote more stuff down. "And the time that my sister sold me out to my mother. When I was at a hotel with my some-what ex boyfriend" I folded my arms and smiled.

"Yeah, sorry about that Kenz"

"Oh! And let's not forget when mom staged an intervention for me and Johnny to get back together"

"Oh wow. I remember that. She told me to leave the house so you guys could be alone. Man..she always knew how to take care of us" I rubbed my arm. I was all of a sudden getting goosebumps. "Yeah..she did" it was silent for a moment.

"Did something...uh, happen with your mom?"

"She died" Maddie answered quickly. Like there was no remorse. "Oh, I'm sorry. I guess we have all we need. I'll come back in a couple of minutes after running some tests, then you'll be released" I nodded my head.

"Man. I'm so sick of hospitals" Maddie said and plopped down on the sofa next to the hospital bed. "You and be me both"