After | Matt Daddario

Chapter 35

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I looked at Matthew without really being aware that I was staring. I didn't knew what to say or what to think. What did he mean with 'Your Damon'. He definitely acted like a dick but... I don't know... 

"Are you done staring?" He asked and I blinked my eyes a few times before I was able to truly look at him.

"Euhm..." I mumbled. I was still feeling weak. My whole body was aching and even standing up, made me feel like I was going to drop on the floor. 

"You scared-" I sneezed before Matthew could finish his sentence which left him speechless after. He exchanged worried looks to me and touched my forehead with his massive hand.

"You are burning up." He said and I just shook my head. I knew that I was burning up but I just needed him not to touch me. Every time he did, I felt like I couldn't breathe. I couldn't breathe when he was around me and I was afraid that it would show. I was afraid that he would figure it out. 

"No." I said, trying to move away his hand from my forehead. Matthew looked at me confused, more angry than confused. 

"What do you mean no?" He asked a bit annoyed.

"I mean, I know I am not training to become an doctor but you are clearly burning up." He said and I sighed. I nodded know. My head felt heavy and I felt like I was going to faint. 

"Alright." I said and try walking but slipped.

"Hey!" Matthew shouted quickly as he held me tightly across my arm. He pulled me closely towards him and with his other hand he held my cheek.

"You got to rest. I won't let you get out of bed." He said. Without even saying something else, Matthew picked me up and walked towards my bed. He laid me down on my bed and I couldn't seem to not notice his rosy lips.

They were so close to mine and I could feel his breath in my neck. Matthew looked at me and gave me a small reassuring smile.

"Where is Matthew and what have you done to him?" I asked playfully. Matthew sat down on the corner of my bed and smiled.

"That guy realised that he was a bit too much of a dick." Matthew said and I laughed softly. 

"Of course he did." I said and Matthew just looked at me with a smile around his perfect, rosy lips. Only if I could kiss him now... I need to stop being so desperate for him. 

"What made you come back?" I asked softly after both of us were quiet. Matthew looked at me and somehow, I could see that he was feeling guilty. One of the emotions that I would never see of him. 

"You." He simply said. I frowned and looked at him. How did I make him come back? I was slight annoyed that he just gave me a simple answer. I just nodded and looked down. It will be a massive mission to get Matthew to talk about his feelings. He rather let it consume him and destroy him than talking about it. 

"When I reached the party..." He started slowly. I looked up now. Matthew was playing with his finger slightly which made him seem a bit nervous. Was he nervous? Why was he nervous?

"It gave me more reasons to go back to you. I mean, my friends are great. I just felt..." He said softly. He sighed and looked at me.

"I just felt bad leaving you there. I just felt bad that we fought. Something made me want to come back to you." He said. I looked at him with a small smile around my lips.

"When I saw you unconscious... I had never experienced so much fear, anger and guilt at the same time." Matthew said. It shocked me slightly, that Matthew was speaking about his feelings to me. Out of all people, he chose me to talk about this... I guess I unlocked something inside of him...

"If I knew that you were locked... I would have never left you there." Matthew said as he sat down a bit closer to me. His hand was now resting on my upper leg and I couldn't help but to smile at him. 

He made me feel special. I know that he barely speaks about his emotion to anyone. Not even his sister... Vivien thinks that her brother is a lost cause but looking at Matthew, he doesn't seem like that... I see million reasons why I would love him... Why I would believe that it isn't over for him... 

"That makes me relieved." I said softly. I saw Matthew looking at me with a bit of confusion in his eyes. 

"It makes me feel relieved that you won't just leave me there to die." I said and Matthew smiled.

"If I do, I am sure you will come back and haunt me." Matthew said with a small laugh that sounded like music in my ears. He was truly a gullible person... He had this soft side to him... He just never showed it to anyone. I laughed to what Matthew said.

"I will never do something to intentionally hurt you." Matthew said as he looked at me. I looked at him and I couldn't stop myself. I needed to feel his lips against mine... I felt like I needed too.

Before I did something stupid, Matthew came closer to me and pushed his lips against mine. I couldn't help but to feel his soft lips against mine. Matthew held my face as he was still pressuring his lips against mine. 

He kissed me and kissed me, like he couldn't get enough of it. It was such a passionate kiss... A kiss I had never shared with anyone... 

When he backed away, both of us were out of breathe as if we just did some exercises.. We kind of did... My cheeks flushed red and Matthew bit his tongue.

"Who knew that you could kiss this good." He said and I frowned.

"Does it seem to surprise you that I can?" I asked and Matthew shook his head.

"I know that you can be shy but behind that, there is the real you." He said with a smile. He came closer again and gave me one soft kiss.

"Rest now." He said before leaving me alone in my room with a racing heart.

"Damn it..." I said softly as I let myself fall back in my bed. I just kissed Matthew...