Minji's Sitter | Taejin ✔️

Forty-Seven

Jin thought Taehyung was joking about not wanting to sleep with him, so when Taehyung offered to walk him back to his room, he rolled his eyes knowingly expecting Taehyung was going to try something with him. However, that did not happen as Taehyung walked with him to his room and bid him goodnight without even turning to look back at him; he was left by the door feeling very confused.

It's not that he wanted to sleep with Taehyung or anything, but it didn't stop him from being confused. Jin stormed into his room in frustration; he didn't like how Taehyung was being; it was weird, tiresome, and annoying. He searched his room for a bottle of wine to drink, but couldn't find any as he had drunk it the night before.

He was supposed to call for more, but Taehyung interrupted him earlier and pulled him out to dinner. Jin stood in the middle of his hotel room, confused about what to do, he needed something to drink or do to put his mind at ease. After pacing back and forth around his room in frustration, he storms out of it and walked next door to Taehyung's room, ringing the bell.

Taehyung was about to get into his bed when he heard the ringing of the doorbell, pulling on his shirt with his pants he walked towards the door and opened it, he was slightly shocked to see Jin standing there.

"Do you have wine?" Jin leaned against the door and looked at Taehyung.

"No," Taehyung looked Jin up and down, who seemed to be very tired.

"Don't lie to me, I need it, please." Jin had a headache, he just needed a glass to go to bed, or even sex, he would take that this point. This trip to Disney had been too much for him; Taehyung's behavior had been a lot; also, he didn't know how to deal with it all. He needed something that was going to take him away from his reality.

He pushed past Taehyung and walked straight into the ensuite kitchenette, looking around he didn't see any wine, but a bottle of whiskey, he lifts it and turns to Taehyung, "how is this? can I have it?"

Taehyung shakes his head and walked towards Jin, "No, that's very strong. Why don't you try sleeping? You don't need anything to drink." Taehyung tries pulling the bottle form Jin, but he wouldn't let it go.

"You don't know what I want, stop acting as you know and stop telling me what to do." Jin hugged the bottle against his chest and tried walking past Taehyung, who pulled him back.

"Fine, have a drink with me then."

Jin was taken back by Taehyung's offer, but shrugged his shoulder and walked back towards the counter, "alright, you open it." he pushes the bottle to Taehyung.

Taehyung didn't trust Jin leaving with the whiskey. Jin was used to drinking wine, and the whiskey was very strong, if Jin were to drink it all, there would be a problem for him.

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Taehyung and Jin had been drinking for a while, Jin more so than Taehyung. Every time he tried stopping Jin, Jin would snap at him, so he left him hoping he would knock out any moment on the couch, but it took a while.

"Life is fucked up," Jin mutters, dropping his empty glass on the floor.

Taehyung reaches down and picks it up, "Why do you say that?"

He looked up at Jin, expecting an answer, but Jin surprises him by beginning to cry. "Jin, are you okay?"

He scoots closer to Jin to see if he was okay. Jin dropped his head back on the couch, "do I look okay? my life is nothing but fucked up, but what do you know anyway, you have all this money, Minji, house, taking trips and living it up."

"J-" Jin sat up and placed his finger on Taehyung's lips, "Shhh, listen to me, let me talk. Everyone's always talking; no one listens to me."

Jin reaches for the bottle of the whiskey, turning the rest to his head, but Taehyung pulls it from him. "you talk, I will listen, but no more drinking."

Jin slumps back in the couch and glared at Taehyung with tears running down his face, "you know I don't fucking understand you, one minute I am a whore, one who is not your type, but now you are doing things, you are talking to me like you care, but you don't! You don't fucking care, and I don't know why you are acting as you do, but I want you to stop. Tell me straight up if you want to fuck me, but stop doing this, it's confusing me, and I don't like it." Jin's voice fades in his tears towards the end as he tried yelling at Taehyung.

The room was silent, Taehyung watched Jin intently for a while before he said anything to him, "Why is it confusing?"

He was expecting Jin to yell, but he didn't. Instead, he softly responded, "I don't know. but you don't like me."

"And what if I like you?"

"Then, you are lying, and I don't want you to lie to me."

"Why is it so hard to believe me?"

"You hurt me." Jin brought his knees to his chest and cried out more. Taehyung tried touching him, but he pushes him away.

"Jin, I told you I am sorry. You hurt me too, but I am willing to forgive you and move forward."

"When? You said you were okay with be a-aborting the baby."

"It does not mean it didn't hurt, but that's not what I am talking about, you brought up my husband Seokjin, he's dead, that hurts me a lot."

Jin peaked his head up and looked at Taehyung, "I am sorry. I was mad at you."

"It was the same for me when I called you a whore, it's because you made me angry, it was wrong of me, but I was hurt too, and I wanted to hurt you back."

Jin didn't say anything for a while, he wiped his tears and rocked back and forth while looking into space.

"Jin can you talk to me please, do you forgive me?"

"You know, no one's ever really loved me. I mean, I think I am to be blamed too, but I don't know what love is like. I know how to care for Minji, and I know she cares about me, but when it comes to everyone else, I don't know. I don't understand why I get judged for sleeping around, having abortions, but he never got judge for doing what he did to me, my parent's never got judge for leaving me, Jimin never got judge, why is it me? Why do I even think it's okay to keep still living, I make everyone unhappy, sometimes when I drink, I want to end it all, but I can't. Why can't I end it all, Taehyung? Why? Why is it so hard to keep living, but so hard to go at the same time? Isn't that fucked up? Wait, why are you crying?" Jin wiped the tears that were falling down his face and looked at Taehyung.

Taehyung pulls Jin into his arms, not caring about Jin's resistance, resting his head on his chest, "I am sorry, I am sorry, if you give me a chance, I promise I will show you life is worth living and I won't judge you, I promise you."

"Namjoon said the same thing, but then he-"

"I am not Namjoon. I am Kim Taehyung, and I am asking you to give me a chance." Taehyung lifts Jin's head and turns him, so they were facing each other. "will you give me us a chance?"

"Taehyung I-"

"It's yes or no, Seokjin."

"What does giving you a chance mean? What are you going to do? Are we dating or-"

"No, I want a chance to be your boyfriend, exclusively me, no one else."

"b-boyfriend?"

"Are you giving me a chance to be that Seokjin?" Taehyung was firm on his words and question as he didn't want to give Jin a reason for swaying his mind.

"Can we date? I don't know if I can be with you exclusively." Jin feared commitment and Taehyung was asking him to commit to him and only him, he had never really done that.

"no, I don't want to date. unless you are dating me exclusively."

"F-fine, I will try being your boyfriend, but you can't hurt me if you do, I am going to hurt you back." Jin threatened while glaring at Taehyung.

Taehyung wrapped his arms around his tightly and pulled him closer to him, "I have no plans of hurting you." he places a small kiss on his head and leans back in the couch with him. 

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A/N: Errors will be fixed at a later time.