Lost & Found [✔️]

XLV

Grayson's POV

I was wandering down the city, seeing everyone working hard to repair what had been broken during the fight. The normal life was starting to come back. Grocery stores started to reopen, public transport was driving again. People's lives were going back to normal, except for mine. It's weird to realize how hard I needed Delilah all along. When we left her, I always knew she was out there somewhere, ready to talk or to help me. She isn't here anymore, she's not somewhere walking down the streets like I was. I looked up to the clear sky with only a few saint clouds. She's somewhere up there, looking down on us. She was always my guardian angel, sadly she's nothing more then that anymore. I let out a deep sigh as I continued to walk again. I needed to get some groceries for me and the guys back at Kyle's place. I walked down the street and entered the grocery shop.

"Hey man, you're one of the guys who saved us, right?" The man behind the counter asked me. I slowly looked up to him but didn't put off my sunglasses. I looked like a walking zombie ever since I can't eat or sleep normally anymore. It's a miracle he even recognized me.

"Y-yeah," I said hesitantly. I didn't feel like a saviour, I failed.

"Leave your list of what you need, we will bring it home for you," The man said and I gave him a small smile. "What's your address?" The man asked and I inhaled deeply.

"Scott's Mansion," I said and it felt like a rock formed in my throat. "How much do you need?" I asked him after I gave him the list and grabbed my wallet.

"Nothing, it's on us," The man said and I immediately looked up from my wallet to him. I shook my head gently as I left a fifty dollar bill on the counter with the list.

"A saviour shouldn't let other people pay for his business," I said with a smile before I left the grocery store. I made my way back to Kyle's place as I watched the people through my sunglasses. I smiled softly when I saw a few people running up to maybe their family or friends. This was all we ever wanted, for people to not live in fear anymore. I stood still for a moment when I realized what building I stood in front of. Taylor Enterprises. I remember the times I used to pick up Delilah for lunch, or after work. I remember carrying her heavy bag full of paperwork. I complained so many times about how heavy it was. Was I ever kind to Delilah? Was I always such a jerk? I realized I took her for granted many times. Delilah was always there when I needed her and she never hesitated to do so. As my eyes started to become watery, I continued my walk towards Kyle's place. Tyler's Enterprises was far beyond me after a while. It was a long walk from Kyle's place towards the city but I used this walk to clear my head. This whole time I couldn't think of one thing I did for Delilah and it ripped me apart. I can't imagine what she must have felt about me before she died. I can't even remember if we had a fight or not, was I even nice to her before she disappeared?

"There you are," Ethan said when I entered the place. I nodded slowly as I put off my jacket and threw it on the kitchen counter. I sat down on a stool as I buried my face in my hands. "What's wrong?" Ethan asked as I must have looked like a wreck right now. I slowly looked up to him again and I saw him clenching his jaw when he could see I was crying.

"Don't be mad," I said shaky as my voice was giving up. I sniffed my nose and rubbed my tears off of my face with my sleeve.

"I will never be mad when it's about your feelings," Ethan said and I immediately looked up to him again. I never heard him say those words to me, not directly. "Come here..." Ethan said as he widened his arms. I didn't have to think about it twice and stood up from the stool. I almost pushed myself into his arms and I couldn't contain myself anymore. I totally lost my control and broke down into tears.

"I was such an ass to her, E," I said in between my sobs. I took my all of my breath in my lungs to speak out those words. All I could think about was her, her hair and her beautiful eyes. How she smiled from ear to ear when she was so happy. I will never see her beautiful smile again, I will never see her again...

"It will be ok, bud," Ethan said softly and I immediately shook my head at him. I slowly pulled him away from me and sat down on a stool again. I softly rubbed in my eyes and forced myself to stop crying.

"It won't be ok, and you know why?" I asked him as I slowly looked into his eyes again. "Because she isn't coming back, she will never join us anymore. There will never be a moment I can make it all right for her, I can never tell her how much I loved her or cherished her. I acted like a total scumbag most of the time, I used her like an old towel, like garbage." I said and my voice was cracking. I saw Ethan looking at me with pitiful eyes and I immediately looked away.

"You're right," I heard someone say behind me. "You were a scumbag most of the time," It was Kyle, sitting down beside me. He too had lost weight and looked like he hadn't got out of this house for weeks.

"I know that, Kyle. You don't need to tell me twice," I said as I buried my face in my hands again.

"But that was the most beautiful part of her," Kyle said, totally ignoring what I just had said. I slowly looked up to him and frowned softly. He seemed like he was in his own universe. "She forgave us when we most needed her, she saw passed our mistakes and helped us. She never doubted us, she never took us for granted, she just did what she thought was right," Kyle said and he finally looked up to me. "Even though she didn't deserve us," Kyle said and I saw the pain in his eyes. We definitely never deserved her....